Suspect Dead: Antidepressant Withdrawal: Thursday Afternoon Woman in Capitol Car Chase With Toddler in Car

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Antidepressant Withdrawal: Thursday Afternoon Woman in Capitol Car Chase With Toddler in Car Gunned Down by Police

This sounds like it could be yet another case when it is a woman who rammed a barrier at the Capitol Building before going on a high speed chase with police while a toddler was in the car with her. No word yet on the condition of the child who was rushed to a hospital.

The impulsive actions, the high speed chase, the road rage in ramming a barrier, and doing all of this with a toddler in the car also might include suicide by cop or even murder/suicide by cop. We see all of this far too often with antidepressants and have from the beginning. The term “road rage,” “suicide by cop,” “high speed chase” … all seemed to appear after the introduction of Prozac to the market.

We will keep you updated as it progresses as it has just happened.

Update: The woman was  it was yet another medical professional, a dental hygienist this time, with a “history of “mental illness” which almost always means she had been on antidepressants to induce that mental illness before endangering her child as she did this afternoon in this high speed chase with police after ramming a police car. She had a one year old child in the car with her that was not hurt. So was she given on of these drugs for Post Partum depression?

This is yet another sad and tragic case for this woman and her family. If this was her child there is yet another little one who will be growing up without a mother.

I have long said that the largest single group I have in serious trouble on antidepressants are medical professionals. I have gathered a few cases that have just popped up as I have looked for some other articles in the past week. I should have that list ready for you ASAP

Update #2: If you understand these drugs and their effects these cases are so easy to predict. The latest report is according to ABC News, Carey had a history of mental health issues and suffered from post-partum depression.

Miriam Carey has been identified by authorities as a dental hygienist in Connecticut.

Former boss Dr. Barry J. Weiss told The New York Times that he and his partner fired Miriam Carey from their periodontics practice last year and cited her “temper” but would not go into detail.

Then the Washington Post reported that she has a sister in Brooklyn who is a nurse and another sister who has been a long time New York City police officer.

She was at home in Connecticut two days ago and no one knew she was in DC and were shocked to learn that. She also had no identification with her.

Update #3: Friday morning reports surfaced that she thought Obama was stalking her and they found the meds we all expected to be there! (Article directly below) Remember all the false accusations of abuse that come with antidepressants. False Memory Syndrome is a term coined not long after Prozac was introduced to the market and has been a main issue in some high profile cases including that of Kobe Bryant and the Wenatchee, Washington sex ring case where the state had to pay out $100 Million for wrongfully imprisoning 43 people for as much as two years on false allegations made by a 10 year old girl in foster care who had been on first Prozac and recently switched to Paxil.

BREAKING NEWS: “Investigators found two medications in the apartment of Miriam Carey: one used to treat schizophrenia and symptoms of bipolar disorder; the other an antidepressant, a law enforcement source briefed on the investigation told CNN.

“Carey’s boyfriend contacted police in December saying he feared for the safety of their child, who was 4 months old at the time, according to a law enforcement source involved in the investigation. The boyfriend said the woman was acting delusional, claiming the president had placed Stamford under lockdown and that her house was under electronic surveillance, the source said.

“He told police that she was suffering from post-partum depression, was having trouble sleeping and was on medication. Carey underwent a mental health evaluation, said the source, …”

Update #4: She had been taking the antidepressant Lexapro and the atypical antipsychotic Risperdone….”Authorities who searched Carey’s apartment in Stamford found discharge papers that listed risperidone, a medication to treat schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, a law enforcement source said. They also found paperwork listing escitalopram, an antidepressant commonly prescribed under the brand name Lexapro, according to the source.”

Update #5: In an interview by Fox 5 out of DC we learn she was in medically supervised withdrawal which will help you understand why the International Coalition for Drug Awareness has since the mid 90’s warned of extreme caution in withdrawal indicating that it should be extremely gradual to avoid serious reactions and a warning now goes out with all our posts. Few doctors know what they are doing in safely withdrawing patients from antidepressants as they are always trying to withdraw patients far too rapidly than they should which the FDA warns can cause suicide, hostility and/or psychosis:

“Her family said she had been suffering from postpartum depression with psychosis but was not dangerous.

“Carey-Jones said her sister had been on medication for postpartum depression but was being taken off the drugs under medical supervision.

“They told her she could get off medication,” Carey-Jones said, adding, “There were no indications she was unstable.”

Read more:

WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

The FDA also now warns that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis. And these reactions can either come on very rapidly or even be delayed for months depending upon the adverse effects upon sleep patterns when the withdrawal is rapid! You can find the CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here:

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author: ”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

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And finally from one of our Facebook friends Nick Cole comes this warning:

Death by Cop warning

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The Volcano an Ionic Diffuser for Your Home, 33″ Tall on Sale Today


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The Volcano, an Negative Ion Essential Oil Diffuser!!!

