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ANN BLAKE-TRACY INTERVIEW ON RECENT CANADIAN SHOOTINGS & ANTIDEPRESSANT-INDUCED VIOLENCE

Canada is a country with very strict gun control laws yet this past month they have had two major shootings…the first shooting was on July 22.

So after that first shooting Canadian talk show host, Richard Syrett, interviewed me on the violence produced by antidepressants & other serotonergic medications & here is the link to that podcast:

http://conspiracy-unlimited.libsyn.com/103-prozac-killers

We no more than finished that show and posted it the following week when there was yet another shooting where four lost their lives, including two police officers.

Database of 1000’s of Antidepressant Tragedies

www.SSRIstories.net

Database of School Shootings

http://www.drugawareness.org/ssri-nightmares/school-shootings/

Serotonin: The Key to Human Violence

 

Following is the research I referred to in the interview on serotonin being the key to human violence & links to articles on both of these shootings with any reference to medication involvement…

1996 – Mutant Mice May Hold Key To Human Violence – An Excess Of Serotonin.

 

Original article 1st shooting:

http://wjla.com/news/nation-world/toronto-police-delving-into-life-of-gunman-in-mass-shooting

Toronto police delving into life of gunman in mass shooting

by Associated Press

Tuesday, July 24th 2018

Desirae Shapiro, 19, right, and her mother, Gina Shapiro, friends of 18-year-old Danforth shooting victim Reese Fallon, mourn after visiting a makeshift memorial, Monday, July 23, 2018, in Toronto, remembering the victims of the shooting on Sunday. (Mark Blinch/The Canadian Press via AP)

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Original article 2nd shooting:

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/canada-shooting-fredericton-4-deaths-police-say-live-updates-2018-08-10/

2 cops among 4 killed in eastern Canada shooting

AUG 10, 2018 8:36 AM EDT WORLD CBS/AP

TORONTO — A shooting in a small Canadian city early Friday left four people dead, including two police officers, under circumstances that were not yet explained but struck a nerve in a country that has been roiled in recent months by several instances of mass violence. People in Fredericton, the capital of New Brunswick in the eastern part of the country, said they heard as many as 20 gunshots following a confrontation that prompted police to initially cordon off a large section of the city with emergency vehicles and order residents to remain inside their homes and businesses.

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Finally, after a tense period of waiting, authorities disclosed the toll: Among the four killed were two officers, a rare case of police killed in the line of duty in Canada. Their names were not released.

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Man dead after intentionally crashing plane into his own home.

No big surprise. With previous domestic violence incidents I am sure he was court-ordered to get counseling and what do you get in counseling? Standard prescription is an antidepressant which increase serotonin. And what is serotonin? It is what LSD & PCP mimic to produce hallucinations. And according to a study done in 1996 at the University of Southern California they found that serotonin is the key to human violence. So once these drugs are added to the mix this is how you often settle disputes when you hit a toxic level! Hopefully an investigation into that aspect will be conducted.
It is hardly the first suicide or murder/suicide involving a plane. Remember the Germanwings co-pilot on antidepressants who flew 150 to their deaths when he took over the plane & flew it into the side of the Alps? He was switching antidepressants due to the drugs affecting his vision just like the elderly Russian immigrant who killed my good friend Don Thomas in the Family History Library shooting. The poor man had no idea how dangerous it can be to make any abrupt change in dose of an antidepressant, up or down.

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Suicidal SeaTac Employee Steals Plane & Crashes It

We have documented these suicide cases in airplanes for so long now! You can go to our database of cases at www.SSRIstories.Net to search for all the cases of suicide by plane. The connection to antidepressant drugs when a suicide involves a plane I can pretty much count on.
One example would be the case of the Germanwings co-pilot who flew a 150 people into the side of the Alps after taking over the plane. They said they found a mountain of antidepressants in his apartment. And then there was the EgyptAir pilot who took 200 people with him as that crashed into the sea. Although I don’t have documentation on that case I have always known there had to be an antidepressant involved in that Pilot’s case. The reason I say that is because he had voiced that he was depressed and just before this flight he paid a visit to a relative in Los Angeles who was a psychiatrist. Now can someone tell me if they are depressed and they go to see a relative who is a psychiatrist, do you really think they’re not going to walk out with mounds upon mounds of free samples of antidepressants?!
Below is a report  along with an audio conversation  between this man and the air traffic controller but you can listen to  by clicking the link  below … I thought he made an antidepressant connection quite clear when he said he was just a broken guy but then added that apparently he had a few screws loose that he didn’t realize he had until he did this! That is an adverse drug reaction that appears from out of nowhere and causes impulsive behavior which comes from elevated serotonin! Hopefully we will learn more over the weekend.

