Survivor Story 191:9/77 – Student’s Life Destroyed on Prozac. “I just felt insane. I felt like screaming…”

 

A Survivor Speaks Out

2003

This is Survivor Story number 9.
Total number of stories in current database is 77

5/16/2003

Student’s Life Destroyed on Prozac

 

Antidepressants

“(After begging my doctor to put me on Prozac,) I just felt insane. I felt like screaming, tearing my clothes off and running around like a madman.”

I wrote to this site several weeks ago about sending in my story. As I wrote it that night, the anger, fear and trauma built so badly that I ended up ranting and rambling. I needed some time away to think and to collect my thoughts about this nightmare so that I could do it justice on paper. I will try to make it as brief as I can:

In 1991, my parents separated. I was 18 at the time. My mom had been seeing a psychiatrist and was taking Prozac. She turned into a completely different person. She was vengeful, angry and borderline psychotic. My mom told me that my dad was an alcoholic (I since have learned she is as well) and that we have depression in our family. She recommended that I see a psychiatrist as well. I blew her off and went to college the next year. I starting drinking once a week (parties) in college and started becoming depressed. It was harder to get up in the mornings now and I remembered what mom had told me.

I panicked and went to the doctor. Mom went with me to the doctor (right before she left home) and I practically begged him to put me on Prozac if that was “what I needed.” He assured me that the side effects were dry mouth, possible weight gain, nausea, etc. I took the stuff and almost immediately started feeling badly (the doctors told me that that was impossible as it would take two weeks to get into my system.

They have since concluded that some patients are effected in a few days. I just felt insane. I felt like screaming, tearing my clothes off and running around like a madman. I told my doctor that the stuff was making me crazy but he told me that it was me and not the pills (For the record, he was an MD who could prescribe meds. I was referred to him by a psychologist.) So we upped the dose. I had also been taking a benzodiazepine (Klonopin) because I was having trouble sleeping and I immediately became addicted. The doctor never told me that these pills were addictive. I stayed on Klonopin for three years and mixed and matched medications constantly as my condition worsened. I tried to save a drug problem with more drugs and I spiraled completely out of control as I was caught in that vicious cycle we all have heard about.

I tried countless anti-depressants. I was later diagnosed with manic-depression and schizophrenia. The possibility exists that the Prozac helped my depression and left my manic phase alone (or aggravated it.) Medications are constantly evolving and the doctors don’t even know sometimes so I have no real answers. I took Paxil for a day and puked my guts out. I took Luvox and all I thought about was killing people. I took muscle relaxers and other pills while my addiction went unnoticed by doctors in two states. I switched to Atavin in 1995 and drugged myself completely to death for two years. I was taking the near maximum dose. I was later told by other doctors that I should never have been on benzodiazepines for that long. I told one doctor that I needed to quit taking the benzos as they were killing me. He apparently misunderstood me and told me that I would be on them for the rest of my life. I’m assuming he meant the other medications I was taking. I had to go to another doctor to phase down off of the benzos. I had a grand mal seizure by coming off them two days early (I had been phasing down for months.) This was at the Kentucky State Fair in front of my mother and sister and I almost died.

I was a solid B student with an IQ near the upper two percent in HS and I was also a successful athlete. There had been no major disciplinary problems in my schooling life up until I started taking medications. I never partied in HS and probably had only a few drinks of wine in my life before I was 18. Before the medication, I averaged a 3.0 my freshman year in college with the intent to do better. The pills sent my life into a tailspin. I dropped out of college several times after seeing my GPA dip to a 1.0. I bounced from drunk parent to drunk parent and doctor to doctor. I had been on pills until recently, even though I had kicked the Atavin for good seven years ago. I was unable to work during this time as I was addicted.

They tell us that the pills are non-addicting but they don’t understand people with addiction issues. I get addicted to anything. ANY powerful drug will addict me and the anti-depressants and mood stabilizers were no different. After fighting for my right to get clean and free of drugs and doctors (with both parents and doctors), I have made it to some sanity. I ballooned up to 242 pounds on the pills (one social worker asked me once if I would rather be fat or mentally ill.) I have since gotten down to a very healthy and athletic 185 and I feel great. I have also invested in proper nutritional supplementation. Natural supplements, especially fish oils, work and I regret not trying them earlier. In 1998, I had a domestic dispute with my dad and I was arrested and committed. I was abused, bullied and intimidated at the “mental health clinic” where I was committed, where I was put on more pills (after being coerced into signing my rights away.) Most of the rest of the “treatment” was having social workers tell me how to grocery shop (!) and play Scattergories with me and other patients (no joke.) I was also insulted in the clinic and overheard lines like “people think we’re Nazis and criminals.”

One social worker even told me, “There is no such thing as justice.” I may be misquoting exactly how she said it but the message was that justice was a fallacy in the real world. So I knew that I had no rights in this place. They charged me $500 a day (I couldn’t say no as I was a prisoner) and told me about disability and it’s insurance the day that I was to be released five months later. In the meantime, I had been put in a group home, where a miscommunication between the case worker there and the mental health clinic led to me being arrested and put back into the clinic. I was told by the clinic that I could stay as long as it took me to find a job, although the normal period was two weeks. After two weeks I didn’t have a job, so they kicked me out. Terrified, I left and went back to the clinic to talk about what had happened. The police were waiting for me and arrested me as I had “broken the rules of the group home by leaving.” I swear this is the God honest truth.