How exciting!!!! I just heard about that! Whoever invented this negative ion diffuser must have had antidepressant victims in mind because negative ions are incredible for helping to restore someone to normal serotonin levels as negative ions actually aid in serotonin metabolism.

If you have read my information on Dr. Felix Sulman, who was the initial researcher into serotonin in Israel, you know he was doing research on using negative ions to restore those to health who were unable to metabolize serotonin which is the position antidepressants leave you in after using them and is the case with many of those who are depressed even before taking the drugs.

Everyone that suffers depression or has had an adverse reaction to these serotonergic antidepressants needs to have one of these in their home! You get both the negative ions AND the essential oils that work so well in restoring normal brain function. And since it is water based it would also help as a humidifier in your home. With winter coming up this is a great help.

“The Volcano,” a 33″ floor model ionic essential oil diffuser just went on sale for a limited time. It also comes with a remote control! I have never been more excited about a diffuser as I am this one! Now $129.99!!! It was priced at $199.99. They were able to reach a deal with the manufactures and that savings has been spilled onto us. You can see it here –

And to sign up to get Young Living Oils which are distilled via low temperature so as to preserve the enzymes necessary for ultimate potency and purity go to our site at

WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants or in sharing alternatives to help them get off the meds I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe and successful withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have long warned can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs! The FDA warns that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis. And these reactions can come on very rapidly! Find the CD here:

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author: ”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

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SLC Man Arrested for Plot to Kill as Many as Possible in SLC Mall & Sugarhouse Movie Theater

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City Creek Mall

ANTIDEPRESSANTS??? So sure am I on this one that I hesitate to even put question marks after the question about antidepressants being involved in this case!

Jack Harry Stiles, 42, is being held on a $1 Million bond after first telling an officer at a hospital that he was planning to kill as many as possible in a downtown mall and Sugarhouse movie theater on the anniversary of his mother’s death. He would “randomly kill people until he runs out of ammunition.” And he planned to set off a bomb under a city bus or Trax train, had mapped out both locations, had detailed plans, guns and ammunition, ect. plus of course a “history of mental illness.”

All those are clues and add to that the fact that he lives in “Prozacland” which everyone calls Utah where more antidepressants are used than just about anywhere else as they have led the way in use for two decades. How you lose your mother and not get on an antidepressant in Utah would be the real question here.

When these things are planned on the anniversary of a personal tragedy it is often indicative of the person going into REM Sleep Behavior Disorder (RBD) and acting out their recurring nightmares. Because antidepressants repress REM sleep they are known to produce both psychosis and RBD. In fact they are the leading common denominator in this diagnosis being found in 86% of the RBD cases – this most violent of sleep disorders where patients are known to commit both murder and suicide in a sleep state with 80% hurting themselves or others.

So would you like to take a guess where my daughter, son-in-law and four grandchildren were planning on going this evening? You guessed it! That same movie theater! Would you also like to guess how many times I have warned them about going out to public places such as this in SLC? I think it has only been every time they have gone somewhere like this. Hopefully this has been close enough to home to convince them to get out of town now! But the problem is finding a safe place anywhere anymore with the widespread use of these drugs in our world.

Yale: 250,000 Yearly Hospitalized for Antidepressant-Induced Psychosis

With so many on these drugs and on the verge of going psychotic on them few places are safe any longer! Remember that researchers at Yale in 2001 found that 250,000 yearly were found in general hospital psych wards to have gone psychotic due to an antidepressant. Knowing how rare it is for a general doctor to catch these cases of antidepressant-induced psychosis the researchers pointed out that the actual figure of those going psychotic on antidepressants should be expected to be far higher than that quarter of a million per year figure. Is the figure double, triple, quadruple? Will we ever know?

How Many More Do Not Make It To A Hospital?

Obviously no one noticed the Trazadone induced psychosis in the Navy Yard shooter in time to get him into a psych ward and no one got James Holmes into a psych ward before he shot everyone at the Aurora theater last year. And no one noticed the antidepressant-induced psychosis in 68 out of 70 school shooters before they began shooting. (See list of school shootings & antidepressant involved in video format here: and a written list can be found here: )

And how many more are out there about to go psychotic on their medication or in withdrawal from their medication when it takes so little to trigger the psychosis? The FDA has warned that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant, whether increasing or decreasing the dose, can cause suicide, hostility, or psychosis. So that would be anyone starting or stopping an antidepressant without weaning VERY gradually up or down on them. It would also be anyone forgetting to take their pills for a day or two. And it would be anyone switching from one antidepressant to another because you would double your chances by going abruptly off one and starting abruptly on another. All of these scenarios carry a very dangerous potential for a psychotic break induced by the use of an antidepressant.

To better help you to understand this antidepressant-induced violence and psychosis I refer you to a section of my testimony before the FDA in their 2004 hearing on antidepressants and suicide:

The Problem: Low Serotonin Metabolism, Not Low Serotonin

“For decades research has shown that impairing serotonin metabolism will produce migraines, hot flashes, pains around the heart, difficulty breathing, a worsening of bronchial complaints, tension and anxiety which appear from out of nowhere, depression, suicide – especially very violent suicide, hostility, violent crime, arson, substance abuse, psychosis, mania, organic brain disease, autism, anorexia, reckless driving, Alzheimer’s, impulsive behavior with no concern for punishment, and argumentative behavior.