August 10, 2018 – A Plane Was Stolen…

…by an airline employee at Seattle-Tacoma international airport on Friday, August 10th, 2018. Fighter aircraft from Portland, Oregon were scrambled and pursued the prop aircraft. The aircraft crashed into an island off the Washington coast for currently unknown reasons.
You can listen to him on the following link explaining as I said before that he thinks he must have a few screws loose but he never realized it until he stole this plane & took off in it!

What is the side effect of suicidal ideation?

I don’t think most people understand what suicidal ideation means or homicidal ideation either, yet both are listed side effects to antidepressants. It is having obsessive & compulsive thoughts of methods of killing along with obsessive & compulsive thoughts of killing which can lead to suicidal or homicidal actions!
One fellow, who contacted me after hearing me on a national radio show several years ago said, “After taking Zoloft for only 3 days, I wanted to die more than I wanted a new Ferrari! But I didn’t want death for just me, I wanted it for everybody I knew! I wanted us to all get together and die together!”
The suicidal man’s conversation with the air traffic controller can be heard here…
https://youtu.be/-GzroZxwhJg
This is one of the many reasons I refuse to fly. Not only do you have very high amounts of air traffic controllers & flight attendants on  antidepressants, but you have Pilots, passengers, and you have additional reactions to the medications at that altitude because there’s less oxygen. And this is where Airline rage came from.

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Why No Negative News on Pharma?

EXACTLY TRUE!

Wow is this true!!!!! I have witnessed it firsthand for 2 1/2 decades.

Salt Lake Family History Library Shooting Link to German Wings Suicide Flight

The month before Columbine happened Salt Lake had a major shooting at the Salt Lake Family History Library, in which a good friend of mine, Don Thomas, lost his life. Don was a guard at the library who I had warned over & over about the extreme danger he was in working there  around so many on antidepressants. And yet it was not a patron, but a 70 year old Russian immigrant out for his regular morning walk, who shot & killed Don that day.
Unaware of the strong possibility of suffering the deadly drug withdrawal effect of REM Sleep Disorder, he had recently abruptly stopped his antidepressant for the same reason the German Wings co-pilot who flew 150 to their deaths in 2015. He did so by overtaking the plane & flying it into a mountainside in the Alps. He was changing his antidepressants because he too noticed the drugs were causing him to lose his eyesight.
But what did the Salt Lake media report about the shooting? They reported the man had suddenly become schizophrenic at age 70. The problem with that is that  schizophrenia generally shows up in the late teens/early 20’s. That is unless you get a proper diagnosis as Osama Bin Laden’s son, Omar, did when doctors diagnosed him with Antidepressant-induced Schizophrenia.

Silence for Sale

It had become so blatantly obvious their silence was for sale that long ago I told the head of the largest news station in Salt Lake City that the media has a responsibility to warn the public & I would do all in my power to insure they would be held accountable for the lives being lost due to their refusal to publicize the truth.

More Examples of the Supression of Truth

Back in the mid 90’s the Deseret News and Salt Lake Tribune, the two major newspapers in SLC, had a section called the “Citizen’s Section” which ran in both newspapers where citizens could contribute articles. Someone asked me to submit one and they absolutely loved it and wanted more. I gladly gave them more. After about three or four articles from me they suddenly discontinued that section of the newspaper.
They have become so bad since then about protecting their advertisers that they only occasionally will allow even my comments on articles to be published! I might add that the Desert News has been the only news media worldwide to refuse to print my comments – comments I have submitted regularly in many different venues around the world.

The Geraldo Show?

