ANTIDEPRESSANTS – How We Are All Adversely Affected

me in front of hearse


I am going to share a couple of experiences in my life today to help you to see how incredibly widespread the nightmare of these antidepressants really is.

This is a picture of me walking past the hearse today to dedicate my mother’s grave as her final resting place. The look on my face is not from anything to do with burying my mother, instead it is shock from seeing the grave next to the hearse just a few graves away from my parent’s graves.

Let me explain why…

The name on the grave with a picture on the headstone was William Farar and this was the first time I had ever seen a picture of Bill. Several of his family are friends of mine here on Facebook because Bill Farar was one of the first of many SSRI-induced suicides in my hometown. I worked with his family to help them to understand that what had taken his life was NOT suicide, but instead a reaction to his antidepressant.

I had also just spoken at my mother’s funeral where each of us children shared the most important things about our mother. Other than her incredible example of caring for all people was that while on a college tour of Mexico she had recruited Dr. Larry Porter, originally from northern Mexico, to help translate for her as they went to visit my infant son who was waiting with a family there for us to finish his adoption. Dr. Porter became convinced that Mexico would never allow my son to leave the country so he began to look at other options unbeknownst to me.

A month or two later he contracted pneumonia and was hospitalized when a 15 year old girl walked into the hospital in labor and said she wanted to give her child up for adoption.. Dr. Porter’s daughter was a nurse there and immediately ran to tell her father about the baby. Dr. Porter got out of his hospital bed and ran to the front of the hospital to say he knew a couple who desperately wanted a baby and would adopt the child.

Because my mother did not want me to go through the pain and anguish once again of getting my hopes up for a baby and then not being able to complete the adoption, she brought the baby home and kept her for the three day waiting period Arizona has for a legal release for adoption. She then called me to have me guess what she had waiting for me in my little brother’s room! I flew down to bring my new baby daughter home and three weeks later Senator Jake Garn was able to assist us with finalization of my son’s adoption. So within three weeks I had two babies a year and a half apart! Yikes!

That was in 1980. Fast forward another 13 years and Dr. Larry Porter had moved to Provo, Utah where he had established his practice. One day I got a call from one of his patients wanting help. He said he thought he was having serious adverse reactions to Prozac because as a guard at the prison he was not only having thoughts, but actually making plans to kill everyone on death row. He found these thoughts and plans alarming enough to ask for help because he thought those thoughts were coming from his Prozac. So I helped him as he weaned of Prozac and the thoughts and plans disappeared along with his Prozac.

But what had made him realize it was Prozac causing this was his own doctor, who had told him he too was on Prozac. Yet his doctor had just shot his wife and and himself in a murder/suicide. That doctor was Dr. Larry Porter who had helped me to adopt my daughter! This was COMPLETELY out of character for Dr. Porter! His patient knew it, I knew it, and Dr. Porter’s family knew it. They believed someone must have come into the home and murdered both of them. But the police investigation concluded that it was a murder/suicide. I was then able to work with Dr. Porter’s son to help the family understand how this could have happened.

So I share this with you to let you know that even in laying my mother to rest I am surrounded by SSRI nightmares as all of us are if we but look. I am aware of this only because I see these nightmares where others remain blind to them. I encourage you all to look around you and become aware of what is happening in your own circle of family, friends and neighbors.

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness & or
Author: ”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

WITHDRAWAL HELP: You can find the hour and a half long CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here: And if you need additional consultations with Ann Blake-Tracy, you can book one at or sign up for one of the memberships for the International Coalition for Drug Awareness which includes free consultations as one of the benefits of that particular membership plan.

WITHDRAWAL WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

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