“How anyone ever thought it would be “therapeutic” to chemically induce these reactions is beyond me. Yet, these reactions are exactly what we have witnessed in our society over the past decade and a half as a result of the widespread use of these drugs.

“In fact we even have a whole new vocabulary as a result with terms such as “road rage,” “suicide by cop,” “murder/suicide,” “going postal,” “false memory syndrome,” “school shooting,” “bi-polar” – every third person you meet anymore – along with the skyrocketing rates of antidepressant-induced diabetes and hypoglycemia.

“Can you remember two decades ago when depressed people used to slip away quietly to kill themselves rather than killing everyone around them and then themselves as they do while taking SSRI antidepressants?

Excess Serotonin Produces Extreme Violence

“A study out of the University of Southern California in 1996 looked at a group of mutant mice in an experiment that had gone terribly wrong. These genetically engineered mice were the most violent creatures they had ever witnessed. They were born lacking the MAO-A enzyme which metabolizes serotonin. As a result their brains were awash in serotonin. This excess serotonin is what the researchers determined was the cause for this extreme violence. Antidepressants produce the same end result as they inhibit the metabolism of serotonin.”


WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

The FDA also now warns that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis. And these reactions can either come on very rapidly or even be delayed for months depending upon the adverse effects upon sleep patterns when the withdrawal is rapid! You can find the CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here:

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author: ”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

Original article on this story:

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He Never Said Good-Bye

If you have or know of teens or pre-teens struggling with depression or hopelessness, or if you know someone on anti-depressants, I hope this account will help you. I believe that if I had read a story like the one you will now read, it might very well have saved our son. My wife would still have her little boy. My daughter would still have her little brother. And I would still have my best companion and friend in the whole wide world.


Matthew Miller

It was unusually cool for the last day of July. The sun was bright, and there were only a few scattered clouds. The gentle winds that took the teenager’s balloons skyward also helped dry our tears as we said good-bye to Matt.

This moment, as hundreds of his family and friends gathered under the shade of a gentle oak which now shelters his grave, was by far the cruelest and hardest of our lives. For until these last few days, my wife Cheryl and I had been so very blessed. We had two wonderful children. Our daughter Jenny had just turned 15 only a couple weeks earlier. We were all healthy, safe and so untouched by any real understanding of pain and sorrow. Surely, our pastor in delivering those final words must have been talking about someone else. Not our Matt.

Matt was only 13. He had never gone on a real date. Never driven a car. And never been away from home for more than a few nights at a time with friends.

He weighed exactly one hundred pounds. I know, because he was so proud of that all-important milestone in any boy’s life, he bragged to me about it just a few days before.

Yet now he was gone. Forever. Without so much as a good-bye. A hug. Or even a note.

This is his story. And I summon the courage to tell it only because I know he would want me to. And because the good Lord who now holds our Matt so tightly in his arms has asked me to.
But, as I said, he was 13. And many changes were taking place in his life. Not the least of which was our move to a new neighborhood, and a new school.

So, like most parents, we felt that his periods of moodiness and sullen behavior were not all that unusual for a young teenager. He was trying to make new friends in a new situation. He was going through many physical changes. (We noticed only recently that his voice had dropped about an octave, and that he was working far too hard to keep it there.)

By the end of his first year in a new middle school, his teachers and counselors recommended that Matt find some professional help over the summer. They knew he was smart, yet they saw problems with his grades. And they were worried that his withdrawn demeanor might be more than just a passing “teenage” phase, and could have a more deep-seated cause.

Now let me be quick to add that Matt was never violent. Never disrespectful. Nor ever a real threat, to anyone. He had a warm sense of humor, a love of friendship and heart of solid gold that his friends who knew him well, loved in him. He had a special way with little children. He would have been a wonderful father.

But together, believing what we were doing was the right thing, we began a brief, but tragic journey with Matt into a world we didn’t understand–the world of professional psychiatry and legalized mind-altering medications. An unfamiliar world with its own rules. Its own accepted procedures. And its own arrogance.

“Here, let’s try these for a week. ”

I remembered thinking at the time, how wonderful. It was only our second visit to the psychiatrist, and already the good doctor knew exactly how to help our son. It was all so easy. There was a terrific new medication available that was already helping millions with depression. The fact that we had never heard of it, didn’t matter. We weren’t doctors. And we never had to deal with depression on such personal terms before.

The drug was one of the new breed of anti-depressants. They’ve only been on the market for a few years, and they’re the ones you read about now all the time. Prozac is one of the them. So is Paxil. But the sample bottle that we were handed had a blue label, contained only seven tiny 50-mg capsules and was called Zoloft.