Then in 1997 Geraldo had me on as a guest to discuss the removal from the market of the serotonergic diet pills Fen-Phen and Redux which were found to be causing heart, lung & brain damage.
Because antidepressants are also serotonergic, & it was determined that the elevated serotonin produced by fen-phen and Redux is what caused the massive brain damage patients were having from those drugs, Geraldo welcomed SSRI antidepressant victims as well. So I brought a family from KS where the father, only days on Zoloft, stabbed his wife & two teens before committing suicide by shooting himself. And a woman whose daughter, a Neurologist, took her own life on Prozac.
Geraldo did an incredible job of demonstrating what these drug companies are doing to so many to cause damage with these drugs. And also as an attorney he did an excellent job of interviewing the drug company’s own attorneys on air.
As a result, in spite of its popularity I thought it very odd that his show ended within 6 months after our show aired.

The Leeza Gibbons Show

Two years later I arranged to do the Leeza Gibbons Show to discuss the high number of mothers on antidepressants who were killing their own children – a real rarity before the SSRIs.
As we stepped onto the stage to do the show they had the nerve to say to me & Robert Kirkwood, a father who had just lost his wife and two children when his wife committed murder suicide on the antidepressant Effexor, “You can say the word antidepressant, but you cannot say the brand names of the drugs.” He then added that the reason for that was, “Because of our advertisers.”
Leeza too did an excellent show & within three months after filming the show she was off the air as well!

Radio Too?!

Then two years later a national radio show, the largest in the market, with tens of millions of listeners had me on regularly & could not seem to get enough of my shows. I was repeatedly told what an incredible reception there was of my interviews by their listeners. Then suddenly their ownership changed & just as suddenly I was never on the show again!

Fox National News?

 

Then not long after that I worked with Robert Kennedy, Jr.’s younger brother, Douglas, on a Fox News National interview on school shootings. Douglas did several excellent news pieces on the subject of antidepressants & I just noticed Robert said here that it was the head of the NEWS division that said this to him. And I know there was some kind of big upset over me appearing on Fox News talking about the antidepressant connection to youth suicide & school shootings as well. This makes me wonder if that may have endangered Doug’s job at Fox?
So do I have ANY DOUBT whatsoever that this statement is true? ABSOLUTELY NONE!!!!!

Robert Kennedy Jr’s Own

SSRI Nightmare

Also keep in mind that Robert Kennedy, Jr lost his wife, Mary, in a Zoloft-induced suicide. I do hope his children know this was a drug reaction & that their mother did not make a conscious choice to leave them.

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UTAH Call To Action TODAY!!!

  • UTAH IN CRISIS!!
Over the past couple of months Utah has put out “new research” to convince everyone taking antidepressants that their dose needs to be DOUBLED!!! (More to come on that later & hopefully all those reading this are aware of how very dangerous altering the dose of an antidepressant, up or down, can be!)
Also just revealed is the fact that 25% of the women in Utah are taking antidepressants, so if the state does not wake up immediately to the dangers of these drugs Utah will see over the next few months a Serotonin Nightmare beyond comprehension as 25% of women in Utah will be a suicidal nightmare or “going postal”! And that does not tell us how many more men & children will be affected as well. With the fact that Utah’s teen suicide rate tripled while the rest of the world doubled their teen suicide rate in the decade since Black Box Warnings for suicide were placed on the drugs, this is the last thing the youth of Utah needed!

March for Our Lives Rally coupled with 2nd Amendment Rights Rally TODAY in Sandy

This Second Amendment rights group is doing what our groups should be doing if they were not all so sick from taking these drugs! But it is long overdue that the world wake up to this Serotonin Nightmare which now engulfs our world! These kids from Florida who are finally speaking out NEED to know the truth behind the cause of school shootings!
I have included attachments to print out as Flyers which alert everyone to Corey’s video about why he took a gun to school

