I almost died last year – Keppra

Keppra

I almost died last year, from psychotic depression with suicidal tendencies and a complete disconnect from reality. I should have been taken off this medicine by the first neurologist I saw shortly after being prescribed the drug for epilepsy by an ER physician due to two grand mal seizures back-to-back in one day. I started having suicidal thoughts and extremely severe depression within two weeks of starting this medication, and due to the fact that my neurologist left the hospital under mysterious circumstances, I had to find another neurologist, who began titrating me off Keppra and onto lamotrigine the day I saw him. It took me over six months to finally get entirely weaned off that medication. In the interim, I lost two jobs due to being absolutely unable to perform the functions of the job with that stuff in my body (I couldn’t remember whether I took my meds five minutes after I took them, much less implement complex software applications). I destroyed some long-term friendships and close family relationships. I was making a six-figure income before all this happened, and even the epilepsy, uncontrolled, was better than that horror show. I walked out on the Tacoma Narrows bridge one day and gave it some serious thought, as well as driving up to Paradise in Mt. Rainier National Park with hopes that I’d have a seizure behind the wheel and run off a cliff. This drug needs to be TAKEN OFF THE MARKET, and I don’t care who else it helps. It’s destroyed my life. I’m living in my sister’s basement with $3000 to my name now, with no job as I’m currently unemployable, denied my unemployment as I left voluntarily (before they could fire me for my incompetence), and planning to file for SSDI. Sounds like a great drug, yes?

MEDICATION: Finally The Answers in 4 Year Old Ethan Stacy’s Murder

Nathan Sloop

Nathan Sloop

Nathan Sloop, step-father to Ethan Stacy, 4, (below) pleaded guilty but mentally ill Tuesday to aggravated murder in the boy’s death. In exchange for his plea, prosecutors will not seek the death penalty against him.

Little Ethan

Ethan Stacy, 4

Ethan Stacy, 4, died in May of 2010, just days after he arrived in Utah to visit his mother for the summer. Within only a few days, prosecutors believe the boy was severely abused, scalded, beaten, over medicated and was not given the medical care that he needed. When found his body had been disfigured with a hammer and the shallow grave it was in had been sprinkled with dog food. The boy had been burned over 17 percent of his body.

Almost four years later the answer I have suspected since Ethan’s death in May of 2008 has come out in court today. His step-father was on a number of prescribed medications for “mental illness” and even was prescribed as much as 4000 pain pills in a nine month period. Today he pleaded guilty, but mentally ill. As I have said before the answers may not come quickly, but if you hang on eventually they surface.

Nathan Sloop was once an All-American academic Lacrosse player whose mental illness “sent him off the tracks” according to his attorney. I would propose that it was not mental illness that sent him off the tracks, but the drugs he was given that produced the mental illness and additionally sent him off the tracks. His attorney went on to say , “The capacity of the defendant to appreciate the wrongfulness of his conduct was impaired as a result of a medical condition,” and added that he felt his client’s illness was “mistreated.” And whenever you hear that mentioned that is translated as “my client was not suffering depression, but instead was undiagnosed Bipolar and antidepressants should not have been given to someone who has tendencies for Bipolar.” The attorneys use that as a defense because that is what the doctors, who caused this nightmare for this family in the first place, have used to explain why these things are the fault of the patient, and certainly NOT the wonderful medications they have prescribed for the patient!

Ethan’s mother Stephanie Sloop is also charged with the murder and will be in court next week. Nathan and Stephanie Sloop got married on May 6, but left Ethan at home alone because they didn’t want anyone to notice his bruises and swelling. Ethan died two days later.

Nathan Sloop faced additional charges in an unrelated case in December after he attacked a deputy at the Davis County Jail. In the Nov. 21 incident, Sloop punched the officer while trying to gouge his eyes out and biting his thumb.

Please note that we have long seen cases of the gouging out of eyes and more especially biting associated with the use of antidepressants. See our database of cases for similar antidepressant cases at www.ssristories.drugawareness.org

To understand the science behind how antidepressants produce such violence please read my 2004 presentation on antidepressants to the FDA Advisory Committee: http://www.drugawareness.org/fda-testimony/dr-ann-blake-tracys-september-13-2004-to-the-fda

Original Articles: http://www.deseretnews.com/article/865595638/Nathan-Sloop-pleads-guilty-but-mentally-ill-to-brutal-death-of-4-year-old-stepson.html?pg=all

http://www.ksl.com/index.php?sid=28605924&nid=148&title=nathan-sloop-admits-to-death-of-stepson

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & http://ssristories.drugawareness.org
Author: ”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

WITHDRAWAL WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

The FDA also now warns that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis. These reactions can either come on very rapidly or even be delayed for months depending upon the adverse effects upon sleep patterns when the withdrawal is rapid! You can find the hour and a half long CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here: http://store.drugawareness.org/

Medicated & Depressed FL Mother Who Killed Her 2 Teens Seemed “Off”

Berman Family

Jacqueline, Alexander and Jennifer Berman

Jennifer Berman emailed her ex-husband on Monday to say that she intended to ‘do harm’. Mr. Berman rushed to the home only to find her body was later along with her children Alexander and Jacqueline who had all been shot dead at their Florida home in West Palm Beach. Jennifer Berman had killed them all.

From the clips below from several news articles listed we can see all of the typical clues that those of us who know what to look for would find. Those are highlighted in bold.

1…..”…another neighbor said he suspected something was wrong with Mrs Berman when he saw her over the weekend.

‘I looked into her eyes and she just had this weird look,” said 69-year-old Marian Sklodowski.

