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THE RISPERDAL NIGHTMARE….America’s Most Admired Lawbreaker- Johnson & Johnson

For all of you who follow my work I do hope you realize that my focus is on ALL serotonergic medications even though it seems the main focus is on antidepressants. The name of my book “Prozac: Panacea or Pandora?” has a subtitle that better describes the main focus of the book introduced as Prozac began sweeping America. The subtitle is what was to be the main title of the book until we realized the people at that point knew little about serotonin and the serotonin theory as they do now. That subtitle is “Our Serotonin Nightmare!”

Antidepressants are the most widely prescribed of the serotonergic medications leading to the use of antipsychotics as the patients suffer antidepressant-induced psychosis (most often a manic psychosis) and oh so many other side effects both psychiatric and physical. The newer atypical antipsychotics such as Risperdal, Zyprexa, Geodon, Abilify, Invega, etc. are also serotonergic medications. To simplify I often describe them as a mix of an SSRI antidepressant and the older antipsycotics. Although drug makers would lead you to believe otherwise there is LITTLE involved in the development of their “new” products, but mainly in how those drugs are advertised and marketed.


Mark Taylor, the first boy shot at Columbine High School, known as the “Miracle Boy” after surviving 7 – 13 bullets that day spoke to the FDA in the 2004 hearings on antidepressants. He why we are worried about terrorists when the drug makers are even bigger terrorists. The following is VERY IMPORTANT INFORMATION not only on Johnson and Johnson, but also on how all drug companies break the law every day by falsifying research, marketing anything but the truth about the medicines you take, thus endangering your health and well being, producing amazing amounts of not only harm, but death. In fact according to a 1995 study, done by pharmacists sickened by the numbers dying from the drugs they were handing out (200,000 annually-DRUG TOPICS, October 23, 1995, pg. 14-16 ), walking into your doctor’s office and leaving with a prescription is exposing you to the third leading cause of death in America – prescription medications “taken as prescribed”! According to this study the death toll far exceeds the loss of lives in the 9/11 tragedy, for which we went to war for over a decade. These drugs we call “medications” are killing as many every week in this country as we lost on 9/11. Where is the war on this hidden terrorist among us?

No worries because you are not taking this particular medication? Not only does this situation cost the one suffering the adverse effects which are kept hidden …. learn how this affects us all with all of us paying the costs of this deception and harm ……

BACKSTAGE AT JOHNSON & JOHNSON …. Letter from the Editors … At some point over the course of this massive, magisterial 15-chapter story, you will get angry, and you will stay angry. It may happen when you learn that Johnson & Johnson handed out promotional Legos to pediatricians so that they’d be more likely to prescribe a drug called Risperdal to children with behavioral problems, although the FDA had repeatedly told the company not to market it to children. It may happen when you read that a team of scientists and company executives decided to massage the numbers on a study showing that Risperdal puts little boys at risk of developing large breasts—46DD breasts in the case of Austin Pledger, whom you can see in this video. Or it may happen at one of a few dozen other points in this 20-year history of the drug, which ended up being a blockbuster for J&J even if you account for $3 billion and counting in legal claims.

And that’s what’s so impressive about this project by Steven Brill, one of our era’s best reporters. We all either take prescription drugs or love someone who does. Many of us depend on them to live. We may be aware that drug companies occasionally release bad products or take pains to get around government regulations. But we still know far too little about the culture of the industry that produced the Risperdal scandal, and who the people are behind these life-and-death decisions. Steven has made all of that clear. You read the damning emails, you examine the internal documents, you see the close relationship between J&J salespeople and their hired scientists and feel as if you’re inside the room when plaintiffs’ attorneys figure out a way to fight back.

Rarely are systems—giant, seemingly impenetrable bureaucracies—laid this bare and made this human. It’s thrilling…..

THE RISPERDAL NIGHTMARE….On May 20, about 100 stock analysts gathered in the ballroom of the Hyatt Regency Hotel in New Brunswick, New Jersey, to hear good news from top executives at Johnson & Johnson: The company had 10 new drugs in the pipeline that might achieve more than a billion dollars in annual sales.

For 129 years, New Brunswick has served as the headquarters of J&J, America’s seventh most valuable public company. With consumer products from Band-Aids to baby powder, Neutrogena to Rogaine, Listerine to Visine, Aveeno to Tylenol and Sudafed to Splenda, Johnson & Johnson is the biggest and, according to multiple surveys, most admired corporation in the world’s most prosperous industry—healthcare.

But the real money—about 80 percent of its revenue and 91 percent of its profit—comes not from those consumer favorites, but from Johnson & Johnson’s high-margin medical devices: artificial hips and knees, heart stents, surgical tools and monitoring devices; and from still higher-margin prescription drugs targeting Crohn’s disease (Remicade), cancer (Zytiga, Velcade), schizophrenia (Risperdal), diabetes (Invokana), psoriasis (Stelara), migraines (Topamax), heart disease (Xarelto) and attention deficit disorder (Concerta).