I now owe these snakes $54,000 for pills that got me addicted and for playing Scattegories while I was a prisoner. I have taken their pills, gotten addicted and have been unable to work. They continued to experiment, make more money and blamed a lot of the problems on me. I called up my original MD in 2001 and confronted him about the issue of medications actually causing the symptoms they are supposed to be treating (since proven my doctors.) I asked him if he knew about these potential problems when he prescribed the first round of meds and didn’t tell me. He said that he did after I continued to press him. I called him a bastard and he hung up (I will also note that he didn’t return any of my calls to talk to him and I had to get him at home.) I tried to report him (symbolically and as a public service) very recently. The woman I was trying to talk to answered me very rudely and in a belittling fashion that I couldn’t report something that long ago. I have since read a lot on this issue and feel that I am just another victim of corporate psychiatry (look it up online.) I am hurt, angry and betrayed by people who took an oath to help me. Some doctors were stooges while others knew the risks and didn’t tell me. These issues put my life at risk and have led to poverty and financial ruin for me.

I have talked to lawyers and they told me that they don’t even touch addiction cases of psyche meds, even if the doctors err. Apparently, these people have dictatorial power to experiment on citizens like me who suffered enough emotional abuse from drunken parents and cruel school children. I also have tried to contact newspapers online with the story but they have not written back to me. I have run from this issue as I feel I have no hope for retribution, satisfaction or justice (they also told me in the clinic that paybacks are bad. Gee I wonder why.) If anyone wants to contact me on this subject, I will be more then happy to talk. I will also be more then happy to fight as I still owe these so-called people $54,000. I don’t even have the money to declare bankruptcy right now. The payments are supposedly ability to pay but I get notices in the mail every month from the clinic.

Again, I swear that this is all the God honest truth. I wouldn’t have believed it myself if it hadn’t happened to me. I am a college graduate with a degree in history and a minor in political science and I am not stupid (I’m studying for the Mensa test now.) I knew what was happening to me the whole way but was too sick to fight it. If anyone has any information on organizations that fight these kinds of things, please let me know as I have tried many things. And, for God’s sake, don’t go to these people if you can help it. Watch your health, take the proper supplements and take care of yourselves. In my experience, if you go to these people and take their pills, you just put a gun in your mouth and pulled the trigger. I also have to live with the pain and shame of this stuff forever.

PS- Sorry it took so long but it’s a long story. I would like my name and E-mail printed as I would like to be a leader in the confrontation of these issues. If you have any questions, please E-mail me.

Jeff Riley
solongsuckers@netzero.net
(Please excuse the E-mail ID. I get angry about past stuff sometimes.)

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Survivor Story 183:1/77 – Addictive Problems with Viagra

 

A Survivor Speaks Out

2003

This is Survivor Story number 1.
Total number of stories in current database is 77

1/16/2003

Addictive Problems with Viagra

 

Other Medications

“Viagra cost me a marriage of 45 years, my home, the respect of my family and the full use and enjoyment of a healthy normal life.”

wanted to share my story and see if anyone else has had the problems that I have had after an addictive use of the drug Viagra.

By way of introduction, my name is Travis L. Crim. I am a Caucasian male 67 years old. At age 60, I embarked on a form of martial art known as Hap Ki Do. At age 65, I earned my green belt.

Along the way of martial arts, I tried Viagra. I personally found it to be very addictive which led to other addictions. I personally found it psychotic and a complete change of personality. I was very defiant to anyone who tried to talk sense into my head. I followed the directions on the bottle of Viagra at the time which said “use as needed”. I have no doubt that my obsession with Viagra caused me to have what was termed a massive stroke.

My story of my adventure with Viagra will raise eyebrows. It is not of the faint of heart. It would make great to shower congressional testimony in addition to the stroke, Viagra cost me a marriage of 45 years, my home, the respect of my family and the full use and enjoyment of a healthy normal life. Take it from a now wise old man, Viagra can do nothing for a man worth the ravage injury it can cause. I truly was blessed with everything a man could ask for before my adventure with Viagra. I would greatly like to work with others to prevent additional injury to innocent people.

You are probably aware of the spouse abuse and murders at Fort Bragg North Carolina. I understand there is a task force from the Pentagon investigating the issue of four wives killed in three months. I wondered if anyone has investigated to see if any of the servicemen were on Viagra?

Travis L. Crim

Travis L. Crim
1211 N. Marshall
Henderson, Texas 75652
(903) 657-6329

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Survivor Stories 2001 [34]

 

WARNING: Withdrawal can often be more dangerous than continuing on a medication. Please click here before discontinuing any prescription abruptly.

 

Stories most recently submitted,are listed first.

ICFDA Survivor Stories 2001

2/18/2001

Hope through alternatives even after long-term use of Prozac

“The doctors said that I needed the drugs to pull through. I finally said, ‘No more drugs!'”


1/21/2001

9-Year Old Nephew on Prozac

“I was infuriated that a child…could be medically prescribed a drug that causes…violence and turmoil in the world.”


1/23/2001

My Family’s Struggles on Prozac

“Thank you for having your site so that people can have the information to do something about this overmedication going on.”


1/1/2001

A Real Life SSRI Laboratory–Notes from a Group Home

“Too many doctors receive little or no feedback following prescriptions to patients.”


3/11/2001

A Nurse Speaks out about Prozac, Effexor and Zyban

“I have discovered many, many horrifying things about these drugs.”