‘She had tried to sell me her house for a knockdown price because she wanted the money quick. I knew her very well, and I had never seen this look on her face.

‘She was just off. There was nothing there behind the eyes. I told my wife, but she said I should not get involved.
‘I just wish I had said something now because we have this awful tragedy.’

2…..Their mother, Jennifer Berman, appeared “off” recently, according to neighbor Marian Sklodowski, who lives across the street. “The last time, compared to the first time, something was missing. Something was missing. What was missing, I don’t know,” said Sklodowski.

“Just two days ago, when Sklodowski last saw and spot Jennifer Berman, he said, she appeared upset, disappointed and confused. “You can notice that, from the face, from the eyes, something was strange in her face,” said Sklodowski.

“Just across the street, neighbor Sheren Kirk also noticed something was not right as of late. “It’s shocking that it happened, but, I think, they had a lot of stress,” said Kirk. “There’s been a divorce; there’s been financial problems.”

“A few houses down from Kirk, resident Tim Frank said after the divorce, Jennifer Berman seemed distraught about the future and her kids. “She anticipated that it was going to be very tough for her to move on,” said Frank.

3…..”Two of Jennifer’s cousins who didn’t want to be named said Berman previously threatened to harm herself, but never the children. Police said the morning of the shootings, Jennifer Berman sent emails to Richard Berman and other family members and said she was going to harm herself and the children.
Kaufman said on behalf of Richard Berman that if Richard ever thought Jennifer Berman was a danger to the kids, Richard “would have gone to the end of the earth to stop it.”

“Jennifer Berman was devastated after the loss of her father, grandmother and most recently, her mother, said a cousin who wished not to be named. Jennifer Berman, who was working as a caretaker for a 99-year-old man, had been depressed for a while. The cousin believed she was on medication but wasn’t sure if it was a sleeping aid or for depression.

“Jennifer Berman, an only child, felt alone when she was left without the three people closest to her, the cousin said, and her depression developed as the deadline neared to leave her home. Jennifer Berman’s mother owned the home on Pershing Way and when Jennifer and Richard were going through financial troubles, they moved in. The cousin said Jennifer felt the house was her last connection to her mother.

“Her mother and her were very close,” she said. “I don’t think she would have done any of this if her mother was still alive. I feel like because she was leaving her mom’s home I think the depression turned into psychosis.”

[This is often a time when medication doses are increased or changed – a time when the FDA warns that an abrupt change in dose (whether up or down) can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis.]

“The cousin said Jennifer Berman had previously threatened suicide and was battling with the thought of it

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & http://ssristories.drugawareness.org
Author: ”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

WITHDRAWAL WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

The FDA also now warns that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis. These reactions can either come on very rapidly or even be delayed for months depending upon the adverse effects upon sleep patterns when the withdrawal is rapid! You can find the hour and a half long CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here: http://store.drugawareness.org/

1. http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2540148/Dad-teenagers-shot-dead-mother-hits-claims-penny-pinching-divorce-snap.html

2, http://www.wflx.com/story/24441456/mother-children-found-dead-in-wpb-home

3. http://www.palmbeachpost.com/news/news/crime-law/family-spokesman-asks-public-to-donate-money-to-ch/ncptj/#cmComments

ANTIDEPRESSANTS!!! OREGON NATIONAL GUARD HAS FOUR SUICIDES ALREADY THIS YEAR

Bradley Hammer

Brady Hammer Died of PTSD Medication-induced Suicide

Brady Hammer is one of four Oregon National Guard members to die this year from suicide. These suicides have not been counted in the military’s report of 22 military personal dying of suicide daily. So be aware that the actual number of suicides of our troops is higher than what you are being told.

According to his sister, Brady was told he needed to start on antidepressants before going to Iraq and was given a very large bottle with instructions of what to take and when. Yet these are drugs that are supposed to be closely monitored in use for suicidal tendencies and changes in behavior. Who is doing that? If they are given the drugs prior to deployment and sent off to war who is watching for those reactions? And of course the biggest question of all is WHY do they NEED an antidepressant to go to Iraq?

If you recall I mentioned once before how shocked I was to hear that my good friend’s son from Kansas had come to his father, a Social Worker, confused about whether he should take an antidepressant because they told him he needed one in order to go to Iraq as well. Of course his father, retired military, told his son that he should not take the drugs because he would be carrying a gun and if there was ever a time he needed to have a clear head and free of mind altering substances this would be the time.

But to demonstrate for you just how hard they must have pressured this young man to even cause him to ask his father the question you need to know that I did the Geraldo Show with one of his good friends and his family in 1997. We did the show to discuss his family’s own personal tragedy due to antidepressants. The boy’s father described as one of the nicest guys in town, after only days on Zoloft, stabbed his wife, his daughter and this boy, before he died by shooting himself. To think what pressure they must have put on this young man, with him knowing full well the most horrific adverse effects of these drugs firsthand after his friend’s experience, that he would even think to approach his father with this question to me is mind boggling!

From the article below we read, “Brady Hammer, an Oregon National Guard soldier who died in Texas on July 28 from what El Paso police say was a self-inflicted gunshot wound, was a “happy-go-lucky person,” according to his sister.

“But the 24-year-old’s moods were affected by a confusing cocktail of medications prescribed by his doctors at the Warrior Transition Unit at Fort Bliss, where he had been treated for post-traumatic stress disorder, said his sister, Lacee Valentine of Grants Pass and his mother, Marie Hammer of Klamath Falls.”

The article goes on to point out that the Department of Veterans Affairs has designated this month as Suicide Prevention Month then states, “The spike in self-inflicted Oregon Guard deaths reflects a national trend. Rates of military suicides have been rising even as the armed services are working harder to prevent them.”