What we have since learned about Zoloft and related medications fills volumes. But the top line is simply this–today, doctors and psychiatrists are increasingly willing to use powerful and dangerous pills that dramatically change chemical balances in the brain. We don’t know all the answers, but we do know what happened to our son. And, we know that when things go wrong, they can go terribly wrong.

The Brain. Think about it. It’s the seat of everything that makes us human. It allows us to think and move and experience pain and joy and makes us who we are. The brain is not just any organ in the hierarchy of organs, it is the organ. The single most powerful and mysterious creation in God’s Universe. Its complexity in unfathomable, containing more than one hundred billion cells and over a trillion connections!

Now if your doctor ever tells he understands exactly what these drugs do in your brain, I will tell you this: He is lying. Because those who know the most, admit they don’t know. They experiment and they guess. But that’s about it.

And if your doctor offers what has become the standard line about depression having real physical causes, that chemical balances need to be brought back to within normal levels, or that you’re not generating enough serotonin to ever feel happy, stop him right there! Ask him these questions.

What is normal? And how do I know that my chemical balances aren’t normal? How do I know that this drug will make them normal? And what if, just maybe, I’m unhappy about real problems in my life?

Most likely, however, your doctor will tell you little or nothing. Ours didn’t. Because the truth is, they neither understand, nor are they willing to explain what these drugs can do and have done to countless of thousands, once they take control of the processes in the brain.

We like to think of our doctors as highly skilled technicians. I know that Cheryl and I did. We hope and pray that they can adjust our chemistry much like a skilled mechanic fine tunes a sports car. But Dr. Peter Breggin, a psychiatrist whom Time Magazine calls “Prozac’s Worst Enemy,” points out in his book, it is more like a “clumsy office colleague spilling coffee on your computer. Except that your brain is far more vulnerable and easily damaged.”

Our doctor simply said try these pills for a week.

We didn’t have a week.

Our Son Didn’t Want to Die

I can’t believe our son wanted to die. I never will.

Yet sometime during the night after taking his seventh capsule of Zoloft, he got out of bed, entered his closet and quietly left us. We never heard a sound even though our room shared an adjacent wall.

He did not leave a note. He had never threatened suicide. He never talked about it. He indicated in his doctor’s office just a week before, he would never consider suicide an option. He never gave us any indication that he had been thinking about it. I honestly don’t believe he had thought about it, until something happened inside his tortured mind that night.

There was no cry for help. No scream. Nothing…but that single, fateful, horrifying and irreversible act.
We were leaving on a long-anticipated family vacation the next morning. Matt, although he hated long drives, had been looking forwarding to jet skiing at the Wisconsin resort where we had reserved a room overlooking Lake Michigan. He had just purchased a new GameBoy and his all-time favorite Zelda game. He had just told his girl friend that very evening that he would call her from Wisconsin in a few days.

For a bright, healthy and loved young man, Matt had every reason to live. Yet under the power of this debilitating drug, he found a way to die. We know it was not our Matt who took his own life. This was a Matt “high” on a legalized pill. Reality and nightmares became indistinguishable for him. His world–the universe that was his chemically stimulated, serotonin-enriched, emotionally-tortured brain—came crashing down around him with such ferocity, he had no way out.

What we now know to have happened, from published research, phone calls, and e-mail with leading authors in this field, is that our son suffered drug-induced “akathisia” which led to the mania which caused his death. Akathisia is simply an uncontrollable agitation or restlessness brought about by the stimulant nature of the drug. We all noticed that Matt had become especially hyperactive that last day. His sister complained that Matt was being loud and bothering her more than normal. His grandmother who was visiting remarked that Matt could hardly sit still through our Sunday brunch.

Mania is a well-documented side effect with SSRI use. And what we didn’t know is that in depressed people, this mania is often the trigger that leads to suicidal thoughts and actions. Depression in and of itself rarely accounts for suicide. Zoloft, in Matt’s case, was like throwing a match onto gasoline. It’s exactly this reaction that prompts many doctors to also prescribe a sedative along with anti-depressants in the initial stages of treatment. We were so ignorant.

Matt was a victim. And, as we soon found out, there have been many, many others before him. Yet few people are aware of just how troubled a past these drugs have had. Few parents are aware. Few patients are aware. And most frightening of all, few doctors are aware, including Matt’s psychiatrist.

A Short Course in SSRI’s

I didn’t know what these initials stood for until about a week after Matt’s death. Technically, this family of drugs is called Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors. I now have my own interpretation of this acronym–Stop. Scream. And Run Instead.
Dr. Ann Tracy, a Ph.D. in psychology and health sciences, National Director for the International Coalition of Drug Awareness and a tireless researcher into these drugs, compares them to many of the illegal psychotropic drugs being pushed on street corner–drugs like “speed,” cocaine or LSD. (She is also quick to add that at least these are sold without the pretense or hypocrisy of being good for you.) Dr. Peter Breggin, Director for the Center of the Study of Psychiatry simply says the new anti-depressants have a “dark side.”