How J&J Makes Its Money

Ads for many of these products dominate our television screens and magazine pages. Each drug relies on its own elaborate marketing plan and carefully pitched promotional materials, used by hundreds of salespeople whose incomes turn on how much product they can push to the thousands of doctors who write prescriptions. All command increasing portions of our health insurance premiums and our own wallets, as well as our hopes and anxiety when we or our loved ones fall ill.

What follows is the backstage story of how an iconic company marketed a blockbuster drug that raised those hopes and fed on that anxiety. It is a story that in its depiction of strategies, tactics and mindset should make us wonder about the prescription drugs that are so much a part of our lives.




People often dismiss patient reports forgetting that peer reviewed research is NOT what gets drugs pulled from the market. Its purpose is to get drugs approved, not removed. But what got Thalidomide removed from the market? It was all the cases of missing arms and legs of the babies born to the mothers of those who took the drug.

This statement on the importance of anecdotal evidence as opposed to peer reviewed double blind studies is from Dr. Johnathan Cole, MD, the father of Psychopharmacology:

“The real world is not perfect. Drugs can and do cause adverse effects which can resemble the manifestations of the illness and arguments about the causes and nature of these adverse events, including suicides, must rest on case reports [anecdotal evidence] and data collected in small studies for other purposes. . . If some cases stand out strikingly, there are logically others where the adverse effect is more subtle.”

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,

International Coalition for Drug Awareness & ssristories.NET
Author: ”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

WITHDRAWAL WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

WITHDRAWAL HELP: You can find the hour and a half long CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here: And if you need additional consultations with Ann Blake-Tracy, you can book one at or sign up for one of the memberships in the International Coalition for Drug Awareness which includes free consultations as one of the benefits of that particular membership plan. For only a $30 membership for one month you can even get 30 days of access to the withdrawal CD with tips on rebuilding after the meds, all six of my DVDs, hundreds of radio interviews, lectures, TV interviews I have done over the years PLUS access to my book on antidepressants (500 plus pages) with more information than you will find anywhere else (that is only $5 more than the book alone would cost) at (Definitely the best option to save outrageous postage charges for those out of the country!)

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For All Who Have Lost Loved Ones to Prescription Drugs



Video link:

Karol Truman, author of the excellent book “Feelings Buried Alive Never Die,” which I recommend in my book on the dangers of antidepressants is a dear friend of mine. Last week Karol sent me her son Dan’s latest release and asked me to share it with others. Dan is in the popular Country Western group, Diamond Rio.

And as I was playing Dan’s latest song, “Oh My Father,” which you will find at the bottom of this page, I noticed a Diamond Rio song posted near it, called “I BELIEVE.” After just reading the statement about 17 year old Claire Davis passing away a week after being shot in the latest school shooting at Arapahoe High School, just eight miles from Columbine, watching the video brought me to tears. Here is that quote: “Shannon Wilhelm cried and held her son tightly in her arms. ‘Being a parent, the fact that you have to lose your child around the holidays or any time, it’s just not something you want anyone to go through,’ she said.”

So….for all of you parents missing a child this Christmas, husbands missing a wife, wives missing a husband, children missing a parent, friend’s missing a friend or relative, etc. I dedicate this song to you with the hope that through its message you will find hope in the gift brought to us all from the Christ Child born on this day so long ago whose Father also lost His Son in order for us all to be together again. I too believe.

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author: “Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

Diamond Rio – “I BELIEVE”

Lyrics from “I Believe”

Every now and then
Soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you, come back again
And it’s like, you haven’t been

Gone a moment from my side
Like the tears were never cried
Like the hands of time
Were pulling you, and me

And with all my heart, I’m sure
We’re closer than we ever were
I don’t have to hear or see
I’ve got all the proof I need

There are more than angels watching
Over me.. I believe.. ohh, I believe.

Now when you die, your life goes on
It doesn’t end here, when you’re gone
Every soul is filled with light
It never ends, if I’m right

Our love can even reach, across-
Eternity.. I believe.. ohh, I believe.

Forever, you’re a part of me
Forever, in the heart of me
I will hold you even longer
If I can…

Oh, the people who don’t see the most
See that I, believe in ghosts
If that makes me crazy, then I am
Cuz I believe.. ohh, I believe..

There are more than angels watching
Over me.. I believe.. ohh, I believe.

Every now and then
Soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you, come back again..
And I believe…


Dan Truman’s Latest Release

“O My Father” – Dan & Chad Truman featuring Alex Boye’

Video link:

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,

International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author: ”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

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Please Meet One of the Members of Our Board – Dr. Lorraine Day


Lorraine Day


I want to make all of you familiar with those on our Board of Directors and our State and various Country directors around the world who work with us here at the International Coalition for Drug Awareness (ICFDA). This is something I should have been doing long before this rather than letting you search it out on your own. You will soon find introductory videos of each of our Board Members and area directors on our website at with a direct link at

The following video is a GREAT introduction for my dear friend of many years now, Dr. Lorraine Day who has long served on our Board of Directors.

