ANTIDEPRESSANT WITHDRAWAL: 27 Year Old Attempts to Commit “Suicide-By-Co…

Paragraphs 19 & 20 read:  “Since being released from

prison, Tokarev had been “suffering with major depression,” Good

said. She said he had been taking antidepressants and anti-anxiety

medication in prison but was unable to find medical assistance upon his release.

“She said he told her, “Olesya, I feel sick. My body feels

so sick, and my brain feels like it’s hurting.”

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He left a note, stole a truck and fled into a hail of

bullets

Sister says ex-con brother was suicidal and hoping

the police would kill him

By

Nick Ferraro

nferraro@pioneerpress.com

Updated: 12/03/2009 11:34:01

PM CST

The sister of the man wounded by police Wednesday night in

downtown Hastings said she believes he was trying to commitsuicide by cop.

“I’m going all the way out. Once they pull me over or anything I’m

shooting them until I run out of bullets,” Roman Tokarev wrote in a note his

sister Olesya Good’s husband found Wednesday before she alerted police.

Hours later, officers shot Tokarev, 27, after he allegedly pointed a gun

at them and tried to ram their squad cars during a chase.

“After

thinking about everything and seeing everything that happened, I think he was

trying to make the police shoot him to death … kind of commit his own suicide

by them shooting him,” Good, 29, said.

Tokarev, who emigrated from

Estonia with his family in 1996, was hospitalized in critical condition Thursday

after surgery to remove a bullet lodged near his heart, his sister said.

“The way it sounds, he was shot six to eight times,” she said, adding he

was hit twice in the arm and twice in the leg. “His left hand is totally

paralyzed.”

Tokarev had been living at his sister’s home in Elk River

and under intensive supervised release ­ reserved for high-risk offenders

­ through the Minnesota Department of Corrections.

He was released

from the Minnesota Correctional Facility-Stillwater on May 4 after serving time

for a 2005 aggravated robbery conviction in Hennepin County.

Good called

police after her husband found the note at their house about 1 p.m. and

discovered Tokarev had taken the family’s pickup truck.

“We asked them

to help us find him and save his life,” she said.

Within hours, a

warrant was issued for Tokarev’s arrest, according to the Bureau of Criminal

Apprehension.

Authorities were told that Tokarev, who also has

convictions for assault and vehicle theft, could be armed and had threatened

officers in the note, BCA spokesman Andy Skoogman said.

Tokarev was

spotted about 8 p.m. in Hastings, and federal, state, city and Dakota County

officers tried to stop him by boxing in the stolen pickup with their vehicles

near the intersection of Minnesota 55 and U.S. 61, the BCA said.

Tokarev

rammed the squad cars and pointed a gun at officers, Skoogman said.

Shots were fired, and Tokarev drove off, leading a chase through several

residential blocks. At U.S. 61 and Fourth Street, officers finally stopped the

truck. More shots were fired, and Tokarev was struck several times, authorities

said.

Investigators found a weapon in the vehicle, Skoogman said.

Good and Skoogman said it’s unclear why Tokarev went to Hastings.

The three officers who fired the shots have been placed on paid

administrative leave, a standard procedure after a police shooting.

Since being released from prison, Tokarev had been “suffering with major

depression,” Good said. She said he had been taking antidepressants and

anti-anxiety medication in prison but was unable to find medical assistance upon

his release.

She said he told her, “Olesya, I feel sick. My body feels

so sick, and my brain feels like it’s hurting.”

In his note, Tokarev

wrote that he “lost it” after a weekend visit with his parole officer.

“Apparently when (the parole officer) was over here, some things were

said or something that kind of triggered everything,” Good said.

Shari

Burt, communications director for the Department of Corrections, confirmed that

Tokarev was seen by a supervision agent Sunday, but, citing the investigation,

would not respond to Good’s claim.

Burt said Tokarev was on house arrest

but had earned his way off electronic monitoring by obtaining and maintaining

employment.

Tokarev apologized in the note to his family “for all I’ve

done” and wrote, “I will not be back. It’s my time to go. Please kiss everyone

for me. … I will remember you all until eternity.”

Good said he ended

the note by writing, “I got a gun on me that I purchased and I’m not going back

to prison. I love you all. I love you all. I love you all.”

Nick Ferraro

can be reached at 651-228-2173.

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ANTIDEPRESSANTS: Woman Attempts Suicide 8 Times While on Antidepressants-UK

Paragraphs 18 through 26 read:  “At 12 she was on
antidepressants
, seeing a child psychologist and was educated at
home.

“At the age of 16 she was prescribed  another type form
of antidepressants and was scared of leaving the safety of her
home to go to college.”

“Combined with her BDD symptoms, the anxiety was
too much to bear and the teenager tried to kill
herself with an overdose of painkillers in September 1999. “

“She
was found by her mother Heather Samuels, who rushed her to hospital and saved
her life.”