1/23/2001

Humiliated and Worse on Prozac

“Frankly I think Eli Lilly is 100% responsible for the hell I have been through…”


3/11/2001

I am a Prozac Survivor

“I think this experience will haunt me for the rest of my life.”


1/1/2001

I Traded Depression for Paxil Psychosis

“I never had a single psychotic episode or symptom until I had taken Paxil and started to become aggressive and delusional.”


3/18/2001

One Celexa Killed my Father

“He was not a depressed man, nor would he ever have taken his own life.”


2/17/2001

Plagued by Side Effects after Paxil, then Cipramil

“I will never ever take this form of medication again.”


2/4/2001

Prozac (Heaven + Hell)

“In a period of nine months while taking Prozac I had 11 extremely violent attacks on people.”


2/16/2001

Prozac Killed My Son

“I want to join others who are trying to remove Prozac from the hands of doctors who hand these pills out like ‘candy to kids’.”


7/30/2001

What Happened to Caitlin

“…it is our hope that other parents can learn from our tragedy, and other children can be saved.”


7/23/2001

Murder-Suicide on Zyban

“But after going on Zyban something went terribly wrong.”


7/24/2001

Paxil–A Dangerous Prescription for PMS

“It shocked me that she would prescribe a medication with such severe withdrawal symptoms to be taken every two weeks on rotation.”


7/26/2001

Prozac Prescribed “Without a Thought”

“I cannot help wondering how much of his problem was enhanced or made worse by this drug.”


7/31/2001

Prozac and Klonopin Wrecked My Life

“They ruined me. I am damaged goods forever.”


8/6/2001

Suicide After Only a Month on Celexa

“…depression worsened on Celexa.”


8/6/2001

Xanax and Paxil—a Life-Altering Combination

“The scary part is that this was considered a legal practice.”


8/9/2001

Coming Off Paxil—the Hard Way

“…I told him I was going to just end it all and kill myself.”


8/6/2001

Going Crazy after 10 Days on Paxil and Xanax

“I realized that the majority of my symptoms were directly related to the Paxil.”


9/6/2001

Salvaging What’s Left after Paxil, then Zoloft, then Ritalin.

“DON’T THINK IT CAN’T HAPPEN TO YOU OR SOMEONE YOU LOVE. IT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME.”


8/28/2001

Shocks and Suicidal Thoughts on Paxil

“Finally! I am not the only person who had these symptoms!”


8/22/2001

Attempted Murder-Suicide on Zyban

“Now he is serving 15 yrs. in jail for the death of his little girl and the trauma that his son had to face.”


8/17/2001

Paxil Prescribed for Fatigue

“I can remember it being hard to feel a smile.”


7/16/2001

The Wrong Way to Withdraw from Paxil

“Now that I know all these weird thoughts aren’t me…just the Paxil.”


8/6/2001

A Nurse’s Nightmare on Xanax and Paxil

“In just 3 days I began going crazy.”


9/23/2001

Boys Ranch Sees Problem with Antidepressants

“It has been our experience over the past 19 years that not one of the boys NEEDED to be on drugs. I wish we could get this word out to more people.”


9/26/2001

Now in Jail for Murder after Prozac

“I was charged with murder and also death penalty.”


12/12/2001

MY NIGHTMARISH EXPERIENCE WHILE TAKING THE ANTIDEPRESSENT DRUG PAXIL

“…the constant nightmares and the stress of what happened to me while on Paxil will never go away.”


12/8/2001

Prozac killed my “Lawman of the Year Brother”

“When will this “madness stop?”


12/8/2001

Paxil Ruined My Life

“I thought I’d seek assistance for being a little shy.” “..Paxil ruined my brain.”


12/8/2001

Prozac Prescribed Immediately

“Within a few weeks (of taking Prozac), I began having nightmares of murdering people.”


12/17/2001

Strange Colors on Paxil

“…my brain started freaking out inside over colors .”


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WHY I TOOK A GUN TO SCHOOL…

WHY I TOOK A GUN TO SCHOOL…

First hand account of a boy who could have been Adam Lanza or Eric Harris…learn the common denominator in 68 school shootings over the past two decades as 16-year-old Corey talks about the day he took a rifle to his high school and held 24 classmates hostage. (Here is a video list of those 68 shootings with list of related medication: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JpFoivbZH1o&feature=youtu.be )

In order to get a glimpse of what was possibly going on in Adam Lanza’s head on December 14 as he ran into the Sandy Hook school shooting, and finally taking the lives of 27 people, watch this video interview of Corey and his father talking about the day he took a gun to school. As you listen to them describe what happened you will clearly see evidence that Corey experienced the REM Sleep Behavior Disorder so commonly associated with antidepressant use. As of a New York Times report in 2003 we now know that antidepressants were found in 86% of those diagnosed with this most dangerous of all sleep disorders.

On April 10, 2001, almost two years to the day from the Columbine massacre, Corey walked into his honors English class in Eastern Washington state and held 24 classmates hostage by standing there with his gun in his hand for 20 minutes. After about eight months on Paxil for Social Anxiety Disorder his doctor was switching him from the antidepressant Paxil to another antidepressant, Effexor. That morning Corey was not feeling well after having been taken over a three week period to the maximum adult dose of Effexor. So he told his parents he felt he should go back to bed and would head for classes later. That is the last Corey remembers until he woke up and found himself incarcerated in juvenile detention…learn from Corey and his father what happened that day in an interview from video clips of the Gary Null movie, THE DRUGGING OF OUR CHILDREN.