Our main connection was our personal battles with cancer. Although we did not know one another at the time we were struggling, we both got rid of our cancers the same way. The only difference was that I did use some of the old Indian herbs as well as going on a slightly stricter diet of ONLY fruit, nuts, and veggies for seven years. In no time I never felt better nor had so much energy!

She lives what she preaches! You will never find Lorraine in her home or anywhere else it seems, without a glass of water in her hand. She is a firm believer in hydration and lives those beliefs. And her healthy living definitely pays off! When I first met her and before we were introduced, I was sure the person in front of me was her daughter and that she would be taking me to her mother. I knew how old Lorraine was at the time, but the woman in front of me had to be at least 20 years younger than that! For additional information on Dr. Day, her own personal website is If you know anyone with cancer be sure to share this video with them as this is one of Dr. Day’s main issues she deals with.

I have often told my daughter that I need to hang a picture of Dr. Day in my home as a constant reminder to me of all the laws of health she reminds us about in this video. Thank you Lorraine for all you do for so many and thank you for your support in this cause of the terrible mass drugging of humanity with so many deadly antidepressants and other deadly prescription drugs!

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author: “Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

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ANTIDEPRESSANT: Caught on Video – Student Threatens to Kill Professor

ANTIDEPRESSANT: Caught on Video – Student Threatens to Kill Professor

Posted by: “Ann Blake-Tracy”

Wed Apr 18, 2012 9:34 pm (PDT)



Jonatha Carr


ANTIDEPRESSANT-INDUCED MANIC RAGE: View firsthand the rage, cursing, & violence that comes from these medications to produce shootings like Columbine, Red Lake & Virginia Tech. See to understand how similar these so called antidepressants are to PCP & see for 1000’s more cases like this.
As you view this case firsthand remember just how many people worldwide are “locked & loaded” on these medications! First is a news report on this incident:

Girl goes nuts on her antidepressant and makes viral news

Crazy fau girl loses it and gets on news. Goes viral.

Mother of Black FAU Student Jonatha Carr want her Expulsion Reversed so she can Graduate

Here are full uncut videos of this incident.

Video #1: Show details 3DiYDL2I6Vdi8&v=iYDL2I6Vdi8&gl=US

Video #2:

Below are two articles discussing this young woman’s long history of being medicated off & on with antidepressants, but now currently taking her antidepressant. Luckily a student in her class used his cell to video her manic outburst so we have two YouTube video accounts plus a news reports covering this outburst where she threatens to kill the teacher & a fellow student. Had she had a gun this would have been another school shooting. You can see most of this firsthand as it begins.

The worst of it comes as the police arrive & it takes three officers & others to hold her down as she kicks & punches the police car, officers, etc. They tazered her three times which is something the NEEDS TO STOP! The police are killing people using tazers on those having toxic reactions to these serotonergic medications! We have long known that electric shock treatments mixed with the medications can produce Serotonin Syndrome as ECT too increases serotonin. Serotonin Syndrome can result in multiple organ failure as this same area of Florida witnessed a few years ago when Anna Nicole Smith’s young son Daniel died in her hospital room on multiple serotonergic medications while visiting his new baby sister.

And to see 1000’s more similar cases go to our database of cases posted at

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author: Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

About the Author: Ann Blake Tracy is the author of PROZAC: PANACEA OR PANDORA? –OUR SEROTONIN NIGHTMARE!, and the director of the International Coalition For Drug Awareness []. She has testified before the FDA and has testified as an expert in legal cases involving serotonergic medications since 1992.

BOOK: Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare! Anything you ever wanted to know about antidepressants is there along with everything drug companies hope you never find out about these drugs. SAFE WITHDRAWAL CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!” on how to safely withdraw from antidepressants & most psychiatric medications is saving lives! Both available at


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“Used your method of weaning off of SSRI’s and applied it to Ambien. Took 6 months but had been on 15 mg for years so what was another 6 months. I have been sleeping without it for 2 weeks and it is the first time I have been able to sleep drug free for 15 years. What a relief to be able to lay down and sleep when I need or want to. Ambien may be necessary for people at times but doctors giving a months worth of it at a time with unlimited refills is a prescription for disaster. It is so damn easy to become dependent on. Thanks for your council Ann.”… Mark Hill


FAU student Jonatha Carr’s family tells their side of the story
April 16, 2012
By Rachel Chapnick

Jonatha Carr, 24, was diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder when she was 13 years old. Her outburst in GS120 on March 20 landed on YouTube, Reddit, Twitter and Facebook. Photo courtesy of Jonathan Carr.

