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"...in my mind’s eye I saw myself committing suicide by cutting my wrists."
I was placed on Paxil approximately five years ago.
At first it seemed to help my depression until one evening about six months after starting the drug, I was upstairs doing some work when all of a sudden in my mind’s eye I saw myself committing suicide by cutting my wrists.
I was so frightened as I picked up my portable phone and debated who should I call, my doctor or go to the hospital and tell them I had this thought. After a bit the feeling subsided. I discontinued using Paxil by weaning myself off this medication.
I told this story to my doctor who of course did not believe me. I will never even contemplate taking one of these serotonin reuptake drugs.
Another thing that happened was that I had a pet cat and she had been vomiting a lot. Well one evening, thinking that I was rational, I actually planned to take her to the basement and stab her. To me, when I was experiencing this thought, I felt I was quite rational and that the act should be carried out.
Well, no, I didn’t do anything like that. But it frightens me to think that I could have had such thoughts. I do go through periods of depression but, as stated above, will never take one of these serotonin reuptake type medication.
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