(See full version of THE DRUGGING OF OUR CHILDREN here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=26e5PqrCePk including the interview with Michael Moore in which he says none of the reasons they reviewed in his movie (which includes pointing the finger at guns) Bowling for Columbine make any sense & the only thing that does make sense are these mind altering/behavior altering antidepressants)

Read Corey’s story in the Denver Post: http://ssristories.drugawareness.org/archive/show.php?item=258

What Corey is describing as his experience is called a REM Sleep Behavior Disorder where you act out your nightmares…even including murder. Through the latest medical research we know that 86% of those being diagnosed with this most dangerous sleep disorder are those currently taking an antidepressant! (You can learn more about this REM Sleep Behavior Disorder & see brain wave patterns of a patient experiencing it on Prozac in the book PROZAC: PANACEA OR PANDORA? – OUR SEROTONIN NIGHTMARE! Click the picture of the book located at www.drugawareness.org to get your own copy.)

Please share this because it is an insight that no one has ever given firsthand before. And along with it you can also share the following two links:

#1 Our database Rosie Meysenberg & I spent almost 20 years in gathering the cases at www.ssristories.drugawareness.org with 66 school shootings posted there & another three documented and waiting to be posted totaling 69 at this point as we continue to await to hear about the Sandy Hook shooting.
#2 This CNN report from Dr. Sanjay Gupta on the link between antidepressants & school shootings:

http://www.cnn.com/video/standard.html?%2Fvideo%2Fus%2F2012%2F12%2F18%2Fgupta-ct-shooting-newtown-hindsight.cnn#/video/us/2012/12/18/gupta-ct-shooting-newtown-hindsight.cnn

WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

The FDA also now warns that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis. And these reactions can either come on very rapidly or even be delayed for months depending upon the adverse effects upon sleep patterns when the withdrawal is rapid! You can find the CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here: http://store.drugawareness.org/

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & http://ssristories.drugawareness.org
Author: ”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

About the Author: Ann Blake Tracy is the author of PROZAC: PANACEA OR PANDORA? –OUR SEROTONIN NIGHTMARE!, and the director of the International Coalition For Drug Awareness [www.drugawareness.org]. She has testified before the FDA and has testified as an expert in legal cases involving serotonergic medications since 1992.

BOOK: Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare! Anything you ever wanted to know about antidepressants is there along with everything drug companies hope you never find out about these drugs. SAFE WITHDRAWAL CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!” on how to safely withdraw from antidepressants & most psychiatric medications is saving lives! Both available at www.drugawareness.org

BOOK TESTIMONIALS:

“Very bold & informative”

“Priceless information that is giving me back to me”

“The absolute best reference for antidepressant drugs”

“Well documented & scientifically researched”

““I was stunned at the amount of research Ann Tracy has done on this subject. Few researchers go to as much trouble aggressively gathering information on the adverse reactions of Prozac, Zoloft and other SSRIs.”

WITHDRAWAL HELP CD TESTIMONIALS:

“Ann, I just wanted to let you know from the bottom of my heart how grateful I am God placed you in my life. I am now down to less than 2 mg on my Cymbalta and I have never felt better. I am finally getting my life back. I can feel again and colors have never been brighter. Thanks for all that you do!!” … Amber Weber

“Used your method of weaning off of SSRI’s and applied it to Ambien. Took 6 months but had been on 15 mg for years so what was another 6 months. I have been sleeping without it for 2 weeks and it is the first time I have been able to sleep drug free for 15 years. What a relief to be able to lay down and sleep when I need or want to. Ambien may be necessary for people at times but doctors giving a months worth of it at a time with unlimited refills is a prescription for disaster. It is so damn easy to become dependent on. Thanks for your council Ann.”… Mark Hill

“I’m so thankful for AnnTracy and all her work. Also for taking the time out to talk to me and educate everyone! She has been a blessing to me during this awful time of antidepressant hell!” … Antoinette Beck

I just have to put this out there… I just finished listening to the Ann Blake-Tracy’ s talk about getting off antidepressants. I cannot even begin to explain how grateful I am for the information provided! Not only for my son but myself, I have suffered terrible migraines from muscle stiffness, teeth grinding and difficulty sleeping and guess what… I was put on Zoloft for MILD postpartum depression almost 5 years ago. I was told it was better to just stay on it while pregnant with my 3rd child and then for awhile after, just for precaution, after all I was having no side effects and it is safe. My youngest in now 2. While my gut told me it was wrong for my son to be medicated I never considered this was the cause for my own pain that seems to be worsening. I guess the drug had just become part of my routine because of being on it for so long. Now we will wean off together. The information given here is so valuable and life changing. Once again….Thank you!…Amanda Briar

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ANTIDEPRESSANT-INDUCED VIOLENCE LEADING US TO GUN CONTROL & COMING REM SLEEP BEHAVIOR

ANTIDEPRESSANT-INDUCED VIOLENCE LEADING US TO GUN CONTROL & COMING R

Tue Dec 18, 2012 11:34 am (PST) . Posted by: “Ann Blake Tracy”