The FDA keeps records on adverse drug reactions. It’s a purely voluntary system so it probably under-reports the magnitude of the real problem (some suggest it could miss as many as 90% of the cases!), but still the numbers are compelling.

Jane Heimlich, in Health and Healing, states, “Prozac has the distinction of having the most ADR’s [adverse drug reactions] in history.” And you need to realize that these drugs have only been around for less than a decade!

As of October, 1993, during only the first two years of Prozac’s marketing, over 28,000 complaints of adverse side effects had been filed with the FDA, including nearly 2,000 suicide attempts. 1,300 deaths were reported. As of last year (1996), the number of complaints has risen to 36,000. To put this in perspective, consider that Elavil, another anti-depressant has received only a tenth as many, with just 2,000 complaints in its entire 20 years on the market.

However, it’s the tragic stories behind these numbers that are the real eye-openers. Besides Matt’s, there are many, many more. And, in a way, we were lucky. These drugs are present in patients who have committed some of the most violent, unpredictable and disturbing crimes and suicides you could ever imagine.

“But if they weren’t safe, they couldn’t prescribe them.”

My wife made this observation. My friends have. We want to believe we are protected from these drugs.

But consider that LSD was once legal. In the 1950’s it was promoted by Eli Lilly as an aid to psychoanalysis, a cure for alcoholism and a way to clear up mental illness. PCP, now referred to as Angel Dust, was legal. It was marketed by Parke, Davis & Company as Serynl, an analgesic, or painkiller! Thalidomide, the horror drug of the 50’s that directly caused the tragic deformed births of over 5,000 newborns, many without limbs, was also a legal drug. It was marketed as a sleeping pill. And most recently, Redux and Fen-Phen were legal. Millions of people, mostly women, now face heart valve problems and a perilous withdrawal as these drugs are removed from shelves. Each of these drugs was tested in the marketplace before being recalled. Yet many remain in today’s drug counterculture as a gift to the world from the same manufacturers creating new pills today.

There is a long history of today’s pharmaceutical companies rushing drugs through testing and through FDA approval only to find out later that severe adverse reactions occur in the real world. (Did you know that drug companies test their own drugs for the FDA?) In the case of Prozac, it was approved on the basis of only seventeen studies over the course of just four to six weeks. Although they will tell that thousands of people were tested in this phase, it is fact that just fewer than 300 people were exposed to this drug in these trials!

And don’t believe for a moment this is an isolated incident of one drug slipping through the cracks. In 1990, the General Accounting Office, a congressional watchdog agency, reviewed all the drugs approved by FDA between 1976 and 1985. It found that 102 out of 198 drugs turned out to have “serious post approval risks.” The rate was even higher for psychiatric drugs. (Nine out of 15.)

And you need to understand that 80% of the drugs marketed in the United States today are not approved by the FDA for use by children under twelve. Studies simply have not been done to sufficiently document their safety and efficacy in this age group. And consequently, their use in treating children is solely up to the discretion of the physician. Appallingly, Eli Lilly is going ahead with plans to market Prozac in peppermint and other assorted flavors to make the drug more attractive as a children’s medication!

Today, over 17 million people now take some kind of SSRI medication. They’re taking it for everything from insomnia to acne to weight loss to alcohol addiction. And the two largest manufacturers, Eli Lilly (Prozac) and Pfizer (Zoloft) now have worldwide revenues of $2.6 billion and $1.6 billion respectively.

So how can a drug be so successful, and yet so dangerous? This is the question I set to out to answer for myself. And I believe the answer lies in our own willingness to believe that there’s a quick solution for everything.

We want to believe in miracles. We want something for nothing. And if you would believe the ads currently running for Prozac, it’s all yours for the taking. When a cloud hangs overhead, there’s sunshine in a bottle.

It’s so easy. It’s so deceiving.

What Can You Do?

Educate yourself. Ask questions about the drugs your doctor prescribes. Trust in yourself. Trust in God. But don’t believe in miracles.

Our veterinarian gave us five pages of information on medication prescribed for our dog’s stomach problems. We received nothing that would help us understand Zoloft. There was no discussion about alternative treatments, which should have included the most common-sense approach of preliminary counseling and therapy. The diagnosis was quick (we assume our doctor found “depression” although we were never informed what Matt was being treated for).

Please do not allow this to happen to yourself or a loved one. The primary role of these medications is to change the way your brain functions. It’s a drug that creates abnormalities. It doesn’t correct them.

So be aware. Learn from our pain. Please understand that depression is a potentially life-threatening illness. Be an alarmist. And don’t allow anyone in your family to take any prescription drug that you know little about.

Don’t be afraid to just say no.

We will sleep better knowing that Matt’s life which meant so much to those who knew him, could perhaps someday mean the difference between life and death for yourself or a loved one.

[Matthew Miller was a student at Harmony Middle School in Overland Park, Kansas and had previously been a student at Mill Creek Elementary in Lenexa. If you wish to make a contribution to his memorial fund, please send it to Matthew Miller’s Memorial, care of his church, The Church of the Resurrection, 13720 Roe Avenue, Leawood, KS 66215.]

