1991 FDA Antidepressant Hearing: Suicide & Suicide Attempt by Pharmacist Maria Malakoff

Maria Malakoff

Maria warned back in 1991 that the day would come that every family in America would be affected by antidepressants if the FDA did not issue warnings. Tragically her statement has proved prophetic!

I would like to introduce you to my dear friend Maria Malakoff. Everyone needs to hear her testimony. Maria and her husband Gary were both pharmacists. Both were placed on Prozac about the same time for different reasons. Maria first attempted suicide on Prozac, stopped the drug, and began warning Gary of the dangers. He thought he was fine until one day out of the blue he stood in front of her and their four children while they were watching TV, and shot himself. Their full story can be found in the book Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? available at www.drugawareness.org

Hear Maria’s testimony before the 1991 FDA panel on Prozac and suicide here: https://youtu.be/A3XiFW9VWYc

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,

International Coalition for Drug Awareness

www.drugawareness.org & http://ssristories.drugawareness.org
Author: ”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

WITHDRAWAL WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

WITHDRAWAL HELP: You can find the hour and a half long CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here: http://store.drugawareness.org/ And if you need additional consultations with Ann Blake-Tracy, you can book one at www.drugawareness.org or sign up for one of the memberships in the International Coalition for Drug Awareness which includes free consultations as one of the benefits of that particular membership plan. For only a $30 membership for one month you can even get 30 days of access to the withdrawal CD with tips on rebuilding after the meds, all six of my DVDs, hundreds of radio interviews, lectures, TV interviews I have done over the years PLUS access to my book on antidepressants (500 plus pages) with more information than you will find anywhere else (that is only $5 more than the book alone would cost) at www.drugawareness.org. (Definitely the best option to save outrageous postage charges for those out of the country!)

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NY Pharmacist Shoots Wife, 2 Sons and Self

NY State Police Car

NY Pharmacist Kills Wife & Sons Before Killing Himself

 Abbas Lodhi had been a pharmacist for 2 1/2 decades, was happy, had just sold his business to spend more time with his children, he was doing well financially, had just sold his home as well and was planning on opening a new pharmacy when he committed this triple murder/suicide.

People having adverse reactions to antidepressants think everyone around them are “mentally ill” and need to be medicated. This man owned a pharmacy with easy access to meds and associated with docs who hand them out like candy – I say that because the large majority of docs prescribe these deadly drugs this way. With that in mind I do hope they check his meds. (See original articles below)

The first pharmacy to pull the first new designer SSRI antidepressant off their shelves was in Florida after one of the pharmacists, the wife, attempted suicide while on Prozac. But the other pharmacist, her husband, remained on the drug thinking he was okay in spite of her warnings, until he walked in the TV room one day and shot himself in front of his wife and children! That was Maria and Gary Malicoff in Hialeah, Florida.

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness
www.drugawareness.org & http://ssristories.drugawareness.org
Author: *”Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare – The Complete Truth of the Full Impact of Antidepressants Upon Us & Our World” & Withdrawal CD “Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!”

WITHDRAWAL WARNING: In sharing this information about adverse reactions to antidepressants I always recommend that you also give reference to my CD on safe withdrawal, Help! I Can’t Get Off My Antidepressant!, so that we do not have more people dropping off these drugs too quickly – a move which I have warned from the beginning can be even more dangerous than staying on the drugs!

The FDA also now warns that any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant can produce suicide, hostility or psychosis. These reactions can either come on very rapidly or even be delayed for months depending upon the adverse effects upon sleep patterns when the withdrawal is rapid! You can find the hour and a half long CD on safe and effective withdrawal helps here: http://store.drugawareness.org/

Original articles: http://www.lohud.com/article/BK/20131124/NEWS01/311230027/Shocked-business-neighbors-say-pharmacist-seemed-happy


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Lori Moretti
my dog was given the wrong prescription and died in four days, DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY INFO ON SEROTONIN SYNDROME, THIS is what the pharmacist said when I told her his symptoms, she thought he was experiencing serotonin syndrome like a human would, he needed a reversal drug, we gave it to him but two day later, after i cried to the vet at VCA to please give it to him. he said your stressed i said im trying to save his life. any info or personal experinces. please…

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My Experience with Zoloft

“While on theses meds, I drove off the highway from the effects of Seroquel.“


My name if Regina Jones. I am a 55 year old white female.

I started taking Zoloft in 1995 when my husband got ill. He was diagnosed with Major Depression, which had affected me.

My Psychiatrist first prescribed Prozac. I was on it for about 4-5 months, with no side effects. My doctor took me off the drug because of the fear of the side effects of
Prozac that hit the news. He started me on Paxil, a fairly new drug. I started to have blood sugar problems. I went to the pharmacy and asked for the information sheet on Paxil. The Pharmacist was hesitant. He thought I would not be able to understand the information. He didn’t know that I had worked in a hospital for 15 years and understood medical terminology quite well.