Jonatha Carr, a 24-year-old FAU student, was two courses shy of graduation when she suffered a nervous breakdown and threatened to kill her professor and classmates.
The university suspended Carr for at least the semester following her outburst on March 20. Carr’s family said her rant was because she suffers from bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. The family isn’t convinced FAU handled the situation properly. Since then, Joyce and Nicole Carr say the family has been receiving death threats from strangers and they’re worried about Carr’s safety, as well as her future.
Carr has suffered from mental breakdowns before, three of which required her to be Baker Acted. Carr found out she was mentally ill when she was 13, according to her mother and sister. They say mental disorders run in the family. Carr’s grandmother was bipolar, and her aunt and sister also battle the condition.
Carr’s antidepressant medication masks her disorders and lets her be an active member in FAU’s community. She wanted to be a doctor but a nervous breakdown in 2009 ended her dream. Psychiatric specialists told Carr she couldn’t go through residency, since she needed sleep for her mental disabilities, according to Joyce and Nicole Carr.
When that didn’t work out, Carr decided to be a chemistry teacher. With a 3.8 GPA, her family says she was on her way, until she asked her professor, “How does evolution kill black people?”
“The professor had made a comment. ‘Evolution is final, it’s not up for discussion,’” Joyce Carr said. According to her family, Carr, who is a creationist, had a problem with her evolution class after the comment.
Evolution professor Stephen Kajiura said he doesn’t recall saying this. “She may have misinterpreted me,” Kajiura said. “You can’t ever say anything is absolute and final. We are biologists. We deal in statistics and probability.”
He also claims the class had not yet discussed evolution versus creationism.
An anonymous creationist in the class backed this up. “He doesn’t stop us from asking questions, but he’ll be prepared to argue from what he believes. Otherwise he wouldn’t be teaching the subject,” the student said.
The week before her outburst, Joyce Carr and her daughter grabbed lunch. Carr complained about Kajiura’s class. She had been enrolled in the class once before, but dropped it when her grandmother died. Her mother recommended she drop it again, but Carr needed it to graduate.
Once Carr’s breakdown began, the family thinks Kajiura should have realized something was wrong. “If someone would have acted differently, I wish it would have been the professor,” Joyce Carr said.
Kajiura said he realized the student was having a mental breakdown. “It was clearly a mental issue, which is why I wanted to not confront her,” he said. According to Kajiura, his teaching assistant had left to call police, so he wanted to keep Carr calm.
Joyce Carr mentioned evolution wasn’t the problem, it’s what Kajiura said about it. “When you say it’s been proven, she wanted to challenge it,” she said.
Nicole Carr said her sister researched how the theory of evolution was used to justify the Holocaust. She thinks that’s what led to her question. “She remembers what she said, but she says ‘I couldn’t control it,’” Joyce Carr said.
They say Carr couldn’t control her racist comments because of her condition. “When my sister is in her state, that’s where she goes,” Nicole Carr said.
They insist, however, Carr is not racist. “When she’s at home, her slurs were against black people,” Joyce Carr said “She’s called my mom names, a black b-i-t-c-h, a nigger,” Nicole Carr said.
“When you go in your manic phase, you go off. It may be sex, it may be race, it may be religion,” Nicole Carr said. “On a regular basis she wouldn’t say things like this.”
According to both women, this breakdown was Carr’s worst. “Have I seen it like that? No,” Joyce Carr said.
Nicole Carr, who says her sister has hit her and sworn at her during past breakdowns, agreed, “I hadn’t seen it with that much depth.”
Carr was released on March 23, three days after the breakdown. “We’re having a hard time having her not want to search everything being written about her,” Joyce Carr said.
Nicole added, “We’re trying to get her to watch TV, watch movies, but she’s been reading all this stuff.”
Carr’s family is also worried about the students. “Jonatha has a mental illness. It’s not their fault,” Joyce Carr said.
“We’re in an age when kids pull out their video cameras and their cell phones. It’s like the norm. […] As much as I don’t like [the video] out there, had it not been for it, I would have never known what went on in that classroom.”
The family says Jonatha will not try to receive secondary degrees from FAU. Still, they want to bring in a specialist to train students and faculty on how to deal with students with mental disorders.

Jonatha Carr, FAU Student Who Threatened to Kill Teacher, Got Tasered Three Times, Hit a Cop, and Said Really Racist Stuff, Police Say

By Rich Abdill Thu., Mar. 22 2012 at 4:49 PM

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Categories: Crime, WTF

Update, 3/30: Carr’s family has commented about her history of mental illness.

The Pulp just got hold of the police report in the case of Jonatha Carr, a 24-year-old Florida Atlantic University student who inexplicably started screaming during a biology class Tuesday. Her tirade, in which she threatened to kill the teacher and hit another man in the forehead, was captured on video. In it, you can see her stomping around the classroom yelling things like “I will kill the fuck out of you” before she’s eventually carted out of the room.

After that, according to the report, it got way, way worse.

The first time of three instances in which police used a Taser on Carr was while they were first attempting to apprehend her outside the classroom. Then, on the way to the police station, the report says, “Carr started screaming to let her out and take the handcuffs off of her and kicking the roof of the vehicle, the door and the windows.”