But what are they doing to prevent them? They are prescribing MORE drugs to MORE troops thus producing MORE suicides! WHY?!! Why are these drugs being prescribed so widely to our troops?!!! When we know there is a Black Box Warning for increased suicidal ideation in those under 25, an increase of almost double the rate, why would they do this? And additionally we have the FDA warning on abrupt changes in dose of these drugs stating that any abrupt change – which would include forgetting to take a pill, switching from one medication to another, starting or stopping the use – can cause suicide, hostility or psychosis. Why would we want our troops being put in such a vulnerable position by these drugs and taking chances for such terrible results? Clearly something must be done to stop this because at this point it is bordering on genocide!

Original article: http://www.oregonlive.com/pacific-northwest-news/index.ssf/2013/09/oregon_sees_its_own_surge_in_m.html#incart_m-rpt-2#incart_hbx#incart_best-of

WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

The FDA also now warns that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis. And these reactions can either come on very rapidly or even be delayed for months depending upon the adverse effects upon sleep patterns when the withdrawal is rapid! You can find the CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here: http://store.drugawareness.org/

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & http://ssristories.drugawareness.org
Author: ”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

 

TOXICOLOGY RELEASED: ANTIDEPRESSANTS AND NEWTOWN SCHOOL SHOOTING???

Adam Lanza

ADAM LANZA

ANTIDEPRESSANTS AND NEWTOWN SCHOOL SHOOTING???:

From the article below you will see that we are now hearing that Adam Lanza’s toxicology has been released and was clear for any alcohol, illegal drugs or prescription medication.

After tracking school shootings for two decades I will say DON’T believe it!!! Why? Take a look at this list again: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JpFoivbZH1o&feature=youtu.be

… and here is the direct link to this list where you can read more on each individual case: http://www.drugawareness.org/ssri-nightmares/school-shootings

WITHDRAWAL: The report has no mention of withdrawal or the fact that the FDA has warned that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis – all of which we witnessed on 12-14-12 in Newtown, CT. Thus, rather than dismissing the possibility of one of these drugs being involved it should open up even more questions about medical records that have not been disclosed.

NOT THE NORM: As you can see it is not the norm for a school shooter NOT to be on an antidepressant which is why I have learned to continue asking questions until all questions are answered.

TOXICOLOGY TESTING: What you need to know about toxicology tests is that they do not have tests for many newer medications. It takes some time for them to be developed. For instance when working with the family of the Amish school shooter in Lancaster, PA area we found that if we did not know WHICH medication we wanted them to look for that they could not test for it. His mother and I had wondered if someone at work or a friend might have shared with him something they felt had worked for them. (Happens all the time! Or they will even slip something into someone’s drink feeling they are helping them.) But with us having no way of knowing which of all the medications that might be they could not test him for an antidepressant.

GOOD INDICATION FOR TOXICOLOGY: Yet we had good reason to test for an antidepresant in that case. You see 85 year old Sarah Glick (who lost a relative in the shooting) owned a health store there and Sarah has long been a dear friend who greatly admires my work and has had me come and lecture there several times. Sarah called to let me know that the shooter had recently sent word that he wanted to come and try something natural for his depression “since nothing else had worked.” Well obviously anything else he had tried would not have been natural if he was wanting to come and try something natural after using whatever it was he had used previously.

PATIENCE: If there is one thing I have learned from these cases over the past two decades it is that someone somewhere knows the truth and sooner or later it will surface if you wait. I have learned patience. In one case it took over a decade to get the truth but thanks to one of our directors with the International Coalition for Drug Awareness we did. And no, that case is not yet on the list you see, nor are at least three other documented school shooting incidents which are missing from this list because I have not yet had a chance to add them due to so many new cases of antidepressant-induced violence coming in non-stop.

WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants we always recommend that you also give reference to the CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which we have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

The FDA also now warns that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis. And these reactions can either come on very rapidly or even be delayed for months depending upon the adverse effects upon sleep patterns when the withdrawal is rapid! You can find the CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here: http://store.drugawareness.org/

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & http://ssristories.drugawareness.org
Author: “Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

ANTIDEPRESSANT??? SIX DEAD AS MAN KILLS ANOTHER MAN RANDOMLY THEN KILLS WIFE, 3 CHILDREN & SELF

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Besides all the killing he apparently set his home on fire as well because the bodies of his wives & children had to be pulled out of the burning home. So there was arson, mass murder & suicide, random killing using a bat (baseball bats seem to be very common in antidepressant murders), extreme violence requiring much strength, it happened in the early morning hours, & was all done by a man who had no previous record of violence. It also took place in Oregon where there has been one of the highest uses of antidepressants in the country. So there is a long list here of symptoms of elevated serotonin – clues pointing to the involvement of an antidepressant.

Then the text he sent his father-in-law before killing himself is very odd indicating possible hallucinations of someone else doing the killings while he tried to stop them. “Please forgive me,” the text said. “They took control of my body and did it. I BEGGED THEM NOT TO BUT THEY DID. I’m so sorry.”

These killings also happened very quickly & are so very simjilar to the case out of England I posted just weeks ago where he stabbed his wife, father-in-law, two children, the wife’s friend & her child, before stabbing himself 40 times & slashing his throat & wrists 20 times. We know that was a Prozac-induced murder/suicide attempt. This is much too similar and a case that should be investigated for the involvement of an SSRI without a doubt.