Near the end of the information, in very small print, it said that a rare side effect was Diabetes. I told my doctor and he took me off Paxil and started me on Zoloft.

My husband’s depression lasted over two years. I remained on Zoloft.

He was forced into retirement at age 47, with 30 years with the telephone company. The same year his mother died.

He retired, and we moved. In those 2 1/2 years, my husband was on 18 different meds.
Within a month after moving, I noticed that something was very wrong with him, but his therapist and Psychiatrist did not believe me.

Nine months later after a numerous list of events regarding my husband, he became Psychotic. Our family doctor recognized Bipolar Disorder in my husband, as he said, “it took me 30 seconds.”

He has been on Depakote since 1999. His whole nature has changed. The doctors still don’t believe me. My husband is a stranger to me and it has broken our 26 year marriage apart.

I truly believe that my husband has become a totally different, non-functioning man, because of all the drugs he has been on.

Me, on the other hand, remained on Zoloft since 1995. After the breakup of our marriage in 2002, I collapsed. I was diagnosed with Adrenal Fatigue, PTSD, Hyperglycemic, Major Depression and Suicidal. My therapist had me committed to the hospital. I was seeing a Psychiatrist. I told him that I am very sensitive to all drugs and to please start me slowly on any new drugs. The doctors always know best! They want you at a “therapeutic level” almost immediately!

He started me on Effexor and Seroquel. While on theses meds, I drove off the highway from the effects of Seroquel. I don’t remember anything until I woke up in the hospital ER. I called my doctor and told him that I was not going to take Seroquel any longer. This upset him. As my body was adjusting to the higher levels of Effexor, I grew more agitated and irritable each day. One night I felt that I was going out of my mind, that I was losing control of my thought processes, which scared me, and I felt like pulling my hair out of my head. I called my doctor, screaming at him about this drug. He said to go off the drug. I did, but a week later, my therapist suggested that I go back in the hospital voluntarily. I did. My doctor in the hospital put me back on Zoloft and Xanax, because the two drugs agreed with my body. I was clearly depressed, but they didn’t want to wait for me to grieve all my losses for the previous 7 years. So one doctor was telling me that I needed ECT. He used intimidation to force me to sign the papers. Only because I was not on the previous drugs, I was not a zombie and able to discern what was best for me. I did not sign. My roommate did. She ended up in ICU and another patient stopped breathing and had to go to another hospital.

1) I was finally discharged. I reported the doctor and hospital to Patient’s Advocacy Rights. They have had an investigation going on since 10/02. I called that hospital an “ECT” farm because the patients end up there for ECT.

2) I went back to my Psychiatrist for follow-up, back on Zoloft and Xanax. He dismissed me as his patient. He told me that I was an abusive and dangerous patient. I did not report him, but I wrote him a letter of my thoughts about him and drugs.

3) My concern for my husband and myself is important now. My husband is so drug induced, he has become comfortable, following Dr.’s orders. I am aware that my long-term use of Zoloft and Xanax is frightening. My body is so dependent. I take 1 Zoloft (100 mg) in the AM and 1 Xanax (1 mg) at night. I now have Diabetes and take Glucophage 500 mg/2 at night and Starlix 120 mg/1 three times a day.

My sister and I believe in Alternative Medicine. We currently both work for Enzymatic Therapy, PhytoPharmica, and Integrative Therapeutics as Sales Reps.

She doesn’t take any prescription drugs. She uses herbal supplements.

I use herbal supplements carefully, and still trying to reduce slowly my prescription drugs. Hopefully soon, I’ll be able to take herbal supplements in place of prescription drugs.
Our boss is Bipolar. She is strictly on herbal supplements and functions quite well, no like my husband who gave up at age 50.

I also joined NAMI – Sacramento, CA for two years. I am a certified teacher and facilitator. The subject that I had trouble teaching was the lecture on drugs. We always tell the family to follow up with their doctors with any questions. We are not allowed to give any opinions. We are allowed to share our experiences. But I have not been able to teach anymore. I can’t teach anything that I don’t believe in.

I believe that there is a place for drugs for a short period only. If the MDs would join with the NDs, there could be a balance that is very beneficial to everyone. Our company has two NMDs, so our formulas are at a professional level.

Any questions, anytime, I am willing to share my experiences.

Go after the drug manufacturers!
My healthy 10 yr old dog died taking “Revolution.” I reported this incident also.

Regina Jones
13712 Endicot Circle
Magalia, CA 95954
530-873-3411 (phone and fax)

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Pharmacist Messed Up on Zoloft

“I developed insomnia and nightmares. When I would drift to sleep, I’d awaken to terrifying nightmares, that would leave me weak and shaking.”