They ultimately decided to bypass processing her at the police station and take her directly to South County Mental Health Center. Before they left, they attempted to restrain her legs. She wouldn’t let them and got hit with the Taser again. She was tasered a third time when she “refused to stop swinging back and forth” in the police car.

When they finally got to South County, Carr refused to get out of the car and had to be carried in. Inside, she refused to walk to a room and was carried there too. There, police say, she fought with the staff and had to be held down by three police officers and medical staff.

On the rest, the report can really speak for itself — it’s not clear what set off Carr, but police say she required multiple officers to restrain her behavior every step of the way. The report’s at the bottom, but here are the big items, in the words of FAU Police Officer William Hernandez:

All of a sudden she just started to yell at the instructor and at the entire class saying things like “white people suck, Jewish people who think this world is theirs which it’s not, I will fucking kill you at the Holocaust events all over the world.
“Evolution kills. Haven’t thought about Asians yet.” Carr kept going on and on about killing people.
Upon my arrival I observed a black female lying face down in the grass area just south of building #2, I also observed two white males holding her down until I arrived. I then held her down with my hands on both of her wrists and I calmly asked her to calm down and she refused. Sergeant Boldin and I attempted to place her in a sitting position at which time she started punching me with a closed fist on my chest.
Once the handcuffs were placed on her wrist, she started kicking and calling everyone “sand niggers”, “white niggers” and “black niggers”. She also stated that she will “kill everyone white people sucks”.
Carr aggressively resisted by lying on the ground and stiffening her body, Sergeant Boldin, Officer Cowart, Corporal Stewart and I had to lift her and place her inside the vehicle. She was not injured at this stage.
While placing her in the vehicle, she started kicking and screaming, then stiffened her body and refused to put her legs inside, I then attempted to grab her legs and place them inside but she kicked me on my right thigh.
She increasingly became more uncontrollable. At this point she gave me no choice but to tase her, after I advised her I would, I then initiated a drive stun on her left thigh at approximately 12:20:11 for approximately 3 seconds, she then placed her legs inside the vehicle.

And here’s the report:

Jonatha Carr Police Report

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Drug Awareness Big News – What We Have Been Putting Together For You!!!!


HISTORY/BACKGROUND: Most of you know that since 1990 I have been researching serotonin & antidepressants & gathering information from the media & court cases on these drugs. You also know that I began gathering cases involving these drugs at the same time. At a local meeting in Salt Lake City of those concerned about Prozac people begged me to become the local director for the Prozac Survivor’s Support Group. I graciously declined explaining that I did not see how I could spend the time researching & writing my book about antidepressants & do that as well. My world turned upside down the following day when the 20 year old son of a local attorney jumped to his death outside my downtown office window. His dying words to the responding officers included the fact that he was on Prozac. That was the day I agreed to become the Utah director for the Prozac Survivor’s Support Group. In September of that year I testified before the first FDA hearing on Prozac & now am the only one who has attended every FDA hearing on SSRI antidepressants ever held.

When Rosie Meysenberg & I met in 1996 we joined forces in gathering & documenting these cases. We began with gathering a group of antidepressant cases of women who were committing very violent murders & murder/suicides – something that stood out in society as a rarity. Rosie & I continued this effort gathering cases of murder/suicide, parents killing children, children killing parents, school shootings, workplace violence, road rage, air rage, False Accusations of Sexual Abuse, soldiers committing suicide, murder & murder/suicides, female school teachers seducing male students, etc. A decade later Rosie & her husband Gene paid me a visit to gather and consolidate as many cases as possible gathered over the years to began putting together a searchable database of these cases to post on the internet. That database is now located at & has been the basis for two major medical research studies so far. Sadly Rosie left us a week ago to join those whose battle we have been fighting for two decades before getting a chance to see in action what she knew we were working on.

Then in 1997 Mark Miller, who had recently lost his 13 year old only son, Matt, to a Zoloft-induced suicide, after only one week on the drug, joined Rosie & I to put up our website at . He did a marvelously impressive job taking Drug Awareness quickly to the top of the charts on the net as so many families searched for answers as to what had happened in their families! This was the humble beginnings of the International Coalition for Drug Awareness. Over the years many have joined us in this battle for truth about antidepressants & their impact upon our society.

Also over the years everyone seemed to expect me to gather the media coverage in the newspapers, magazines & television. It seemed that I quickly became the antidepressant library for the planet documenting the peddling of these drugs to our world. That is what we are opening up now to make available to everyone. Since 1991 I have been doing radio & television shows & newspaper & magazine articles/interviews on the SSRI antidepressants. I have lost track of just how many, but they are all safely tucked away to document this antidepressant age & stand as a witness of all that has happened as a result. We are pulling them all out, dusting off the cobwebs & making them available to our members. More & more will be added each & every month.