Utah Gun Exchange Following “March For Our Lives” Around Country to Oppose Gun Control

https://www.sltrib.com/news/politics/2018/07/10/utah-gun-exchange-is/

4:00-5:30 pm
Saturday, July 14th
Utah Gun Exchange 2nd Amendment Freedom Rally
9498 S 670 W, Sandy, UT 84092
Will be held just before:
Parkland, Florida School Shooting Survivors’
“March For Our Lives” Public Panel Discussion Meeting at
5:30 – 7:30 PM
Mountain America Expo Center
9575 State Street
Sandy UT 84070
PLEASE ATTEND BOTH IF POSSIBLE – IT WILL SAVE LIVES!!!
The following is my direct response to the March for Our  movement with statements from those who have “been there” including …
…Columbine Miracle Boy, Mark Taylor, shot 6 – 13 times telling the FDA “antidepressants should be considered accomplices to murder!”
…Corey Baadsgard, the only school shooter to ever speak out explaining why he took a gun to school & warning the world to stop drugging their children!
…Michael Moore stating all the reasons his movie “Bowling for Columbine” gave for the cause of that first high profile school shooting was “BS” & these antidepressants were the obvious reason these two normal boys with high IQs went off the deep end!
 … a very long list of links to school shootings with documentation as to antidepressant use in each case
All that can be found at the following link:

PLEASE PRINT THE ABOVE RESPONSE & A FLYER & THE FOLLOWING TO USE AS SIGNS OR AS FLYERS TO PASS OUT

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1cNt66p77emqQNG9XpM1JPx0U8niPuQ9RRRmDGZT8jsY/edit?usp=sharing_eil&ts=5b49f13f

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMERICA & MY 10 YEAR OLD GRANDSON, GABE!!!

From the son of my dear friend Karol Truman, here is Dan Truman & his group, Diamond Rio, Singing “In God We Still Trust”

And here is an interesting & inspiring note from Karol, author of the incredible book I have LONG recommended, “Feelings Buried Alive Never Die.”

What an amazing accomplishment for those who did this!!!  It literally brings tears to my eyes…if this doesn’t remind Americans how very grateful & appreciative we ought to be for our country, I don’t know what will.  May God bless us all….

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Another Comedian Given Antidepressants – Howie Mandel Medicated for OCD

 

How sad! They conned Howie Mandel with these drugs too?! When I saw his picture that was my comment before even seeing what this article was about.

Why? Because he has “Prozac Eyes” indicating what type of so called “medication” (spelled D-R-U-G) they gave him, leading him to believe it would “help” him of course. What a crock! We have already lost at least two great comedians to antidepressants. We lost Phil Hartman to a Zoloft/Tramadol murder/suicide & lost Robin Williams to a Remeron induced suicide after it caused a REM Sleep Disorder. In REM Sleep Disorder 86% of those being diagnosed with this deadly sleep disorder in which the patient acts out their nightmares, are on antidepressants! How many are they going to kill with these drugs before this stops?!

Apparently I did not share enough about these deadly drugs with Elizabeth Vargas when I worked with her years ago on the 20/20 special she did on the Zoloft-induced murder/suicide of comedian Phil Hartman & his wife, Brynn. I served as the expert in that case & thought I had shared enough about these drugs that she would be warning anyone about them. Guess not.

OCD is simply Hypoglycemia! The brain cannot function properly when it does not have normal blood sugar levels. When that happens the brain becomes over-stimulated because the body kicks in adrenaline in response to the low sugar levels. All you have to do is change your diet and make sure you’re eating regularly & it will go away.

And as for the germ THEORY….it is just that, a THEORY!!! I was supposed to die of cancer 45 years ago. Because I couldn’t afford a coffin I decided to try something different. I went very strict vegan consuming mainly only fruits and veggies. Within a month the pains of the cancer were gone and within a year I was Back On My Feet Again healthier than ever after several years of being sick before. Since that time I have had no need to see a doctor. Yep, that’s right. Not having to see doctors for that many years has been very peaceful and pleasant.

All Howie would need to do to keep any germ from settling in his body is to not put anything into his body that germs are going to grow on. What a shame that they can take something with such a simple solution and turn it into something as major as this has been for him! It makes me sick! And if Howie thought OCD was tough to handle, just wait until he tries to get off that drug they gave him for it! That is when all hell breaks loose!!! I hope he learns that you have to take months, and more often years, to wean slowly enough to safely come off that stuff!