I was having bouts of depression from work stresses and general work unhappiness, so my doctor put me on Zoloft. At first, I felt no immediate changes, but about 1 month into treatment, I began wanting to sleep all day. On my days off, I would wake up at 2pm, flop in the couch and nap the rest of the daylight hours away, wake up for an hour or so and back to bed. I would not leave my house, refused to see friends, refused to answer the phone, even quit going to the gym. My doctor decided the med was not working so he upped my dose to 100mg.

Wow!! That really messed me up. I then began suffering gaps in my memory, that started out tiny and insignificant, and grew to be huge and troublesome problems. At the height of this forgetfulness, I missed 3 house payments and 3 car payments!!!! I had never missed a payment in my life….I may have been a couple of days late on a couple of occasions, but never blatantly just missed!! I looked at my check book and could not tell that I had not made the payments. I was so confused and could not focus on anything for very long.

I also began having panic attacks and horrible sweating attacks. I would panic and break out in a horrible sweat….to the point that my hair and clothes would be soaked in a matter of a few minutes. I was especially intolerant of heat of any sort. I took a trip to the Caribbean and felt like clawing my skin off the entire trip, just to escape the heat. But people around me were wearing light sweaters!!! It was horrible.

Then I developed insomnia and nightmares. When I would drift to sleep, I’d awaken to terrifying nightmares, that would leave me weak and shaking.

I also started having strange heart palpitations and twinges of chest pain. Oh! and headaches that were unbearable.

I tapered myself off and immediately began having the most horrific dizzy spells that you can imagine. As long as I didn’t move my head, I was okay, but if I just slightly moved, the room would spin uncontrollably. So much so, that I found myself gripping the walls to stay upright. Then massive, deep sorrowful depression set in. I think I slept for the next 6 months, except when I was at work. I don’t know how I functioned at work, but I managed. During this Zoloft fiasco that lasted over 1 yr, I gained 10 lbs, developed that “fat neck syndrome” and managed to run off my boyfriend.

The sad part of all this is that I am a pharmacist!!!!

Not Lost Anymore



This is Survivor Story number 6.
Total number of stories in current database is 48


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Cough Syrup and SSRI Proves Fatal

“I don’t understand why OTC cough medications are not required to have [a warning] regarding SSRI medications.”


I need to share my frustration and disappointment with someone who might understand. 2 1/2 years ago, my 20-year-old son, Tom, died of malignant hyperthermia as the result of serotonin syndrome as the result of being on TWO SSRI medications plus having been given permission by a pharmacist to take a child’s dose of OTC cough syrup (due to a bad cold) at bedtime. We later found out the cough syrup became the 3rd serotonergic medication.

My son was a diagnosed schizophrenic but had been functioning quite while for almost 2 years. He was a full-time college student on the dean’s list, who worked part-time at UPS, and he was also taking guitar lessons. He owned his own car and transported himself around. He was also beginning to become more sociable. But then after taking a child’s dose of the OTC cough medicine two nights in a row, he collapsed at work. His temperature shot to 107 degrees and one by one all of his organs shut down, his blood stopped clotting, and sadly he passed away about 8 hours later. (The hospital emergency room did NOT give him the antidote for malignant hyperthermia.)

We have been through 2 attorneys including one that was recommended by Andy Vickery. Both decided not to continue with our medical malpractice suit. They stated that they were told by other psychiatrists that it is not out of the norm to have patients on more than one SSRI medicine, as along as they are closely monitored. They also stated that since he has been on the 2 Sari’s for over a year that it would be hard to prove that they caused my son’s death and as far as the pharmacist stating the small dose of OTC cough medicine would be okay, that would just be our word against his.

The last attorney also informed me that juries do not give out big awards to the parents of “adult” children (so basically they weren’t going to waste their time if they didn’t think it would turn out to be worth their time financially.) With all I have heard about the potential problems taking just one SSRI drug can cause, I find it hard to believe that it not considered “out of the norm” to have patients on more than one version of this type of drug. I also don’t understand why OTC cough medications have a warning about MAOI drugs but are not required to have one regarding SSRI medications.

Thanks for allowing me to vent my frustrations.




This is Survivor Story number 22.
Total number of stories in current database is 48

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Pharmacist Suspicious Antidepressant Caused Symptoms

“…often the negative information about medications is not available to us, at least not conveniently so.”

I’m a pharmacist. Along with the rest of the public, I thought SSRI’s were mostly harmless and very beneficial, and for some people they do seem to be. However, I have myself experienced some ill effects this year which I suspect are linked to SSRI’s. I had developed depression due to job stress, job changes, and personal losses during the past year. My symptoms were generally mild but persistent depression with occasional periods of intense sadness, fatigue, obsessive-compulsive eating, and social phobia. I discussed SSRI’s with my physician and we agreed that it was appropriate treatment. I began with Paxil. I did feel less depressed, sad, and moody. I had hope at last. Then, one month into my treatment I experienced a severe illness. I was sitting at my computer late one night and thus in a relaxed situation. I suddenly experienced an intense feeling of cold in the center of my chest which radiated outward in a circle throughout my chest, then up into my shoulders, and down my arms into my hands. I became dizzy, and despite feeling extremely cold, I broke out into a heavy sweat.