To read the full story click link below:

www.oregonlive.com/pacific-northwest-news/index.ssf/2012/09/salem_man_kills_stranger_wife.html

ANTIDEPRESSANT??? Spanaway, WA Husband Confesses to Killing Wife & Daughter, Before Attempting to Kill Self

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Dean Holmes in Spanaway, WA turned himself in this past Wednesday admitting that Tuesday night he had shot his wife multiple times while she slept. He then woke up his 11 year old daughter & her friend who was sleeping over. After dropping off the friend at her home, he then drove back toward his home while his daughter fell asleep in the back seat of the car. At that point he stopped the car, got out & through the back window shot his daughter multiple times. He then drove through a McDonalds for breakfast with his daughter’s body still in the back seat. After returning home he placed his daughter’s body next to her mother in bed & attempted to shoot himself. When he could not pull the trigger he drove to the police department & turned himself in.

Here is the comment I posted on this article in response to a friend of the family who had stated she could not understand because Dean appeared to love his wife & daughter so much.:

“Washington state is loaded to the gills with antidepressants! Do you know what these drugs do? They cause you to act out your worst nightmare & that is called a REM Sleep Behavior Disorder (RBD). Of those being diagnosed with RBD 86% are taking an antidepressant. And of those suffering RBD 80% hurt themselves or someone else. If Dean seemed to really love his wife & daughter this would have been his worst nightmare. Someone had better start asking about meds! (By the way I was the expert in comedian Phil Hartman’s murder/suicide & their wrongful death suit has been settled by the makers of Zoloft.)”

Read the article here: http://www.thenewstribune.com/2012/08/30/2274355/spanaway-man-charged-with-first.html#storylink=misearch#storylink=cpy

Ann Blake-Tracy, Executive Director,

International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & www.SSRIstories.com
Author: “Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Safe Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

 

BOOK:  Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare! Anything you ever wanted to know about antidepressants is there along with everything drug companies hope you never find out about these drugs. Find the book & the CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!” on how to safely withdraw from antidepressants & most psychiatric medications. Available at www.drugawareness.org

BOOK TESTIMONIALS:

“VERY BOLD AND INFORMATIVE”

“PRICELESS INFORMATION THAT IS GIVING ME BACK TO ME”

“THE ABSOLUTE BEST REFERENCE FOR ANTIDEPRESSANT DRUGS”

“WELL DOCUMENTED & SCIENTIFICALLY RESEARCHED”

“I was stunned at the amount of research Ann Blake- Tracy has done on this subject. Few researchers go to as much trouble aggressively gathering information on the adverse reactions of Prozac, Zoloft and other SSRIs.”

WITHDRAWAL HELP CD TESTIMONIALS:

“Ann, I just wanted to let you know from the bottom of my heart how grateful I am God placed you in my life. I am now down to less than 2 mg on my Cymbalta and I have never felt better. I am finally getting my life back. I can feel again and colors have never been brighter. Thanks for all that you do!!” … Amber Weber

“Used your method of weaning off of SSRI’s and applied it to Ambian. Took 6 months but had been on 15 mg for years so what was another 6 months. I have been sleeping without it for 2 weeks and it is the first time I have been able to sleep drug free for 15 years. What a relief to be able to lay down and sleep when I need or want to. Ambien may be necessary for people at times but doctors giving a months worth of it at a time with unlimited refills is a prescription for disaster. It is so damn easy to become dependent on. Thanks for your council Ann.”… Mark Hill

“I’m so thankful for Ann Blake-Tracy and all her work. Also for taking the time out to talk to me and educate everyone! She has been a blessing to me during this awful time of antidepressant hell!” … Antoinette Beck
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ANTIDEPRESSANT??? NEW YORK TIMES: JAMES HOLMES-AURORA SHOOTER-BEFORE GUNFIRE, HINTS OF ‘BAD NEWS’ – BIPOLAR QUESTIONS

Keep in mind as you read this article that ANTIDEPRESSANTS ARE NOW THE BIGGEST CAUSE OF BIPOLAR DISORDER ON THE PLANET!!!!!!!!!!

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This week the New York Times had the most in depth article we have seen to date on the accused Aurora movie theater shooter, James Holmes. The article begins with the most critical information yet released …

“The The text message, sent to another graduate student in early July, was cryptic and worrisome. Had she heard of “dysphoric mania,” James Eagan Holmes wanted to know?

“The psychiatric condition, a form of bipolar disorder, combines the frenetic energy of mania with the agitation, dark thoughts and in some cases paranoid delusions of major depression.

“She messaged back, asking him if dysphoric mania could be managed with treatment. Mr. Holmes replied: “It was,” but added that she should stay away from him “because I am bad news.”

Between the years 1996 – 2004 the use of antidepressants sky rocketed in youth & during that same period of time the diagnosis of bipolar disorder in that age group also sky rocketed by a 4000% increase! Note that when his friend texted back to him that dysphoric mania could be managed with treatment James Holmes replied that “It was” treated but that she should stay away from him because he was “bad news.”

From that statement it is quite clear that he had already been “treated” with something for dysphoric mania or at least Bipolar Disorder which continued to progress into what James himself was guessing was dysphoric mania – the type of mania we so often see in antidepressant-induced mania. The thoughts he was having were nightmarish enough that he warned his friend to stay away from him because he was “bad news” … he did not trust himself & knew his thinking was off.

Another quote from the New York Times article: “But he said that in some cases psychiatrists, unaware of the risks, prescribe antidepressants for patients with dysphoric mania — drugs that can make the condition worse.”

Notice that dysphoric mania includes paranoid delusions. This is why I have said from the beginning that the way he had booby trapped his apartment was NOT as a trap for the police, but a trap for anyone coming to harm him. This is why he warned the police to be careful of what was there as they entered his apartment. They booby traps were only a part of his paranoid delusions.