Help! I can’t get off my antidepressant! [Mp3 Download]

Ann Blake-Tracy, Executive Director,
International Coalition for Drug Awareness, www.drugawareness.org & www.SSRIstories.NET
Author: Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? Our Serotonin Nightmare!

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Roseanne Barr: Was her comment medication-induced?

Roseanne was on Prozac for years & had very serious reactions to it. She was estranged from her parents because she thought they molested her when she was 6 months old! (And her parents are the sweetest people you would ever want to meet!!!) As dreams  on antidepressants  are so extremely vivid  patients begin having problems  discerning  between dreams and reality so the to begin to mix with one another making the patient believe that they are actually remembering something that has happened to them. Once finally off the antidepressants she was able to realize it was all drug-induced by her medication. (See our group on that all too common reaction to these drugs:

Antidepressant-induced False Accusations of Abuse – m.facebook.com/groups/878496472235198?)

She then went on Oprah with her mother to apologize & state publicly that it was all caused by the drugs & the biggest mistake she has ever made in her life. Sadly her father had already passed away before she got off all her meds. He knew from my book, Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare!, that it was all being caused by the drugs, but he still never got to see their “Real Rosanne,” as they called her, once again before he died. 😢😢 It was really hard on him & it would not surprise me to learn it contributed to his death because they had been such a close knit family BEFORE these drugs entered their world.

What most do not know about Roseanne is that when she was only 16 she was hit by a car & the hood ornament was actually embedded in her forhead. Someone who has had a head injury, especially one as serious as that, should never, ever, ever, ever be given one of these drugs! They seem guaranteed to have the very worst side effects! Remember her grabbing her crotch while singing national anthem and calling it a “Prozac moment”?

But obviously she needs to be warned about not being able to take other mind-altering drugs after the serious reactions she had to antidepressants! And that would certainly include Ambien which is so notorious for also causing the REM Sleep Disorder, even though antidepressants are the very worst for causing this very deadly sleep , long known to induce both murder and suicide, where the patient acts out nightmares in a dream state!

A few listed side effects of Ambien

(Considering how many there are there is not room for them all)

Serious Ambien Side Effects: Memory, Depression, and More

Leave it to USA Today!

Of course USA Today had to carry the following article stating that the Ambien manufacturer said that racism is not a side effect of their drug! https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/nation-now/2018/05/30/roseanne-barr-blames-ambien-zolpidem-drug-real-side-effects/654683002/

All anyone needs to do is read the .medication side effects of argumentative behaviour and impaired judgement to see a connection! And I would strongly urge you to keep in mind that this is the same newspaper who apparently had no problems in taking some big advertising contract or obviously receiving compensation in some way for running a big feature article on the 10th anniversary Columbine titled “The Myths of Columbine” Of course the leading “myth” of Columbine was that Eric and Dylan, the shooters, were taking anti-depressants!

The minute the article hit the Press I contacted the reporter asking how he missed one of the biggest lawsuits of the past decade where the antidepressant manufacturer of the antidepressant Luvox was sued by Mark Taylor for their antidepressant causing Eric Harris to shoot Mark during the Columbine massacre. His reply was, “Oh yes I forgot Luvox. I will have to change that in the article!”

Of course the change was never made and was allowed to remain in the paper so that a week later it went out in there nation-wide Edition leading the country to believe bad indeed Eric and Dylan were not taking antidepressants at the time they shot up Columbine!

This is how Pharma rewrites history for us all! You now find people all the time who believe it is not true that Eric and Dylan were medicated at the time of that most notorious of all school shootings! And that is why I never pay any attention     to one word that comes from USA Today!

Mark Dice Making it Clear Rosanne’s Comment Was Not Racist

 

Ann Blake Tracy, Executive Director,

International Coalition for Drug Awareness

www.drugawareness.org & www.SSRIstories.net

Author: Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? – Our Serotonin Nightmare!