Mark and Cheryl Miller can be reached at



Years 2000 and Prior

This is Survivor Story number 36.
Total number of stories in current database is 96

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Effexor Survivor

” I was taking Effexor into about my second week when I tried to commit suicide.”

My name is Amanda and I was taking Effexor into about my second week when I tried to commit suicide.

I firmly believe that this drug played a huge part in my doing so. I would never even entertain that idea under any depression that I had been through. I was the type of person who could not understand how a person could inflict pain upon themselves.

I have been tried on every drug that you can just about think of. Now I am labeled bipolar and take Seroquel at bedtime, and Wellbutrin in the day. High doses I might add, but the point I want to stick too is the fact that Effexor changed my whole personality my whole outlook on life and I didn’t even realize it. It was like I went crazy!

I believe that I have been used over and over as a guinea pig. I am 31 years old and I have been taking different meds since 1996. When tried on Effexor in 2001 I came very close to ending my life.

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NIH study



Study: Placebo performs as well as antidepressant drugs in treating depression

by: Jonathan Benson,

(NaturalNews) The more that researchers truly study the effects of antidepressant drugs on depression patients, the more it becomes painfully obvious that these mind-altering medications are utterly useless. A new study conducted by the US National Institutes of Health (NIH) has revealed that antidepressant drugs work no better than talk therapy, placebo pills, or basically anything else, at relieving depression.

Funded in part by the drug industry, the new study follows the same pattern as several other recent studies that, even though they were not intended to do so, actually expose antidepressant drugs as a scam.

WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

The FDA also now warns that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis. And these reactions can either come on very rapidly or even be delayed for months depending upon the adverse effects upon sleep patterns when the withdrawal is rapid! You can find the CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here:

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author: Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

(Click link below to read full article)

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Thank you to Lisa Williams (our past New Jersey Director for the International Coalition for Drug Awareness) for alerting me to this article. This video recording is of Emilie’s father who lost his daughter in the Connecticut shooting talking about his little girl & how blessed he was to be her father &  praying for the families of all the victims, including the family of the shooter.


I will be posting a video of a school shooter who survived his antidepressant-induced nightmare telling what happened to him in a school shooting incident so that you can see clearly why this incredibly compassionate young father is right on the mark in offering condolences for the shooter’s family as well.


Rest in peace little Emilie & know that your mission here upon this earth is NOT yet over because there are those of us who understand why your life was cut so short & who will continue to fight this battle for truth about the real cause behind the loss of your life & all your classmates. May your innocent blood cry out along with the innocent blood of so many more victims of these deadly drugs as a witness against those who thought their corporate profits were worth more than your life, those of your classmates, & the thousands upon thousands of other lives that have been cut short by these drugs!!

(On a sickeningly ironic side note this piece also aired on a TV station in Salt Lake City who could have put an end to these shootings over a decade ago when a woman on these meds ran into their news studio shooting & killed a pregnant newscaster & her unborn child. They never reported the truth with that shooting & I doubt they will with this one either.)


Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin
Nightmare! & safe withdrawal CD Help! I Can’t Get
Off My Antidepressant!

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Leonie Fennel is our director for the International Coalition for Drug Awareness ( in Ireland. She tragically lost her son in what the world would call a murder/suicide, But the inquest into his death ruled that Shane did not die of suicide, but it was due to adverse reactions from the toxic levels of one of the most deadly of the SSRI antidepressants – Celexa. By way of background you can find Shane’s story here: in our database that Rosie Meysenburg & her husband Gene worked so hard to set up for us as a reference.

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,

International Coalition for Drug Awareness &

I wrote an article which appears in the ‘health and living’ section of the Irish Independent today. I can’t find a link so will attach it in full here for anyone who’s interested. The writing is all mine this time, so for anyone who doesn’t agree…it’s all my work and I stand by everything I said. There was a paragraph missing to do with antidepressants and miscarraiges…I feel this is very important so I’ve left it in here. All stats were verified by Prof David Healy. Leonie

Are they mad or what?

The Irish Independent has asked me to write this article; Are they mad or what?

‘Mad’ is a word I am well used to hearing. Having lost my son in the ‘most’ tragic circumstances in 2009, I’m left as most mothers with a dead child are left: in cloud cuckoo land, extremely sad and just a little bit mad. In my case I’d say ‘more than a little mad’ but I don’t want to tar every bereaved mother with my madness brush. What is it with Irish people and their reluctance to talk about death and dead people? I have never heard so many people talk about the ‘dreadful’ weather; whatever you do, don’t mention that big fat elephant in the room. Most of the time I couldn’t tell you what day of the week it is, never mind what the ‘dreadful’ weather is like, but please feel free to talk about that big fat grey thing with the huge trunk; my son. He’s dead, not erased from existence, but don’t upset the ‘mad’ bereaved woman whatever you do! Say the wrong thing, by all means, but don’t pretend he didn’t exist and talk about the ‘dreadful’ weather! I can’t tell you how close some people have come to manual strangulation, simply by saying ‘it’s a lovely day’ or more likely ‘the weather’s terrible, isn’t it?’