Yet the Times mistakenly reports: “He had apparently planned the attack for months, stockpiling 6,000 rounds of ammunition he purchased online, buying firearms — a shotgun and a semiautomatic rifle in addition to two Glock handguns — and body armor, and lacing his apartment with deadly booby traps, the authorities have said.”

They then go on to point out that: “Studies suggest that a majority of mass killers are in the grip of some type of psychosis at the time of their crimes, said Dr. Meloy, the forensic psychologist, and they often harbor delusions that they are fighting off an enemy who is out to get them.

“Yet despite their severe illness, they are frequently capable of elaborate and meticulous planning, he said.

His stockpiling of weapons, which is so very common in those who suffer this type of mania from antidepressants, was evidence of the level of his paranoia, NOT evidence of his planning for the shooting! After reviewing thousands of these cases the pattern becomes quiet clear of arming themselves with a multitude of weapons in order to protect themselves from this unknown enemy who is out to get them. Although generally they have no idea who they are protecting themselves from since the paranoia is a chemical reaction with no basis in reality at times they do pick someone out to blame their paranoia on so as to have a reason for their feelings of such deep fear.

Once again let me remind you that if you really want to understand how these antidepressants produce these horrific cases of violence in our world by those no one would have ever suspected before read my book Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare! Anything you ever wanted to know about antidepressants is there along with everything drug companies hope you never find out about these drugs. Find the book & the CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!” on how to safely withdraw at www.drugawareness.org

BOOK TESTIMONIALS:

“VERY BOLD AND INFORMATIVE”

“PRICELESS INFORMATION THAT IS GIVING ME BACK TO ME”

“THE ABSOLUTE BEST REFERENCE FOR ANTIDEPRESSANT DRUGS”

“WELL DOCUMENTED & SCIENTIFICALLY RESEARCHED”

“I was stunned at the amount of research Ann Blake-Tracy has done on this subject. Few researchers go to as much trouble aggressively gathering information on the adverse reactions of Prozac, Zoloft and other SSRIs.”

HELP CD TESTIMONIALS:

“Ann, I just wanted to let you know from the bottom of my heart how grateful I am God placed you in my life. I am now down to less than 2 mg on my Cymbalta and I have never felt better. I am finally getting my life back. I can feel again and colors have never been brighter. Thanks for all that you do!!” … Amber Weber

“Used your method of weaning off of SSRI’s and applied it to Ambian. Took 6 months but had been on 15 mg for years so what was another 6 months. I have been sleeping without it for 2 weeks and it is the first time I have been able to sleep drug free for 15 years. What a relief to be able to lay down and sleep when I need or want to. Ambien may be necessary for people at times but doctors giving a months worth of it at a time with unlimited refills is a prescription for disaster. It is so damn easy to become dependent on. Thanks for your council Ann.”… Mark Hill

“I’m so thankful for Dr.Tracy and all her work. Also for taking the time out to talk to me and educate everyone! She has been a blessing to me during this awful time of antidepressant hell!” … Antoinette Beck

Ann Blake-Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & www.ssristories.drugawareness.org
Author: “Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Safe Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

Also be aware that many new cases are posted regularly under breaking news at www.drugawareness.org. There are far too many to send them all to you. So if you have a question about a recent case check the website & feel free to send it to me if it looks like yet another case we might have missed…. Ann Blake-Tracy

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NEW YORK TIMES: Before Gunfire, Hints of ‘Bad News’


By ERICA GOODE, SERGE F. KOVALESKI, JACK HEALY and DAN FROSCH
Published: August 26, 2012

AURORA, Colo. — The text message, sent to another graduate student in early July, was cryptic and worrisome. Had she heard of “dysphoric mania,” James Eagan Holmes wanted to know?

The psychiatric condition, a form of bipolar disorder, combines the frenetic energy of mania with the agitation, dark thoughts and in some cases paranoid delusions of major depression.

She messaged back, asking him if dysphoric mania could be managed with treatment. Mr. Holmes replied: “It was,” but added that she should stay away from him “because I am bad news.”

It was the last she heard from him.

About two weeks later, minutes into a special midnight screening of “The Dark Knight Rises” on July 20, Mr. Holmes, encased in armor, his hair tinted orange, a gas mask obscuring his face, stepped through the emergency exit of a sold-out movie theater here and opened fire. By the time it was over, there were 12 dead and 58 wounded.

The ferocity of the attack, its setting, its sheer magnitude — more people were killed and injured in the shooting than in any in the country’s history — shocked even a nation largely inured to random outbursts of violence.

But Mr. Holmes, 24, who was arrested outside the theater and has been charged in the shootings, has remained an enigma, his life and his motives cloaked by two court orders that have imposed a virtual blackout on information in the case and by the silence of the University of Colorado, Denver, where Mr. Holmes was until June a graduate student in neuroscience.

Unlike Wade M. Page, who soon after the theater shooting opened fire at a Sikh temple in Wisconsin, killing six people, Mr. Holmes left no trail of hate and destruction behind him, no telling imprints in the electronic world, not even a Facebook page.

Yet as time has passed, a clearer picture has begun to surface. Interviews with more than a dozen people who knew or had contact with Mr. Holmes in the months before the attack paint a disturbing portrait of a young man struggling with a severe mental illness who more than once hinted to others that he was losing his footing.

Those who worked side by side with him saw an amiable if intensely shy student with a quick smile and a laconic air, whose quirky sense of humor surfaced in goofy jokes — “Take that to the bank,” he said while giving a presentation about an enzyme known as A.T.M. — and wry one-liners. There was no question that he was intelligent. “James is really smart,” one graduate student whispered to another after a first-semester class. Yet he floated apart, locked inside a private world they could neither share nor penetrate.

