…my brain started freaking out inside over colors .”
Hi I would like to share my own experience with Paxil as it has been unlike any other I have heard of. I was given Paxil for what my family doctor thought I was suffering from a anxiety disorder. I took Paxil for a period of two weeks when I noticed that it was severely changing thought patterns and decided to abruptly quit. I was not warned of any serious problems with stopping the medication and suffered a breakdown three days later. I contacted the doctor who gave me the Paxil and was told to start the medication again. The symptoms I suffered from stopping seemed to vanish within a few days, but then after staying with the medication for a period of almost 3 months or better was when I was struck all of the sudden one day with the most bizarre thing that I never have heard or dreamed of could happen.
I awoke okay and went to work on a project that day when in a split second my brain started freaking out inside over colors and I am talking about colors that actually exist like the paint job on your car for example. Not only was my brain going bizarre over colors but also started firing thoughts through over them and crashing out emotionally and mentally. At the end of the week I was totally devastated. I could not hardly look at any single object in my house without my brain producing these same symptoms over and over.
I realized that Paxil was probably to blame since these sort of things just do not happen. I threw the medicine away at the end of that week and called the doctor who gave it to me. I was told that it could not be the Paxil and was treated like a nut case.
I went on to suffer horribly for a month when I seemed to get somewhat better. Although I never quite recovered. I felt as if I was getting better each day but the problem continued to exist slightly. After a period of 6 months I had my brain totally relapse again and produce identical symptoms all over again. It now has been 2 years since this has happened, and I am still not free of these symptoms.
What Paxil did to me is a mystery. I have never heard of the brain going screwed up over colors like this when there is no reason for it. I truly hope that no one else ever has to live with something like this. And to this day no doctor even knows what has happened. Nor have I ever found anyone who has suffered anything similar to what I have.
If anyone had experienced such a thing I have never heard of it, as maybe they are not around to tell of it. But one thing is for certain, and that is that an SSRI can do things that no one has heard of.
Randy Shine
ratzo22@hotmail.com
12/17/2001
This is Survivor Story number 34.
Total number of stories in current database is 34