Being overweight with a strong family history of heart disease, I immediately suspected I was having a heart attack. I had nitroglycerin tablets handy since my parents both have them for existing heart disease, so I took them in the usual manner and had someone contact 911. I was taken to the emergency room, where an EKG and blood enzymes were normal indicating no heart attack. My blood pressure was, of course, low due to the nitroglycerin. They admitted me to the hospital, and due to family history performed a cardiac catheterization to check for arterial blockage. This test showed my arteries to all be clear, amazingly so given my family history and long-term obesity.
As I was being escorted out of the hospital after release, I had another episode beginning with the cold and followed by dizziness. They immediately took me back to my room, and tested my blood pressure, blood glucose, and EKG. All were normal. They had maintained my Paxil treatment during hospitalization. After leaving the hospital I discontinued the Paxil, and for the next month was symptom free. However, the depression returned. In time I also tried Prozac, Effexor XR, and Wellbutrin SR. Each time I had the same symptoms occur. Symptoms were a bit milder with Wellbutrin SR though I also experienced headaches and mild hand tremor while taking it. Several more visits to the ER resulted only in normal findings.
I am now off all SSRI’s and dealing with my minor depression and other symptoms through force of will and by giving into my sweet tooth. All I have is strong circumstantial evidence of the SSRI’s being the cause of my illness. I do have some residual side effects including an occasional feeling of dullness and lightheadedness in my forehead, and rarely just a bit of the cold feeling.

So, my question to you, is have you heard of these symptoms before in a patient treated with SSRI’s?

People look at pharmacists, and especially physicians like we know everything and our knowledge is complete and perfect. The public doesn’t realize that we learn from what we read, just as they do, and that often the negative information about medications is not available to us, at least not conveniently so. Physicians usually have only one course in medications during medical school and get much of their continuing information from drug company representatives who stick mostly to the positive effects. Also, it is becoming increasingly difficult to keep up with the information as the FDA continues to approve new drugs at an ever accelerating rate.

As a pharmacist, I try to counsel patients adequately on their medications so they know the risks as well as the benefits. However, they often don’t want to take time to listen, nor does a busy pharmacy allow adequate time for counseling. Thank you for your attention! I hope you can offer me some insight personally, and for my professional use.
Since you post messages on your board, I must regretfully not include my last name. Unfortunately, writing a letter like this is not good for one career in the health field.

Jim, R.Ph.


This is Survivor Story number 5.
Total number of stories in current database is 96

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My Side Effects from Prozac (Prescribed for Unipolor Depression)

“… more than 10 minutes passed and she whipped out her prescription pad…”



I’ve just visited your website and have taken advantage of the “email me with your story” area. Thought I should, anyway.

I was on Prozac for unipolar depression in 1994. I stayed on it only for 6 months and weaned myself off it. My brother-in-law is a pharmacist and so I was able to understand the correct way to get off this drug.

I went off it because of what I perceive to be side-effects. Granted, it did perhaps obscure my depression. It didn’t disappear but, it enabled me to stand back and re-evaluate how to tackle it. So in that light, not having a mind that was very negative, I was able to opt for alternative help and a different approach to my depression. Presently, it is very well under control and I’m more cognitive about it than I ever was pre-Prozac.

Having said that, I must report my perceived side-effects. After about 2 weeks on 20 milligrams once a day, I began to feel awfully hyper. I talked a blue streak at work and remember people getting up and sitting elsewhere during breaks. Also, I would just say whatever came into my mind without really evaluating it before speaking as most people do.. (or some, anyhow 🙂 Also, my eyes were weird. I had episodes when my eyes would kind of shake, if you will. Like it does when one watches a home movie and the video shakes. Except they were faster. This happened frequently. I would also salivate a lot, having to swallow often.

To my credit, I realized this was the drug. Also, what made me quite suspicious was the fact that after struggling with depression – rather realizing that was what was wrong with me for about 20 years of my life, I swallowed hard and sought help, insisting to my MD that I WAS actually depressed and that I NEED to see a shrink. I waited for that appointment for approximately 2 months. I went to see her. Upon arriving in her office and giving her a brief profile of myself – no more than 10 minutes passed and she whipped out her prescription pad and wrote me an order for Prozac. I was terribly suspicious. She wasn’t the slightest bit interested in listening to what I had to say or why I felt I should talk to her. That was my red flag.

There you have it.

Kathy Garner

Years 2000 and Prior

This is Survivor Story number 90.
Total number of stories in current database is 96

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