DRUG AWARENESS MEMORIAL: We also want you to be aware of the memorial area we made available a few years ago. This is for you to place videos or just pictures of your loved one lost to these deadly antidepressant drugs. If you have not yet put together a video collage of your loved one we do have professionals who will do so for you at a discount so that you too may post your own video. I encourage you to go to the memorial area of our website to see how to go about this. Please allow people to see how much our world has lost with the loss of your loved one – their talents & contributions they would have offered to our world that we will now never see because of these drugs. You understand & feel that loss more than anyone because you were blessed to know them so well. Make the world see what you saw in them so that they can understand too what all was lost when we lost them! I refuse to allow them to remain numbers! I want to world to see them for who they were.  Memorial

 We are going to offer three membership packages with perks for access to this information & additional educational opportunities. Of course as a member your dues support the many causes and projects of Drug Awareness:

Membership Package #1 SILVER: You receive instant online access to 17 audio/radio shows by Ann Blake-Tracy (Well over $100 worth  of audios with many more to come soon!), instant access to the 1/2 hour long withdrawal CD by Ann Blake-Tracy PLUS FOR THE FIRST 100 WHO SIGN UP THEY WILL RECEIVE: a MP3 download of the CD to share with others PLUS another download of Ann Blake-Tracy’s most favorite of lectures over the past 20 years: a dynamic delivery of information presented to a group of 2000 gathered for a Young Living Oils Convention. Ann Blake-Tracy received a standing ovation for this lecture.

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Ann Blake-Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author: *”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare –
The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon
Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

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Posted by: “Ann Blake-Tracy”

Mon Mar 12, 2012 11:39 pm (PDT)


Okay things are beginning to come out about this case … SO LET’S LOOK AT THEM….

#1 Very significant is that two years ago this soldier suffered Traumatic Brain Injury. Anyone who has had a brain injury should NEVER be given an antidepressant according to neurologist, Dr. Jay Seastrunk. The brain is far more vulnerable to seizure activity after such an injury and taking a stimulant (An ANTI-depressant or the opposite of a depressant IS A STIMULANT!). Remember that a manic psychosis is a continuous series of seizures in the brain which is basically what REM Sleep is also. (Keep that in mind as you read below about REM sleep.)

#2 In this article Dr. Johnathan Shay describes what he calls Berserk: “Berserkers … have this curious quality of icy and flaming rage; all they want to do is destroy, they want nothing to get in the way of their unmediated destruction and killing, and they are truly insensitive to pain. They are totally beyond the society of their own military forces and disconnected from them.”

“It’s a painful and destructive thing and usually fatal for the soldier… The term “berserk” is an Old Norse word describing the frenzied trance in which some warriors fought.”

Now what he has just described as “berserkness” is what is a perfect description of “homicidal ideation” – a compulsion to kill – continuous thoughts of killing and continuous thoughts of methods of killing – coupled with rage. Both rage & homicidal ideation are listed side effects of antidepressants which are prescribed at a shocking rate to our military! The main drug anyone would think of producing this type of reaction is PCP (Angel Dust) & antidepressants are the most similar drugs in action to PCP the world has ever seen!!

#3 Another quote from this article states: “And sleep is unmistakably the fuel for the frontal lobes of the brain, and when you’re out of gas in the frontal lobe you become a moral moron — a catastrophe with no moral restraint.” Combat stress, or PTSD in its most virulent form, tends to disrupt sleep.”

PTSD in its most virulent form does disrupt sleep but what disrupts sleep even more is antidepressants. One of the first things noted about the first SSRI antidepressant on the market, Prozac, was how it repressed REM Sleep. Now for those of you who have read my book, Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare, know after reading the chapter on the REM Sleep Behavior Disorder (RBD) that antidepressants cause this disorder where you act out nightmares. More recent research demonstrates that 86% of those being diagnosed with RBD are currently taking an antidepressant even though it has mainly been known as a drug withdrawal state. So those in withdrawal have an even greater chance of going into this sleepwalk nightmare we call RBD!

Close friends of mine had a son leave for Iraq a couple of years ago. The young man called his father, a social worker, to ask about taking an antidepressant. Why? Because he was told by Army personnel that he would need one in order to go to Iraq! Knowing a little about my work after learning a close friend of his was stabbed, along with his mother & sister, by their father, who then shot himself after only five days on Zoloft, he was concerned about antidepressants. A veteran himself, his father’s response was level headed. He told his son that if he ever needed to have his thoughts together & control over his actions & NOT be under the influence of a mind altering drug it would be while carrying a gun & facing what he would in Iraq.

Now what was most alarming to me was that so much pressure had been put on this young man by his superiors to take these drugs that even after all he had witnessed in his own personal life they had pushed him to the point that he would even feel like he needed to ask his father this question!!! Clearly our troops are being pressured into taking these drugs & have been drugged out of their minds for many years now – even to the point of this is the first war in which we are losing more troops to suicide than combat!!

I urge you to share this information with local reporters & everyone you know as a warning of the most deadly aspects of these drugs we mistakenly call “antidepressants”! Send them to read my FDA presentations how how these drugs can produce such violence at (located just under the picture of my book on the right side) & to our database of cases like this one at so they can see the evidence that does exist & is presented in courtrooms in these cases. None of this should remain hidden from the public because this is a public safety issue!!!