He confided little about his outside life to classmates, but told a stranger at a nightclub in Los Angeles last year that he enjoyed taking LSD and other hallucinogenic drugs. He had trouble making eye contact, but could make surprising forays into extroversion, mugging for the camera in a high school video. A former classmate, Sumit Shah, remembers an instance when Mr. Holmes performed Irish folk tunes on the piano — until others took notice of his playing, when he stopped. So uncommunicative that at times he seemed almost mute, he piped up enthusiastically in a hospital cafeteria line when a nearby conversation turned to professional football.

Like many of his generation, he was a devotee of role-playing video games like Diablo III and World of Warcraft — in 2009, he bought Neverwinter Nights II, a game like Dungeons & Dragons, on eBay, using the handle “sherlockbond” (“shipped with alacrity, great seller,” he wrote in his feedback on the sale). Rumored to have had a girlfriend, at least for a time, he appeared lonely enough in the weeks before the shooting to post a personal advertisement seeking companionship on an adult Web site.

Sometime in the spring, he stopped smiling and no longer made jokes during class presentations, his behavior shifting, though the meaning of the changes remained unclear. Packages began arriving at his apartment and at the school, containing thousands of rounds of ammunition bought online, the police say.

Prosecutors said in court filings released last week that Mr. Holmes told a fellow student in March that he wanted to kill people “when his life was over.”

In May, he showed another student a Glock semiautomatic pistol, saying he had bought it “for protection.” At one point, his psychiatrist, Dr. Lynne Fenton, grew concerned enough that she alerted at least one member of the university’s threat assessment team that he might be dangerous, an official with knowledge of the investigation said, and asked the campus police to find out if he had a criminal record. He did not. But the official said that nothing Mr. Holmes disclosed to Dr. Fenton rose to the threshold set by Colorado law to hospitalize someone involuntarily.

Yet Mr. Holmes was descending into a realm of darkness. In early June, he did poorly on his oral exams. Professors told him that he should find another career, prosecutors said at a hearing last week. Soon after, he left campus.

That Mr. Holmes, who is being held in the Arapahoe County jail awaiting arraignment on 142 criminal counts, deteriorated to the point of deadly violence cannot help but raise questions about the adequacy of the treatment he received and about the steps the university took or failed to take in dealing with a deeply troubled student. In court hearings and documents, Mr. Holmes’s lawyers have confirmed that he has a mental disorder and that he was in treatment with Dr. Fenton. They will undoubtedly use any evidence that he was mentally ill in mounting a defense. Colorado is one of only a few states where, in an insanity defense, the burden of proof lies on the prosecution.

J. Reid Meloy, a forensic psychologist and expert on mass killers, has noted that almost without exception, their crimes represent the endpoint of a long and troubled highway that in hindsight was dotted with signs missed or misinterpreted. “These individuals do not snap,” he said, “whatever that means.”

But who could divine the capacity to shoot dozens of people in cold blood? Or the diabolical imagination necessary to devise the booby traps the police said Mr. Holmes carefully set out in his apartment the night of the rampage, devices that could have killed more?

Cool and Detached

A potential for violence was the last thing that came to mind when a graduate student at the university met Mr. Holmes at a recruitment weekend for the neuroscience program in February last year.

“What struck me was that he was kind of nonchalant,” the woman recalled. “He just seemed too cool to be there. He kicked back in his chair and seemed very relaxed in a very stressful situation.”

But his reticence was also apparent, she said.

“I noticed that he was not engaged with people around him. We went around the table to introduce ourselves, and he made a weird, awkward joke,” said the student who, like many of those interviewed, spoke on the condition of anonymity, citing reasons that included not wanting their privacy invaded by other news organizations and hearing from law enforcement or university officials that talking publicly could compromise the investigation. The university, invoking the investigation and the court orders, has refused to release even mundane details about Mr. Holmes, like which professors he worked with.

As the fall term began last year and students plunged into their required coursework, that pairing of laconic ease with an almost crippling social discomfort would become a theme that many students later remembered.

The neuroscience program, which admits six or seven students each year out of 60 or more applicants, sits under the umbrella of the Center for Neuroscience, an interdisciplinary and multicampus enterprise started a little over year ago to bring together basic science and clinical research. More than 150 scientists are affiliated with the center, 60 of them formally involved with the graduate program.

The mix of laboratory scientists and clinicians is “absolutely fundamental” to the center’s goals, said Diego Restrepo, its director. Dr. Restrepo and two other administrators met with The New York Times under the ground rule that no specific questions about Mr. Holmes or the case be asked.

The research interests of the neuroscience faculty are wide-ranging and include the effects of aging on the sense of smell, the repair of spinal cord injuries, promising drugs for Down syndrome, treatments for stroke, and studies of diseases and disorders like Alzheimer’s, schizophrenia and autism. The center is particularly known for its research on the neurobiology of sensory perception.

In the first year of the program, each neuroscience graduate student takes required courses and completes three 12-week laboratory rotations, said Angie Ribera, the program’s director.

“Students might come in with a strong interest in one area, but we feel strongly that they should get broad training,” she said. “It’s an incredibly supportive group of students. There is a bonding there.”

Other students said Mr. Holmes did his rotations in the laboratories of Achim Klug, who studies the auditory system; Mark Dell’Acqua, who does basic research on synaptic signaling; and Dr. Curt Freed, whose work focuses on messenger chemicals in the brain and stem cell transplants in patients with Parkinson’s disease.

But even in a world where students can spend hours in solitary research, Mr. Holmes seemed especially alone.