Before I get shot down for using the ‘m’ word, I’d like to say that the so-called ‘mad’ people that I’ve met in the last three years are no madder than most of you, and definitely not I. Some of these people have been told that they have a ‘chemical imbalance’ of the brain; so in order to keep their brain functioning as it’s supposed to, they will need to stay on medication for the rest of their lives. These mad dysfunctional lot could teach the so-called ‘normal’ society a thing or two; mainly about kindness, compassion and a willingness to help others. They are also the ones who are shouting from the rooftops that the chemical imbalance theory is just that; a theory. For decades we were led to believe that depression was caused by low serotonin levels in the brain. There is no way, never has been, to measure serotonin in a person’s brain, and absolutely no evidence that low serotonin levels ever caused depression.

By way of background; my son killed himself and another young man in 2009. He was prescribed an approved SSRI antidepressant 17 days beforehand. I absolutely believe that these ‘mind altering drugs’ are killing people at an alarming rate. Professor David Healy (a world leading expert on these drugs) has said that the pharmaceutical companies, in a court of law, have no choice but to admit that these drugs can cause suicide. According to Professor Healy, “there are 20 more Irish suicides per year than there would have been and 20 extra Irish cases of violence per year that can be linked back to antidepressants.” So given that the SSRI antidepressants have been on the market for 20 years; that’s 800 extra cases of suicide and violence caused by antidepressants in this country alone.

A major ase involving antidepressant induced suicide/homicide was in the US and involved a 60 year old man, Donald Schell. This man was put on Seroxat [Paxil] by his doctor, not for any mental illness, but for anxiety; yet 2 days later he shot and killed his wife, his daughter, his 9 month old granddaughter and then himself. The jury found that the drug had caused him to become suicidal and homicidal and found the pharmaceutical company liable, in that case GlaxoSmithKline. There have been similar cases since, the most recent in a Canadian trial where the Judge found that an antidepressant caused a 16 year old to kill his friend. The Judge (Justice Heinrichs) concluded that the teenager was no longer a danger and that at the time of the killing “his mental deterioration and resulting violence would not have taken place without exposure to Prozac.”

Shane was sad, I know that; was that depression, no! Can these prescription drugs help with a broken heart or some other awful life experience? Can they un-break a heart or un-dead a loved one? No, but they can cause these terrible tragedies. From the time Shane was prescribed these drugs, he became very restless, which was very unlike him. He seemed to find it hard to stay in the one place for any length of time. What I didn’t understand until later was that this condition is called ‘akathisia’ and is known to be the precursor to suicide and/or homicide. Akathisia is an adverse effect which can be caused by these drugs and is described as ‘inner restlessness’. People suffering from this condition have described it as ‘a living hell’ and also that they would do anything to stop this feeling, including death as a welcome release. My son went from being well respected and loved by his lecturers, friends and family, to a person capable of destroying his own life and that of another human being in 17 days. Whether people believe me or not, matters little to me, as I cannot win either way. I can tell you this though: I knew my son inside out, and if it could happen to Shane, it could happen to you.

The level of ‘antidepressant’ prescribing has never been so high and yet the suicide rate is rocketing. Join the dots here if you dare and please don’t argue the recession point; I’ve heard it already. We’ve come through the famine, oppressive English rule, Centuries of emigration and barefoot children; for goodness sake, get a grip! The suicide rate has never been so high and the barefoot children are long gone; presumably dead from old age and natural causes, not by their own hand. Each year there is (at least) one antidepressant prescription per year for every man, woman and child in Ireland. If these drugs actually cure people; how come we once had less than 1 per 1000 of us depressed, and now it’s more than 1 in 10? In the year 2010 the cost of medicines in the health service was €1.9 billion. Have we all gone mad? Why do we need €1.9 billion worth of medication every year; were we all born with inherent defects that only the (billion dollar) pharmaceutical industry can fix? Wake up and smell the pharma coffee when you take that statin this morning! Is that antidepressant you just consumed keeping you happy or can you remember either way? Without doubt the most medicated Country in the world is the US; would it surprise you to know that the life expectancy in the US has fallen below that of Cuba?

In the latest revelation within the mental health arena (Oct 2012), the British Medical Journal (BMJ) published a paper which showed that the risk of suicide (in the first year of treatment) for schizophrenia is extraordinarily high. For schizophrenia generally, you are 10 times more likely to be dead at the end of the first year of treatment than you were 100 years ago. Did you read that? 10 TIMES MORE THAN 100 YEARS AGO! Professor Healy (one of the authors) said “the actual risks of suicide (in the first year of treatment) were 100 times greater than those of the general population.”