Ann Blake-Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author: “Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare –
The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon
Us & Our World” & CD on Safe Withdrawal “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”


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We have lost one of our most valient warriors Rosie Meysenberg

Posted by: “Ann Blake-Tracy”

I certainly did not expect to be needing to contact you so soon, but it is with deepest regret this evening that I come to inform you that early this morning we lost one of the most valiant warriors in this battle for truth about the dangers of antidepressants. My dear friend & “right hand man” for 15 plus years & our Texas Director for ICFDA, Rosie Meysenberg, left this earth to join those whose battle we have been fighting for so long. If I know Rosie she will rally those there to join with us here to intensify our efforts to end this worldwide antidepressant holocaust as she & I so often called it.Together we worked these many years to gather as many cases as possible to form the database located at I told her I wanted as many cases documented as possible because I never wanted even one death to go unnoticed. So while I contacted families & reporters & law enforcement personnel to educate them & ask them if these drugs were involved in each tragedy, Rosie & her husband Gene combined their skills to put together this marvelous searchable database of cases so that others could see the end result for these people after using antidepressants.

The news of Rosie’s passing that came this morning & tells you where you can go to leave your condolences is below:

A new journal entry titled Rosie was posted on Rosie’s CaringBridge website at 8:27 AM, CST on March 8, 2012.

Read the latest update and show your support at:

Viewing CaringBridge on Your Mobile Phone?
Read the latest update on ( Don’t forget to sign the guestbook!

Please leave your condolences as I know it would be a great comfort to Rosie’s family to see the impact of her sacrifices upon each of your lives. My comment & final goodby is below:

“I knew I did not want to open the notice this morning that gave me the news from Gene that you had left us! Somehow for the past day or so I knew this news was coming.

“Am I selfish in wanting to keep you here? YES! I don’t know what I am going to do without you!

“But now you are there with all those whose battle we have fought together for the past two decades. Fill them in, as I know you will, on all we have worked to do in their behalf to insure their deaths were not in vain … that we have worked hard to make sure their experiences with these deadly antidepressants are serving as a lesson to others & saving lives. Please assure them for me that I will find a way to carry on without you although I don’t know how at this point. I do know how difficult it will be to go on without you as closely as we have worked all these years. Few others understand fully all the adverse effects of antidepressants the way you did making it so much easier to share with you about all of these cases. Now who do I call to share with?

“But I know that you know me well enough to know I will carry this work on & continue to document these tragedies as you & I did together for so many years. I know that is what you would want because you would do the same for me if it were me who had gone before you! You just watch from there when you get a chance Rosie. I will make sure you are a part of it too just like when you could not make it back for the second FDA hearing when they put the Black Box warning on antidepressants for suicide. Remember how excited you were that I called you on my cell & put you on speaker so that you could be in that room with me to hear that monumentous FDA decision? Don’t worry Rosie … I will find a way again to make sure you do not miss out on hearing the final win in this battle for truth we have fought together. We will get special permission from Our Father in Heaven for you to check in occasionally & you will see that WE WILL WIN! Our work will not be in vain! It WILL succeed in opening the eyes of the world & it WILL continue to save many lives. I promise you that! And through this the world will see what a blessing you were to all of mankind . . . I love you Rosie & will always miss you!

“May your wonderful family be blessed at this time with peace & comfort knowing full well how honorably you fulfilled your mission in life & how much they all meant to you. May the legacy you left for them always be a perfect example to them of how to conduct their own lives.

“Bye for now Rosie . . .”

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Withdrawal can often be more dangerous than continuing on a medication. It is important to withdraw extremely slowly from these drugs, usually over a period of a year or more, under the supervision of a qualified specialist. Withdrawal is sometimes more severe than the original …

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Rosie and

For all of you who have appreciated I would encourage you to post a quick thank you note for Rosie Meysenberg, our Texas director for the International Coalition for Drug Awareness.  Since the mid 90’s Rosie & I have worked together in gathering cases involving SSRI antidepressants. Those early stories formed the beginning of She & her husband, Gene, put together the SSRIstories website, an incredible searchable database of these cases & then Rosie began to add more and more cases as the search engines became more and more available to us on the internet for news articles. Finally reaching a total of almost 5000 cases. Two major medical articles have already been written with this database as the catalyst.

Now Rosie is battling cancer & for the last two weeks Hospice has been there assisting she & her husband with her care. She is asking for our prayers. Please join us in praying for her. And please send her a thank you for the great work she has done for us all – dedicating her life to documenting these cases for us at great sacrifice on her part.

The following is the link to her Caring Bridges page where you can leave a message:

And the following is the latest update from her sister-in-law:

A word about Rosie
I know that all of you who have been so gracious to write in Rosie’s guestbook, also are probably wondering how she is doing. Hospice has been helping them for the last couple weeks. Rosie is bedridden and very weak. Gene prints all of your messages and reads them to her so keep them coming. Mostly she wants and needs your prayers. We all know and love Rosie so lets be there for her. Thank you so much.