ANTIDEPRESSANTS??? Although we have not yet learned what school shooter Adam Lanza was taking we do know he had a diagnosis of Aspergers for which antidepressants are prescribed as a standard treatment by the large majority of physicians. (If you will recall the young man who was involved in the violence with a bow & arrow that left three dead in Casper, WY the week before had also been diagnosed with Aspergers meaning it was also likely he too was taking antidepressants or recently had taken them because this can happen in withdrawal from the drugs if withdrawn too rapidly.) And I stated when this Portland mall shooting happened a week or so ago that this case clearly appeared to be antidepressant-induced as well. But when you consider the outcome in this case as opposed to the shooting at the school last Friday you can see why it is not being mentioned by those wanting to point their fingers at more gun control. There would have been far more deaths in this incident had this mall customer not have had a gun permit.MY TOMBSTONE HISTORYBefore I began to research antidepressants I was very much anti-gun even though my great great grandfather was Mayor of Tombstone, Arizona during one of the most violent periods – the OK Coral Days. Wyatt Earp was his sheriff & Johnny Ringo was his friend and one day he had to stand between them to stop a gun battle. But my kids will tell you I refused to even allow toy guns in our home. But now AFTER learning about these drugs and interviewing so many who have had adverse reactions involving violence with any type of weapon my views have changed completely.SHOOTER’S DESIRE TO DIE RATHER THAN HARM ANOTHERWhy? Because everyone of them has made the statement that… (click link below to finish reading)http://www.drugawareness.org/recentcasesblog/antidepressant-induced-violence-leading-us-to-gun-control-rem-sleep-behavior-disorder-plays-a-role-in-school-shootings

About the Author: Ann Blake Tracy is the author of PROZAC: PANACEA OR PANDORA? –OUR SEROTONIN NIGHTMARE!, and the director of the International Coalition For Drug Awareness [www.drugawareness.org]. She has testified before the FDA and has testified as an expert in legal cases involving serotonergic medications since 1992.

BOOK: Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare! Anything you ever wanted to know about antidepressants is there along with everything drug companies hope you never find out about these drugs. SAFE WITHDRAWAL CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!” on how to safely withdraw from antidepressants & most psychiatric medications is saving lives! Both available at www.drugawareness.org

BOOK TESTIMONIALS:

“Very bold & informative”

“Priceless information that is giving me back to me”

“The absolute best reference for antidepressant drugs”

“Well documented & scientifically researched”

““I was stunned at the amount of research Ann Tracy has done on this subject. Few researchers go to as much trouble aggressively gathering information on the adverse reactions of Prozac, Zoloft and other SSRIs.”

WITHDRAWAL HELP CD TESTIMONIALS:

“Ann, I just wanted to let you know from the bottom of my heart how grateful I am God placed you in my life. I am now down to less than 2 mg on my Cymbalta and I have never felt better. I am finally getting my life back. I can feel again and colors have never been brighter. Thanks for all that you do!!” … Amber Weber

“Used your method of weaning off of SSRI’s and applied it to Ambien. Took 6 months but had been on 15 mg for years so what was another 6 months. I have been sleeping without it for 2 weeks and it is the first time I have been able to sleep drug free for 15 years. What a relief to be able to lay down and sleep when I need or want to. Ambien may be necessary for people at times but doctors giving a months worth of it at a time with unlimited refills is a prescription for disaster. It is so damn easy to become dependent on. Thanks for your council Ann.”… Mark Hill

“I’m so thankful for AnnTracy and all her work. Also for taking the time out to talk to me and educate everyone! She has been a blessing to me during this awful time of antidepressant hell!” … Antoinette Beck

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THE SANDY HOOK ELEMENTARY SCHOOL SHOOTING – FATHER WHO LOST DAUGHTER BLESSES SHOOTER’S FAMILY AS WELL

EmilieParker

EMILIE PARKER ONE OF THE YOUNG VICTIMS OF THE CONNECTICUT SCHOOL SHOOTING

Thank you to Lisa Williams (our past New Jersey Director for the International Coalition for Drug Awareness) for alerting me to this article. This video recording is of Emilie’s father who lost his daughter in the Connecticut shooting talking about his little girl & how blessed he was to be her father &  praying for the families of all the victims, including the family of the shooter.

VIDEO OF SCHOOL SHOOTER TELLING HIS STORY TO BE RELEASED ASAP

I will be posting a video of a school shooter who survived his antidepressant-induced nightmare telling what happened to him in a school shooting incident so that you can see clearly why this incredibly compassionate young father is right on the mark in offering condolences for the shooter’s family as well.

OUR PROMISE TO LITTLE EMILIE & HER CLASSMATES

Rest in peace little Emilie & know that your mission here upon this earth is NOT yet over because there are those of us who understand why your life was cut so short & who will continue to fight this battle for truth about the real cause behind the loss of your life & all your classmates. May your innocent blood cry out along with the innocent blood of so many more victims of these deadly drugs as a witness against those who thought their corporate profits were worth more than your life, those of your classmates, & the thousands upon thousands of other lives that have been cut short by these drugs!!

(On a sickeningly ironic side note this piece also aired on a TV station in Salt Lake City who could have put an end to these shootings over a decade ago when a woman on these meds ran into their news studio shooting & killed a pregnant newscaster & her unborn child. They never reported the truth with that shooting & I doubt they will with this one either.)

LISTEN AS EMILIE’S FATHER BLESSES THE FAMILY OF SCHOOL SHOOTER ADAM LANZA

www.cnn.com/2012/12/16/us/connecticut-emilie-parker/index.html?hpt=hp_c3

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & www.ssristories.drugawareness.org
Author Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin
Nightmare! & safe withdrawal CD Help! I Can’t Get
Off My Antidepressant!