He volunteered little information about himself, his interests or what he dreamed of doing with his degree, said one graduate student who, touched by Mr. Holmes’s shyness, tried repeatedly to draw him out. Attempts to engage him in small talk were met with an easy smile and a polite reply — if only a soft-spoken “yo” — but little more.

“He would basically communicate with me in one-word sentences,” one member of the neuroscience program said. “He always seemed to be off in his own world, which did not involve other people, as far as I could tell.”

In classes, Mr. Holmes arrived early to grab a good seat, his lanky 5-foot-11 frame in jeans and sometimes a “Star Wars” T-shirt. He hardly ever took notes, often staring into the distance as if daydreaming. Uncomfortable when called on by professors, he almost always began his responses with a weary-sounding “Uhhhhhhh.”

But there was little doubt about his intellect. In a grant-writing class, where students were required to grade each other’s proposals, Mr. Holmes wrote thoughtful and detailed comments, one student recalled, giving each paper he was assigned to review a generous grade.

“This was the only time I saw an assignment of James’s,” the student said. “Frankly, I was very impressed. I thought his comments were much better than anyone else’s.”

In the spring, just months before the shooting, Mr. Holmes turned in a midterm essay that a professor said was “spectacular,” written almost at the level of a professional in the field.

The essay was “beautifully written,” the professor said, and “more than I would have expected from a first-year student.”

In the talks Mr. Holmes gave after his first laboratory rotations, he often resorted to jokes, perhaps in an effort to cover his unease. During one presentation, he stood with one hand in his pocket, a laser pointer in his other hand. With a slight smile, he aimed the pointer at a slide and crowed “Oooooooh!”

“Oh my God, James is so awkward,” a student recalled a classmate whispering.

Yet in a video of scenes from Hemingway’s “A Farewell to Arms,” made when he was a student at Westview High School in San Diego, where he was on the cross-country team and was a standout soccer defender, Mr. Holmes proved a deft comedian with a talent for improvisation, his former classmate Jared Bird remembered.

“He kept making funny faces at the camera and making unexpected comments,” Mr. Bird said. “He was being a goofy bartender. We expected him to play it straight, but he made it more interesting, much more comical. He ad-libbed everything.”

By the end of high school, Mr. Holmes was already pursuing his interest in science, attending a summer internship in 2006 at the Salk Institute for Biological Studies in San Diego, before going to college at the University of California, Riverside. But if he was beginning the process of finding a career, he was also forging a reputation for extreme shyness.

“I frequently had to ask yes-or-no questions to get responses from him,” said John Jacobson, his adviser that summer, adding that he completed virtually none of the work he was assigned, which involved putting visual illusions developed in the laboratory on the Internet. “Communicating with James was difficult.”

Mr. Holmes was more voluble in e-mails. When he discovered that Mr. Jacobson spoke Mandarin, he began one e-mail to him with a greeting in that language: “Ni hao John.”

But he stayed apart from the other interns, often eating alone at his desk and not showing up for the regular afternoon teas. He was the only intern not to keep in touch with the coordinator when the program ended.

“At the end of the day, he would slink upstairs and leave,” Mr. Jacobson said.

A Notable Presence

A smile and the air of one who walked a solitary path — they were enough to attract the attention of shopkeepers in the gritty neighborhood just west of the Anschutz Medical Campus in Aurora, where students could find cheap, if amenity-free, housing.

On many days, Mr. Holmes could be seen cruising home slowly down 17th Avenue on his BMX bicycle toward the red-brick apartment building where he lived on the third floor, his body arched casually, his gangling frame almost too big for the small bike, a Subway sandwich bag dangling from the handlebars.

Waiters and sales clerks recognized him. He washed his clothes at a nearby laundry, took his car for servicing at the Grease Monkey, bought sunglasses at the Mex Mall and stopped in at a pawnshop on East Colfax Avenue, perusing the electronics and other goods for sale.

He favored a Mexican food truck in the mornings, buying three chicken and beef tacos but refusing sauce, and at night he sometimes dropped by Shepes’s Rincon, a Latin club near his apartment, where he sat at the bar and drank three or four beers, a security guard there said. But he spoke no Spanish, and other than placing his order talked to no one.

On several occasions, he was spotted in the company of two other students, one male, one female. Did he date? No one seemed sure. Mostly, he was alone.

“You kind of got that feeling that he was a loner,” said Vivian Andreu, who works at a local liquor store.

“Sometimes,” she said, “I would get a smile out of him.”

Months of Planning

He had apparently planned the attack for months, stockpiling 6,000 rounds of ammunition he purchased online, buying firearms — a shotgun and a semiautomatic rifle in addition to two Glock handguns — and body armor, and lacing his apartment with deadly booby traps, the authorities have said.

But Mr. Holmes’s neighbors did not seem to notice — Narender Dudee, who lived in an apartment next to his, did not even hear the loud techno music that blared from his rooms on the night of the shooting.

“I must have been in a deep sleep,” Mr. Dudee said.

Studies suggest that a majority of mass killers are in the grip of some type of psychosis at the time of their crimes, said Dr. Meloy, the forensic psychologist, and they often harbor delusions that they are fighting off an enemy who is out to get them.

Yet despite their severe illness, they are frequently capable of elaborate and meticulous planning, he said.

As the graduate students reached the end of their second semester, wrapping up coursework, finishing lab rotations and looking toward the oral exam that would cap their first year, some noticed a change in Mr. Holmes. If possible, he seemed more isolated, more alone.

His smile and silly jokes were gone. The companions he had sometimes been seen with earlier in the year had disappeared.