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Superman Star Margot Kidder, Advocate for Natural Mental Health, Dead at 69

MY COMMENT ON THE ARTICLE CIRCULATING EVERYWHERE THIS MORNING ON THE DEATH OF MARGOT KIDDER…
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Margot did not become an advocate for mental health!!! She became an advocate for natural treatment of mental health issues after suffering a horrific manic episode in 1996!!! From then on she treated her Bipolar naturally after working with orthomolecular psychiatrist Dr. Abram Hoffer.
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Margot was scheduled to lecture at my alma matter, Eastern Arizona College, when she suffered the manic episode & disappeared in 1996. I was asked to take her place for that lecture since I am an expert on antidepressants, (we now have a Facebook group called
Antidepressant induced bipolar and schizophrenia Facebook group,), but out of respect for Margot the event was cancelled instead.
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“I certainly hope that after the passing of Dr. Hoffer several years ago that no one used the standard marketing ploy of talking her into using a “new improved version” of one of these deadly antidepressants – drugs notorious for producing multiple organ failure resulting in death as the serotonin levels go too high thus producing Serotonin Syndrome!”
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Quote from Abram Hoffer MD – “There’s this statement that if you treat someone who is sick [with drugs] you have two problems,” adds Dr. Hoffer, who is the author of several books and maintains a private consultancy in Victoria. “Treat the illness and then treat the results of the treatment.”  Original Article
-Ann Blake-Tracy
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MARGOT KIDDER‘SUPERMAN’ STAR DEAD AT 69

 5/14/2018 9:24 AM PDT

‘Superman’ Star Margot Kidder Dead at 69

EXCLUSIVE

Margot Kidder, the actress who played Lois Lane in “Superman,” died Sunday in Montana … TMZ has learned.

Margot was at her home when she passed away, according to the spokesperson at Franzen-Davis Funeral Home in Livingston, MT. The cause of death is unknown at this point.

Bruce Becker, the Park County Attorney, tells TMZ … an unknown person called police to report Margot was unconscious and not breathing. Police responded and found her dead. The Livingston Police Chief says foul play is not considered a factor, but her death is now under investigation.  

Margot starred opposite Christopher Reeve in 1978’s “Superman,” and also in the 3 sequels. She continued acting right up until this year, taking small roles in TV shows and movies — but also had stage roles … including “The Vagina Monologues” on Broadway. She reportedly had 2 more roles yet to be released.

Margot had a very public battle with bipolar disorder for years. During her struggle she was briefly homeless in 1996. Margot became an advocate for mental health after that incident.

She’d been married 3 times, although she’d been single since the ’80s.

Margot is survived by a daughter.

RIP

 

‘I’ve had quite a few romances with really great men, more than most people perhaps, and I don’t miss them at all,” confesses Margot Kidder, punctuating her candour with an old-lady cackle. “I’m at a different phase of my life now.”

The Canadian-born actress who shot to fame in the late Seventies as Lois Lane in the Superman movie franchise has more than one saviour these days.

One is middle age, which serves as her cloak. Much of the glamorous thrice-married-and-divorced star, who counted Pierre Elliott Trudeau among her lovers, is hidden beneath a healthy weight gain, loose, comfortable clothes, a curtain of long auburn hair and large horn-rimmed glasses.

At 58, Ms. Kidder feels liberated from the expectations of others. “In middle age, you walk into a room and you don’t exist, and so you go, ‘Wait a minute. I had this identity as this hot young babe.’ You have to re-envision yourself, and I’ve loved it. You can be who you are and say what you think without thinking, ‘Is this going to make me less attractive as a female and am I batting my eyes enough at the guy?'”

The only man she occasionally turns to gaze at fondly is Abram Hoffer, president of the International Schizophrenia Foundation, who sits at the head of a small table in a downtown Toronto hotel where we meet.

He is her other saviour, a 90-year-old Superdoc in a crumpled tan suit, who has plucked patients from the grip of mental illnesses for over 40 years through the use of controversial orthomolecular psychiatry – a belief that the cure is in balancing or correcting a patient’s biochemistry.

By following his advice on supplementing her diet with a tailor-made regimen of vitamins, minerals, amino acids, enzymes, hormones and essential fatty acids – and no longer taking any pharmacological drugs – Ms. Kidder says she has freed herself of the manic depression she suffered all of her life and that caused her embarrassingly public meltdown in 1996.