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ANTIDEPRESSANT-INDUCED VIOLENCE LEADING US TO GUN CONTROL & COMING RELEASE OF VIDEO OF SCHOOL SHOOTER & FATHER TELLING THEIR STORY – REM SLEEP BEHAVIOR DISORDER PLAYS A ROLE IN SCHOOL SHOOTINGS

Adam Lanza

ANTIDEPRESSANT-INDUCED VIOLENCE LEADING US TO GUN CONTROL

ANTIDEPRESSANTS??? Although we have not yet learned what school shooter Adam Lanza was taking we do know he had a diagnosis of Aspergers  for which antidepressants are prescribed as a standard treatment by the large majority of physicians.  (If you will recall the young man who was involved in the violence with a bow & arrow that left three dead in Casper, WY the week before had also been diagnosed with Aspergers meaning it was also likely he too was taking antidepressants or recently had taken them because this can happen in withdrawal from the drugs if withdrawn too rapidly.) And I stated when this Portland mall shooting happened a week or so ago that this case clearly appeared to be antidepressant-induced as well. But when you consider the outcome in this case as opposed to the shooting at the school last Friday you can see why it is not being mentioned by those wanting to point their fingers at more gun control. There would have been far more deaths in this incident had this mall customer not have had a gun permit.

MY TOMBSTONE HISTORY

Before I began to research antidepressants I was very much anti-gun even though my great great grandfather was Mayor of Tombstone, Arizona during one of the most violent periods – the OK Coral Days. Wyatt Earp was his sheriff & Johnny Ringo was his friend and one day he had to stand between them to stop a gun battle. But my kids will tell you I refused to even allow toy guns in our home. But now AFTER learning about these drugs and interviewing so many who have had adverse reactions involving violence with any type of weapon my views have changed completely.

SHOOTER’S DESIRE TO DIE RATHER THAN HARM ANOTHER

Why? Because everyone of them has made the statement that they wish someone would have stopped them (with a bullet if necessary) from doing what they did while having this toxic reaction that led them to such out of character violence where they could not stop themselves and yet did not want anyone hurt. Do I believe those feelings were any different for the school shooters from Eric Harris & Dylan Kleebold to Adam Lanza? NO!!! I have always said that they would have been the ones most shocked by their own actions as they reached the other side and were able to realize what they had done because of these deadly drugs.

EEERIE PROPHESY OR SIMPLE MATH?

In fact in 1992 I contacted the NRA and told them that if they did not help to educate the public about antidepressants that these drugs would be the means by which enough violence would errupt in our society for those in power to call for the taking of America’s guns. Apparently 20 years ago I was the only one to see this coming and was not taken seriously. Now here we sit right in the middle of it all…

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & www.ssristories.drugawareness.org
Author Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin
Nightmare! & safe withdrawal CD Help! I Can’t Get
Off My Antidepressant!

PS If sharing this link please include my statement with it.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=BuLgO4wo4xI&feature=youtube_gdata_player

 

“INSIDE THE BROKEN MIND & DAMAGED SOUL OF ADAM LANZA”… (ABC)

LEARN HOW REM SLEEP BEHAVIOR DISORDER PLAYS A ROLE IN SCHOOL SHOOTINGS

What patients on antidepressants and their families are not being told and desperately need to be warned of is the REM Sleep Behavior Disorder which is basically where patients act out nightmares. Considering the time of day this shooting happened that could easily have been what happened to this young man. That is a condition where you act out your nightmares. Restless leg syndrome is often the first sign of this developing in a patient. another sign is very vivid dreams. of those being diagnosed with this extremely dangerous sleep disorder 86% are taking an antidepressant making these drugs the most common denominator.

SCHOOL SHOOTER & HIS FATHER SPEAK OUT

I will soon be posting an interview with another young man who was on antidepressants when he took a gun to school just over a decade ago. You will be able to clearly see that what he describes is a REM Sleep Behaviour disorder reaction steming from a switch from Paxil to Efffexor. This is exactly what comedian Phil Hartman’s wife suffered when she shot him and herself while under the influence of Zoloft.

This disorder often begins to manifest via Restless Leg Syndrome or very vivid dreams or nightmares. Watching for those reactions to antidepressants is most critical. I will have a new e-book published on this very deadly reaction in the next week or so. Corey’s father is also making himself available for interviews.

WATCH FOR POSTING SOON

Be sure to follow me on Facebook (Ann Blake-Tracy or International Coalition for Drug Awareness) or watch for the video posting on our website at www.drugawareness.org. All the families who lost loved ones in this recent tragedy need to see this to understand the reaasons behind the nightmare they have just experienced. And all antidepressant users need to watch this video with Corey as well.

Here is a news clip to introduce you to Corey along with Mark Taylor, who was the first boy shot at Columbine High School:

School Victim & School Shooter Join Forces to Stop Shootings

www.drugawareness.org/recentcasesblog/school-shooter-victim-join-forces

Also of interest….Michael Moore, Producer of the Movie Bowling for Columbine, Together They Are Speaking Out About Antidepressants Being the Cause for Columbine Massacre, NOT GUNS!!!!

www.drugawareness.org/articles/michael-moore-cause-of-columbine

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & www.ssristories.drugawareness.org
Author of Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our
Serotonin Nightmare & safe withdrawal CD “Help!
I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

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CONNECTICUT SHOOTING: ANTIDEPRESSANTS OR ATYPICAL ANTIPSYCHOTICS???? by “Ann Blake Tracy”

CONNECTICUT SHOOTING: ANTIDEPRESSANTS OR ATYPICAL ANTIPSYCHOTICS????
Fri Dec 14, 2012 10:18 pm (PST) . Posted by: “Ann Blake Tracy”
ANTIDEPRESSANTS OR ATYPICAL ANTIPSYCHOTICS????? WITHOUT ANY DOUBT!!!!! PERSONALITY DISORDER = MEDS!!