Also this week, to much fanfare it has to be said, Minister Reilly said a “very good deal” was made with the Pharmaceutical Industry, to cut the State’s drugs bill by up to €400 million. This he said would benefit patients and the taxpayer. Right; excuse the cynicism here but that’s €400 million over 3 years, which is equivalent to a saving of €133 million a year. What’s €1.9 billion divided by €133 million? The Pharmaceutical industry may find this as amusing as I do; laughing all the way to the bank.

It amazes me that drugs with adverse effects such as suicide, depression, aggression and birth defects can be licenced by the Irish Medicines Board and yet the ‘free will’ of the pubic to medicate themselves is taken away by the banning of herbal remedies. I doubt if my son would be dead as a result of consuming a large dose of ‘Echinacea’. While I realise that all prescribed medications come with side-effects, we in Ireland are not afforded the same level of warning that other countries are. For example, all antidepressants come with a black-box warning in the US which signify that these drugs can have serious or even life-threatening adverse effects.

Of course herbal medicines are not without controversy either; St John’s wort, which has similar properties to an antidepressant, was widely known in the farming community to cause miscarriage and birth defects in cattle. Farmers took steps to prevent this drug from coming into contact with their animals; yet pregnant women are afforded no such warning. 1 in 10 pregnant Irish women are on antidepressants, leading to about 40 extra babies with significant birth defects and 200 extra miscarriages each year. So in the last 20 years, antidepressants have caused birth defects in 800 Irish babies and 4000 miscarriages.

I’m not entirely stupid; I know that some drugs can save lives and there will be people who say “the drugs have saved my life”. Who will speak for the dead people though, do they have a voice? €1.9 billion worth of drugs? Surely I’m not the only one who thinks that this is the biggest wheeze of the 21th Century. The number of people requiring medication is increasing every year. Will we eventually face a world where the majority of the human race will be ‘a bit mad ted’ and will therefore be the new class of norm? It could be seen as ‘the’ miracle of the 21th Century, where the meds are cast aside as the now normal ‘mad’ people don’t need them anymore; let’s all embrace the madness. It would surely be interesting to see what subsequently happens to the pharmaceutical industry; spontaneous combustion? Or just a frantic scrambling to find a way to convince people that medicating the ‘normal’ is actually now in Vogue? The old tale of ‘be careful what you wish for’ springs to mind. Dreadful weather, isn’t it?

— with Anne-marie Meakin.

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For years many of us have hoped that doctors prescribing SSRIs would begin to be sued & found liable for handing these drugs out, as I say in my book, as if they were candy & subsequently sing to you as you leave their office, “Happy Trails to You Until We Meet Again.” Of course I say that emphasize that these doctors do no follow up with patients who are to be monitored on these drugs!

The doctor in this case prescribed Paxil 10 years earlier, never saw the patient again, & when he got a call about the patient while on vacation he doubled the man’s dose of Paxil & added either the antipsychotic, Zyprexa, or another antidepressant, Effexor. (From the article it was difficult to tell as both drugs were discussed.) Either drug could produce a synergistic effect upon serotonin so that it would be as if his dose was closer to being tripled, instead of just doubled.

The resulting jury verdict? “On Nov. 21, 2012 the jury found both doctors negligent, but concluded that only Dr. Beals’ (the prescribing doctor) acts had contributed to or caused Mr. Mazella’s suicide. The jury awarded his wife and three children $1.5 million.”

And I cannot agree more with Dr. Peter Breggin, the court expert in this case, as he concludes: “Hopefully this malpractice verdict will encourage my colleagues to take a closer look at their too often cavalier attitudes toward prescribing psychiatric drugs.”

The attorney for the family Ernest DelDuchetto concluded:  “It was comforting to see a jury agree with our proposition that these drugs (antidepressants) are not panaceas for all sadness,” and that they can have serious harmful effects.”

We have begged for attorneys to file against the prescribing physicians, as well as the drug companies, for years, but in the past they felt their hands were tied & it was most important to go after the drug companies themselves in these cases. Of course that is the main focus as they knew their drugs could produce suicide. So without any question they were liable.

But what I really want to see next is one of these doctors legally held accountable for ONLY VERY BRIEFLY discussing the suicide warning associated with antidepressants, which warning they are required to give due to the Black Box Warning for suicide placed on these drugs by the FDA. And then the doctor, in his/her next breath downplays that Black Box Warning to such an extent that after you’ve heard it you’ve been led to believe this is a side effect that only a man on the moon could have in reaction to a drug as mild as an antidepressant! Those doctors are guilty of “failure to warn” & as such should be held accountable for these deaths & have their licenses pulled for ignoring FDA guidelines when the warning is as serious as a Black Box Warning – the next closest thing to a drug being completely banned!

(Click the link below to read the full article on successful suit.)

About the Author: Ann Blake Tracy is the author of PROZAC: PANACEA OR PANDORA? –OUR SEROTONIN NIGHTMARE!, and the director of the International Coalition For Drug Awareness []. She has testified before the FDA and has testified as an expert in legal cases involving serotonergic medications since 1992.

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