Found on the streets of Los Angeles in a paranoid state, her hair hacked off and without her dental plate, Ms. Kidder, who had gone off her medication, became the poster girl for mental illness.

Shortly after, she visited her family in Vancouver and visited an acupuncturist who recommended she see Dr. Hoffer, an alternative-medicine pioneer who was born on a Saskatchewan farm in 1917 and likes to call his star patient Margie.

The two now keep in touch and regularly speak at conferences, including a recent one on nutritional medicine in Toronto, presented in part by the International Society for Orthomolecular Medicine.

Asked if she sees her infamous psychotic break as a good thing, Ms. Kidder answers initially with her cackling laugh, while Dr. Hoffer intones softly that “it was very good for the whole world.”

But there is little conversation that she shies away from and so, after a pause, Ms. Kidder leaps right in with her straightforward gaze, her hands on the table, palms face down and sliding back and forth across the smooth surface, as if she wants to brush away any crumb of misunderstanding.

“I had to look at the fact that I was an actress and you’re not allowed to get fat,” she says, leaning into the table. “I would go for one month on hard-boiled eggs and grapefruit and black coffee and then I’d have tequila and hot dogs for a week. There was no food in my brain, and thus it didn’t work.”

Fame was not to blame. “Whether I’d been working in a bank or working as an actress, it would have been the same experience. It’s my body.”

But some people find the manic phase of the illness highly creative. Did it ever help her in her work as an actress?

“I would say that an enormous number of people in the arts could be called bipolar,” she responds. “But these labels are very destructive. Human beings aren’t labels. They’re complex things of mind, body, soul.”

She and Dr. Hoffer then fly off together on a long digression about the malevolence of the medical establishment, talking more to each other than to me.

Ms. Kidder: “Doctors pathologize so many simply human feelings. Now, people in a state of grief automatically take an antidepressant.”

Dr. Hoffer: “When I started in psychiatry, there were 30 or 40 diagnostic terms. Now there are three or four hundred.”

I try to turn the conversation back to her.

“Why don’t you just listen to Dr. Hoffer?” she snaps with the annoyance of a schoolmarm.

They soar off again.

“The great tragedy of Dr. Hoffer’s work is that until the last few years, people turned to it not as the first line of defence, but when they were at the end of their rope,” Ms. Kidder puts in.

“There’s this statement that if you treat someone who is sick [with drugs] you have two problems,” adds Dr. Hoffer, who is the author of several books and maintains a private consultancy in Victoria. “Treat the illness and then treat the results of the treatment.”

“Nobody has ever died from taking too many vitamins,” Ms. Kidder coos as she peers fondly at her hero through her owlish glasses.

Turning to me, she instructs: “Nobody can make a lot of money off anyone getting well naturally, but they can make trillions of dollars getting well off synthetically made drugs.”

I am still wondering how her bouts of mania and depression affected her work.

“I am as good an actress sane as I was crazy, okay?” she says with a forced smile of perfect teeth.

Does she ever wonder if they affected her marriages?

“It’s hard to say,” she allows, relaxing a bit. “Generally, my experience is that you have long periods of being like anyone else and then you have episodes where you are a mess. So, I can’t say whether my first marriage [to writer/director Thomas McGuane, the father of her only child, Maggie]fell apart because of manic depression or if it fell apart because we were both too self-centred and egomaniacal to be able to compromise with each other,” she says, laughing at her assessment of herself.

Ms. Kidder luxuriates in the comfort of her middle-aged skin. A long-time resident of Livingston, Mont., she “gets paid enough from acting to make a living” and likes to spend time with her dog and two grandchildren who live nearby.

“I don’t think any of us who do this [orthomolecular treatment]are so silly as to assume that vitamins are going to cure you from life. You’re going to get some body blows that just happen,” she says as she turns to Dr. Hoffer, who smiles at her benevolently and nods his bald head in agreement. “That’s just called living,” she concludes calmly, still looking at him.

 

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    Candace Pert, the discoverer of the opiate binding process that made Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors possible. "Our physiology is perfectly designed for bliss and this perfection is dynamic, so taking responsibility for your own health is important.” Candace Pert