“It was then Ms Camille was referred to another child
psychologist, but the symptoms proved too much again.”

“At the age of 17
, she tried to end her life again in June 2000, but was saved and finally
diagnosed with BDD.”

“But treatment did not help and at 18, she
tried to take an overdose in the summer of 2001 and October 2001,

each time being rescued by her now ex-partner.”

“For three years
Ms Camille has kept her illness at bay but in summer
2004 tried twice to commit suicide.”

“It was finally at the age
of 23, in 2006, that she hit rock bottom and made what would be
the final attempt to take her own
life.”

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Blind to her own beauty: The woman with body dysmorphia who can’t bear to
look at her own reflection

By Daily
Mail Reporter

Last updated at 2:11 PM on 13th November 2009

A
young woman spoke today of her secret battle against a rare body dysmorphia
condition that has caused her to attempt suicide eight times.

Hannah
Camille, 26, regularly gets admiring glances from men, but takes them as looks
of repulsion, not attraction.

Her body dysmorphic disorder blinds her to
her own beauty and makes her feel worthless – despite obvious good
looks.

Recovering: Hannah Camille’s body dysmorphic disorder made her
hate her body so much she tried to commit suicide eight times

Depression: Hannah, pictured at 21, before she hit rock bottom two years
later and made what would be the final attempt to take her own life

The
illness is so severe it has made Hannah try to take her own life eight
times.

Ms Camille, from Walsall, West Midlands, claims when she looks in
a mirror, she cannot see the person everyone else does, but a grotesque, fat
figure.

But now, Hannah thinks she has found the key to battling the
illness – thanks to her passion for photography.

By making herself a work
of art, she says she has managed to look at herself objectively.

Ms
Camille’s nightmare began when she was just nine and started puberty early,
sparking feelings of self-loathing and paranoia.

Hannah said: ‘When I
look in the mirror all I see is where it’s fat. I can see parts of me that look
thin but I push that aside.

‘I see my stomach sticking out, my hips are
wide and my legs are huge.

‘When it first started I can remember thinking
that I wasn’t good enough and believing people thought I was disgusting to be
around.

‘I remember feeling everybody hated me and I used to focus on
everyone’s put downs, and dismiss any compliments.

‘The worst point was
just before I started college, I tried to commit suicide for the first
time.

‘That was when I felt I didn’t care if I’m not alive, that I was
not afraid to die. It was one my lowest points.’

Despite a happy
childhood, Ms Camille was convinced she was fat, ugly and stupid – quickly
developing anorexia.

At 12 she was on antidepressants, seeing a child
psychologist and was educated at home.

At the age of 16 she was
prescribed  another type form of antidepressants and was scared of leaving
the safety of her home to go to college.

Combined with her BDD symptoms,
the anxiety was too much to bear and the teenager tried to kill herself with an
overdose of painkillers in September 1999.

She was found by her mother
Heather Samuels, who rushed her to hospital and saved her life.

It was
then Ms Camille was referred to another child psychologist, but the symptoms
proved too much again.

At the age of 17 , she tried to end her life again
in June 2000, but was saved and finally diagnosed with BDD.

But treatment
did not help and at 18, she tried to take an overdose in the summer of 2001 and
October 2001, each time being rescued by her now ex-partner.

For three
years Ms Camille has kept her illness at bay but in summer 2004 tried twice to
commit suicide.

It was finally at the age of 23, in 2006, that she hit
rock bottom and made what would be the final attempt to take her own
life.

Following a massive nervous breakdown, doctors tried to commit her,
but mother Heather, 69, intervened and she was allowed to stay at home under
24-hour suicide watch.

Heather’s pain, new medication and a therapist –
who suggested using her photography skills to help boost Hannah’s confidence –
proved the turning point.

It was looking back at pictures she had taken
of herself that brought on the start of recovery.

Moving on: Hannah’s
passion for photography triggered her to look at her body objectively and helped
others with a similar condition

Now Ms Camille has just completed her
first exhibition of her photographs at the Chameleon Art Gallery in Walsall to
critical acclaim.

Hannah said: ‘I looked at them and I just saw myself as
an art piece rather than me.

‘It really helped to accept myself and not
think about body and image but a person as a whole.

‘It was then I
contacted other sufferers and offered to take pictures of them.

‘I
believe that it helped them in a way as much as it did me – it was a kind of
group therapy.

‘You are never over BDD but on a good day I can say
I look okay.

‘If I can look in the mirror and say I look okay, that I can
go out and do normal things like window-shop and have a picnic, to me that is
wonderful.

‘To others it can sound mundane, but compared to what I been
though mundane is positive for me. It’s better than how I felt in the
past.

‘I looked at a picture of myself last night and I thought I looked
beautiful.

“It wasn’t because I thought I was attractive – it was because
I looked happy.’

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