On May 17, he gave his final laboratory presentation on dopamine precursors. The talks typically ran 15 minutes or so, but this time, Mr. Holmes spoke for only half that time. And while in earlier presentations he had made an attempt to entertain, this time he spoke flatly, as if he wanted only to be done with it.

A student with whom Mr. Holmes had flirted clumsily — he once sent her a text message after a class asking “Why are you distracting me with those shorts?” — said that two messages she received from him, one in June and the other in July, were particularly puzzling.

Their electronic exchanges had begun abruptly in February or March, when she was out with stomach flu.

“You still sick, girl?” she remembers Mr. Holmes asking.

“Who is this?” she shot back.

“Jimmy James from neuroscience,” he replied.

After that, she said, he sent her messages sporadically — once he asked her if she would like to go hiking — though he would sometimes walk right past her in the hallway, making no eye contact.

As the oral exams approached, she recalled, Mr. Holmes seemed relaxed about the prospect, telling her, “I will study everything or maybe I will study nothing at all.”

The goal of the one-hour exam, said Dr. Ribera, the neuroscience program director, “is to evaluate how students integrate information from their coursework and lab rotations and to see how they communicate on their feet.” It is not, she said, “to weed out or weed in.”

As is customary in many doctoral programs, three faculty members ask the questions during the exam. If a student does poorly, the orals can be repeated.

Mr. Holmes took his oral exam on June 7. The graduate student sent him a message the next day, asking how it had gone. Not well, he replied, “and I am going to quit.”

“Are you kidding me?” she asked.

“No, I am just being James,” he said.

A few weeks later, another student recalled, Cammie Kennedy, the neuroscience program administrator, accompanied the students to Cedar Creek Pub on campus to celebrate the completion of the first year. All the students except Mr. Holmes attended.

As the group drank beers and waxed nostalgic, Ms. Kennedy suddenly grew serious.

“I want to let you guys know that James has quit the program,” a student remembered her saying. “He wrote us an e-mail. He didn’t say why. That’s all I can really say.”

Mr. Holmes informed the school that he was dropping out at the same time that members of the threat assessment team were discussing Dr. Fenton’s concerns, the official familiar with the investigation said. Prosecutors in the case have said in court documents that Mr. Holmes was barred from the campus after making unspecified threats to a professor. But university administrators have insisted that he was not barred from campus and said his key card was deactivated on June 10 as part of the standard procedure for withdrawing.

In early July, the woman who conducted the text exchange with Mr. Holmes sent him a message to ask if he had left town yet. No, he wrote back, he still had two months remaining on his lease.

Soon he asked her about dysphoric mania.

Whether the diagnosis was his own or had been made by a mental health professional is unclear. Through a lawyer, Mr. Holmes’s parents declined several requests to talk about their son’s life before the shooting or the nature of any illness of his.

Dr. Victor Reus, a professor of psychiatry at the University of California, San Francisco, said dysphoric mania is not uncommon in patients with bipolar disorder, a vast majority of whom never turn to violence.

But in severe cases, he said, patients can become highly agitated and caught up in paranoid delusions, reading meaning into trivial things, “something said on TV, something a passer-by might say, a bird flying by.” Dr. Reus declined to speculate about Mr. Holmes, whom he has never met, and he emphasized that he knew nothing about the psychiatric treatment Mr. Holmes might have received.

But he said that in some cases psychiatrists, unaware of the risks, prescribe antidepressants for patients with dysphoric mania — drugs that can make the condition worse.

Dave Aragon, the director of the low-budget movie “Suffocator of Sins,” a Batman-style story of vigilante justice and dark redemption, remembers receiving two phone calls in late May or early June from a man identifying himself as James Holmes from Denver. The caller had become enraptured with the four-minute online trailer for the movie, Mr. Aragon said — “He told me he’d watched it 100 times” — and had pressed him for more details about the film.

“He came off as articulate, nervous, on the meek side,” he said. “He was obviously interested in the body count.”

Painful Retrospect

In the days after the shooting, faculty members and graduate students, in shock, compared notes on what they knew about Mr. Holmes, what they might have missed, what they could have done. Some said they wished they had tried harder to break through his loneliness, a student recalled. Others wondered if living somewhere besides the dingy apartment on Paris Street might have mitigated his isolation.

At a meeting held at Dr. Ribera’s house, a student said, Barry Shur, the dean of the graduate school, said Mr. Holmes had been seeing a psychiatrist. When the authorities told him the identity of the shooting suspect, Dr. Shur said, his reaction was “I’ve heard his name before.”

But all that came later.

No one saw Mr. Holmes much after he left school in June.

A classmate spotted him once walking past the Subway on campus, his backpack in tow. Mr. Dudee, his neighbor, saw him in mid-July, his hair still its normal brown. Perhaps in a sign of ambivalence, he never took the forms he had filled out to the graduate dean’s office, the final step in withdrawing from the university.

He never replied to the fellow student’s last text message, asking if he wanted to talk about dysphoric mania.

At some point on Thursday, July 19, according to the police, he gathered up the bullets and shotgun shells, the gas mask, an urban assault vest, a ballistic helmet and a groin protector and moved into action at the Century 16 Theater.

He mailed a notebook to Dr. Fenton that the university said arrived on July 23, its contents still under seal by the court. And he bought a ticket for the midnight premiere of “The Dark Knight Rises,” as if he were just another moviegoer, looking forward to the biggest hit of the summer.

Sheelagh McNeill, Kitty Bennett and Jack Styczynski contributed research.
A version of this article appeared in print on August 27, 2012, on page A1 of the New York edition with the headline: Before Gunfire, Hints of ‘Bad News’.

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