Where have I been today? FAR TOO MAD TO COMMENT!!!!! HOW LONG ARE WE GOING TO ALLOW THESE TRAGEDIES TO CONTINUE???!!!!! It is as much society’s fault as the drug companies at this point because WE allow these drugs into our world!!! WHY?!!! Have we demanded of our local government leaders, law enforcement, judges, etc., etc., etc. that these drugs be banned? Then we better start looking at ourselves if we know and have not warned along with demanding changes! Do we have the blood of 20 children on our hands tonight? I have done everything I can think of for the past 22 years, and spent every penny I have to do that, but it clearly has not been enough or this would never have happened!

Read down through the second story below & you will find that this young man lived in a well to do neighborhood surrounded by doctors (more than willing to suggest medications or suggest a diagnosis I am sure), attorneys, & other professionals. So clearly they could afford meds & he apparently already had a diagnosis of Personality Disorder which means they had him on something or have had him on something. Now 20 innocent little ones are gone along with 7 adults including him. These killings have to end!

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & www.ssristories.drugawareness.org

BREAKING: Teacher Wounded In Elementary School Shooting
www.huffingtonpost.com
Authorities in Connecticut responded to a shooting at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown Friday morning, the local NBC station reports. Police reported multiple

http://www.drugawareness.org/recentcasesblog/ct-shooting-antidepressants

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FROM OUR IRISH DIRECTOR: SOME MOTHER’S SON – IF SHANE COULD DO IT SO COULD YOU

 

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Leonie Fennel is our director for the International Coalition for Drug Awareness (www.drugawareness.com) in Ireland. She tragically lost her son in what the world would call a murder/suicide, But the inquest into his death ruled that Shane did not die of suicide, but it was due to adverse reactions from the toxic levels of one of the most deadly of the SSRI antidepressants – Celexa. By way of background you can find Shane’s story here: http://ssristories.drugawareness.org/archive/show.php?item=4137 in our database that Rosie Meysenburg & her husband Gene worked so hard to set up for us as a reference.

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,

International Coalition for Drug Awareness

www.drugawareness.org & www.ssristories.drugawareness.org

I wrote an article which appears in the ‘health and living’ section of the Irish Independent today. I can’t find a link so will attach it in full here for anyone who’s interested. The writing is all mine this time, so for anyone who doesn’t agree…it’s all my work and I stand by everything I said. There was a paragraph missing to do with antidepressants and miscarraiges…I feel this is very important so I’ve left it in here. All stats were verified by Prof David Healy. Leonie

Are they mad or what?

The Irish Independent has asked me to write this article; Are they mad or what?

‘Mad’ is a word I am well used to hearing. Having lost my son in the ‘most’ tragic circumstances in 2009, I’m left as most mothers with a dead child are left: in cloud cuckoo land, extremely sad and just a little bit mad. In my case I’d say ‘more than a little mad’ but I don’t want to tar every bereaved mother with my madness brush. What is it with Irish people and their reluctance to talk about death and dead people? I have never heard so many people talk about the ‘dreadful’ weather; whatever you do, don’t mention that big fat elephant in the room. Most of the time I couldn’t tell you what day of the week it is, never mind what the ‘dreadful’ weather is like, but please feel free to talk about that big fat grey thing with the huge trunk; my son. He’s dead, not erased from existence, but don’t upset the ‘mad’ bereaved woman whatever you do! Say the wrong thing, by all means, but don’t pretend he didn’t exist and talk about the ‘dreadful’ weather! I can’t tell you how close some people have come to manual strangulation, simply by saying ‘it’s a lovely day’ or more likely ‘the weather’s terrible, isn’t it?’

Before I get shot down for using the ‘m’ word, I’d like to say that the so-called ‘mad’ people that I’ve met in the last three years are no madder than most of you, and definitely not I. Some of these people have been told that they have a ‘chemical imbalance’ of the brain; so in order to keep their brain functioning as it’s supposed to, they will need to stay on medication for the rest of their lives. These mad dysfunctional lot could teach the so-called ‘normal’ society a thing or two; mainly about kindness, compassion and a willingness to help others. They are also the ones who are shouting from the rooftops that the chemical imbalance theory is just that; a theory. For decades we were led to believe that depression was caused by low serotonin levels in the brain. There is no way, never has been, to measure serotonin in a person’s brain, and absolutely no evidence that low serotonin levels ever caused depression.

By way of background; my son killed himself and another young man in 2009. He was prescribed an approved SSRI antidepressant 17 days beforehand. I absolutely believe that these ‘mind altering drugs’ are killing people at an alarming rate. Professor David Healy (a world leading expert on these drugs) has said that the pharmaceutical companies, in a court of law, have no choice but to admit that these drugs can cause suicide. According to Professor Healy, “there are 20 more Irish suicides per year than there would have been and 20 extra Irish cases of violence per year that can be linked back to antidepressants.” So given that the SSRI antidepressants have been on the market for 20 years; that’s 800 extra cases of suicide and violence caused by antidepressants in this country alone.