Rosie’s sister-in-law,
Joyce Meysenburg

Ann Blake-Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness &
Author: *”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare –
The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon
Us & Our World”* & Withdrawal CD *”Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

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Newsletter Posted by: “Ann Blake-Tracy”

Wed Feb 29, 2012 4:44 pm (PST)

It has been a very long time – far too long – since we have sent out newsletters from our Drugawareness site. I am starting them back up again & want to update you on all that is happening. Over the past two weeks I have had three experiences that have made me realize that no matter how overwhelmed I have been over the past couple of years, I MUST find the energy and means by which I can step up the pace of educating the world about antidepressants because I know what is happening in my life is happening in everyone else’s lives as well because antidepressants are EVERYWHERE!!

Besides the school shooting that just happened in Ohio with every earmark of yet another antidepressant induced school shooting, last night a friend called to let me know that her cousin was the teen boy who walked in front of a train in my old neighborhood last week. The grandmother of this boy has now lost two of her grandchildren in a violent suicide induced by antidepressants!!! The first was a teen girl who shot herself about a decade ago. And her son was sent to prison because of false accusations of abuse made by someone on these meds. THAT IS ONE FAMILY!!!!!

Then last week a good friend I have known for 20 years & who has helped set me up for lectures and radio shows to spread the word about antidepressants called to let me know that his 32 year old niece on antidepressants had just committed suicide leaving her husband and three children behind.

Then two weeks ago a friend I have had for 30 years called to let me know that her daughter had given her son-in-law ONE pill of Zoloft after which he made several serious suicide attempts & was now in a psych ward.

Now if I am being hit with this many tragedies this close to me in my life when I know what I know about these drugs, how bad is has it become in everyone else’s lives????!!!!!

So we are gearing up the website to offer more & more info.

We welcome all of you back to our Drugawareness family!!!
You can find us on Facebook under the International Coalition for Drug Awareness. And you can find me on Facebook at Ann Blake Tracy where we have been sharing MUCH new information. Please come and friend us there!

Our Texas Director, Rosie Meysenburg, & I have worked very hard for many years to gather as many antidepressant-induced cases of violence, suicide & other adverse reactions. And Rosie has put all of these plus many more she has gathered from the internet into an incredible database which you can search in so many different ways! You can search by patient name, by state, by what happened (school shooting, teacher seducing students, suicides, child cases, etc.) The website for that is located at

We are also gathering your stories on the site. There will be a spot for you to enter yours as well.

We are preparing a membership site as well with several ways of learning more and more about these drugs & how to educate others to prevent these tragedies.

I also have new DVDs available on several subjects:

1: On the subject of Bipolar induced by the use of antidepressants

2: Antidepressants & Mind Control

3. False Memory Syndrome caused by antidepressants

4. The Effects of Antidepressants Upon Spirituality

5. The REM Sleep Behavior Disorder (RBD) (We now know that 86% diagnosed with RBD are taking antidepressants!!!)

I also just learned Leslie Demeniuk’s antidepressant-induced nightmare is going to be on the Bio Channel Friday evening at 8:00 PM Eastern Time. It is a program called Women Behind Bars. Leslie shot her twin 4 year old boys while in a psychosis produced from going from Zoloft to Paxil. Her fiance, Anthony Ortiz, was one of our Drugawareness group who came to Houston from Florida for the press conference we had on the courthouse steps during Andrea Yate’s second case. Leslie’s case is found on our SSRIstories database of cases at

So that you have some background as you watch this program: Leslie was suffering the hypoglycemic reaction that comes from the use of antidepressants coupled with the stronger impact upon blood sugar brought on by the shock to the body of abrupt changes in dose of an antidepressant. This reaction brings on overwhelming cravings for either alcohol or sweets or both. She was therefore drunk also at the time of the shooting. This alcohol craving was the first reaction to Prozac that caught my attention & caused me to begin researching the SSRI antidepressants. I was shocked to see those who had never touched alcohol in their lives become alcoholic almost overnight on these antidepressants!

Of course the cases never end. Just last week a pharmacist in Tampa, FL drowned her baby while on antidepressants. We have just had another school shooting which I am sure involved the drugs & not far from there a young father shot & killed his wife & three children. In Utah last night I learned a friend’s teen cousin walked in front of a train in my old neighborhood to commit suicide after several months on antidepressants. Amazing that as hard as you try & as much evidence as there is when there is so much $$$$$ being made the truth just does not make it out – unless we do it ourselves to save those we love!!!

Ann Blake-Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness, &
Author of Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? Our Serotonin Nightmare & Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!

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5/2/2002 – Is Ritalin Overprescribed?

Okay, this is fast and easy….
Do you think Ritalin is overprescribed?
Click on this link and then click on ‘live vote’ button.
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