A major ase involving antidepressant induced suicide/homicide was in the US and involved a 60 year old man, Donald Schell. This man was put on Seroxat [Paxil] by his doctor, not for any mental illness, but for anxiety; yet 2 days later he shot and killed his wife, his daughter, his 9 month old granddaughter and then himself. The jury found that the drug had caused him to become suicidal and homicidal and found the pharmaceutical company liable, in that case GlaxoSmithKline. There have been similar cases since, the most recent in a Canadian trial where the Judge found that an antidepressant caused a 16 year old to kill his friend. The Judge (Justice Heinrichs) concluded that the teenager was no longer a danger and that at the time of the killing “his mental deterioration and resulting violence would not have taken place without exposure to Prozac.”

Shane was sad, I know that; was that depression, no! Can these prescription drugs help with a broken heart or some other awful life experience? Can they un-break a heart or un-dead a loved one? No, but they can cause these terrible tragedies. From the time Shane was prescribed these drugs, he became very restless, which was very unlike him. He seemed to find it hard to stay in the one place for any length of time. What I didn’t understand until later was that this condition is called ‘akathisia’ and is known to be the precursor to suicide and/or homicide. Akathisia is an adverse effect which can be caused by these drugs and is described as ‘inner restlessness’. People suffering from this condition have described it as ‘a living hell’ and also that they would do anything to stop this feeling, including death as a welcome release. My son went from being well respected and loved by his lecturers, friends and family, to a person capable of destroying his own life and that of another human being in 17 days. Whether people believe me or not, matters little to me, as I cannot win either way. I can tell you this though: I knew my son inside out, and if it could happen to Shane, it could happen to you.

The level of ‘antidepressant’ prescribing has never been so high and yet the suicide rate is rocketing. Join the dots here if you dare and please don’t argue the recession point; I’ve heard it already. We’ve come through the famine, oppressive English rule, Centuries of emigration and barefoot children; for goodness sake, get a grip! The suicide rate has never been so high and the barefoot children are long gone; presumably dead from old age and natural causes, not by their own hand. Each year there is (at least) one antidepressant prescription per year for every man, woman and child in Ireland. If these drugs actually cure people; how come we once had less than 1 per 1000 of us depressed, and now it’s more than 1 in 10? In the year 2010 the cost of medicines in the health service was €1.9 billion. Have we all gone mad? Why do we need €1.9 billion worth of medication every year; were we all born with inherent defects that only the (billion dollar) pharmaceutical industry can fix? Wake up and smell the pharma coffee when you take that statin this morning! Is that antidepressant you just consumed keeping you happy or can you remember either way? Without doubt the most medicated Country in the world is the US; would it surprise you to know that the life expectancy in the US has fallen below that of Cuba?

In the latest revelation within the mental health arena (Oct 2012), the British Medical Journal (BMJ) published a paper which showed that the risk of suicide (in the first year of treatment) for schizophrenia is extraordinarily high. For schizophrenia generally, you are 10 times more likely to be dead at the end of the first year of treatment than you were 100 years ago. Did you read that? 10 TIMES MORE THAN 100 YEARS AGO! Professor Healy (one of the authors) said “the actual risks of suicide (in the first year of treatment) were 100 times greater than those of the general population.”

Also this week, to much fanfare it has to be said, Minister Reilly said a “very good deal” was made with the Pharmaceutical Industry, to cut the State’s drugs bill by up to €400 million. This he said would benefit patients and the taxpayer. Right; excuse the cynicism here but that’s €400 million over 3 years, which is equivalent to a saving of €133 million a year. What’s €1.9 billion divided by €133 million? The Pharmaceutical industry may find this as amusing as I do; laughing all the way to the bank.

It amazes me that drugs with adverse effects such as suicide, depression, aggression and birth defects can be licenced by the Irish Medicines Board and yet the ‘free will’ of the pubic to medicate themselves is taken away by the banning of herbal remedies. I doubt if my son would be dead as a result of consuming a large dose of ‘Echinacea’. While I realise that all prescribed medications come with side-effects, we in Ireland are not afforded the same level of warning that other countries are. For example, all antidepressants come with a black-box warning in the US which signify that these drugs can have serious or even life-threatening adverse effects.

Of course herbal medicines are not without controversy either; St John’s wort, which has similar properties to an antidepressant, was widely known in the farming community to cause miscarriage and birth defects in cattle. Farmers took steps to prevent this drug from coming into contact with their animals; yet pregnant women are afforded no such warning. 1 in 10 pregnant Irish women are on antidepressants, leading to about 40 extra babies with significant birth defects and 200 extra miscarriages each year. So in the last 20 years, antidepressants have caused birth defects in 800 Irish babies and 4000 miscarriages.

I’m not entirely stupid; I know that some drugs can save lives and there will be people who say “the drugs have saved my life”. Who will speak for the dead people though, do they have a voice? €1.9 billion worth of drugs? Surely I’m not the only one who thinks that this is the biggest wheeze of the 21th Century. The number of people requiring medication is increasing every year. Will we eventually face a world where the majority of the human race will be ‘a bit mad ted’ and will therefore be the new class of norm? It could be seen as ‘the’ miracle of the 21th Century, where the meds are cast aside as the now normal ‘mad’ people don’t need them anymore; let’s all embrace the madness. It would surely be interesting to see what subsequently happens to the pharmaceutical industry; spontaneous combustion? Or just a frantic scrambling to find a way to convince people that medicating the ‘normal’ is actually now in Vogue? The old tale of ‘be careful what you wish for’ springs to mind. Dreadful weather, isn’t it?

— with Anne-marie Meakin.

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